this evocation of the deep joys of his youth had given abbe mouret a touch of feverishness. he no longer felt the cold. he put down the tongs and walked towards the bedstead as if about to go to bed, but turned back and pressed his forehead to a window-pane, looking out into the night with sightless eyes. could he be ill? why did he feel such languor in all his limbs, why did his blood burn in every vein? on two occasions, while at the seminary, he had experienced similar attacks--a sort of physical discomfort which made him most unhappy; one day, indeed, he had gone to bed in raving delirium. then he bethought himself of a young girl possessed by evil spirits, whom brother archangias asserted he had cured with a simple sign of the cross, one day when she fell down before him. this reminded him of the spiritual exorcisms which one of his teachers had formerly recommended to him: prayer, a general confession, frequent communion, the choosing of a wise confessor who should have great authority on his mind. and then, without any transition, with a suddenness which astonished himself, he saw in the depths of his memory the round face of one of his old friends, a peasant, who had been a choir boy at eight years old, and whose expenses at the seminary were defrayed by a lady who watched over him. he was always laughing, he rejoiced beforehand at the anticipated emoluments of his career; twelve hundred francs of stipend, a vicarage at the end of a garden, presents, invitations to dinners, little profits from weddings, and baptismal and burial fees. that young fellow must indeed be happy in his parish.

the feeling of melancholy regret evoked by this recollection surprised abbe mouret extremely. was he not happy, too? until that day he had regretted nothing, wished for nothing, envied nothing. even as he searched himself at that very moment he failed to find any cause for bitterness. he believed himself the same as in the early days of his deaconship, when the obligatory perusal of his breviary at certain stated hours had filled his days with continuous prayer. no doubts had tormented him; he had prostrated himself before the mysteries he could not understand; he had sacrificed his reason, which he despised, with the greatest ease. when he left the seminary, he had rejoiced at finding himself a stranger among his fellowmen, no longer walking like them, carrying his head differently, possessed of the gestures, words, and opinions of a being apart. he had felt emasculated, nearer to the angels, cleansed of sexuality. it had almost made him proud to belong no longer to his species, to have been brought up for god and carefully purged of all human grossness by a jealously watchful training. again, it had seemed to him as if for years he had been dwelling in holy oil, prepared with all due rites, which had steeped his flesh in beatification. his limbs, his brain, had lost material substance to gain in soulfulness, impregnated with a subtle vapour which, at times, intoxicated him and dizzied him as if the earth had suddenly failed beneath his feet. he displayed the fears, the unwittingness, the open candour of a cloistered maiden. he sometimes remarked with a smile that he was prolonging his childhood, under the impression that he was still quite little, retaining the same sensations, the same ideas, the same opinions as in the past. at six years old, for instance, he had known as much of god as he knew at twenty-five; in prayer the inflexions of his voice were still the same, and he yet took a childish pleasure in folding his hands quite correctly. the world too seemed to him the same as he had seen in former days when his mother led him by the hand. he had been born a priest, and a priest he had grown up. whenever he displayed before la teuse some particularly gross ignorance of life, she would stare him in the face, astounded, and remark with a strange smile that 'he was mademoiselle desiree's brother all over.'

in all his existence he could only recall one shock of shame. it had happened during his last six months at the seminary, between his deaconship and priesthood. he had been ordered to read the work of abbe craisson, the superior of the great seminary at valence: '_de rebus veneris ad usum confessariorum_.' and he had risen from this book terrified and choking with sobs. that learned casuistry, dealing so fully with the abominations of mankind, descending to the most monstrous examples of vice, violated, as it were, all his virginity of body and mind. he felt himself for ever befouled. yet every time he heard confessions he inevitably recurred to that catechism of shame. and though the obscurities of dogma, the duties of his ministry, and the death of all free will within him left him calm and happy at being nought but the child of god, he retained, in spite of himself, a carnal taint of the horrors he must needs stir up; he was conscious of an ineffaceable stain, deep down somewhere in his being, which might some day grow larger and cover him with mud.

the moon was rising behind the garrigue hills. abbe mouret, still more and more feverish, opened the window and leaned out upon his elbows, that he might feel upon his face the coolness of the night. he could no longer remember at what time exactly this illness had come upon him. he recollected, however, that in the morning, while saying mass, he had been quite calm and restful. it must have been later, perhaps during his long walk in the sun, or while he shivered under the trees of the paradou, or while stifling in desiree's poultry-yard. and then he lived through the day again.

before him stretched the vast plain, more direful still beneath the pallid light of the oblique moonbeams. the olive and almond trees showed like grey spots amid the chaos of rocks spreading to the sombre row of hills on the horizon. there were big splotches of gloom, bumpy ridges, blood-hued earthy pools in which red stars seemed to contemplate one another, patches of chalky light, suggestive of women's garments cast off and disclosing shadowy forms which slumbered in the hollow folds of ground. at night that glowing landscape weltered there strangely, passionately, slumbering with uncovered bosom, and outspread twisted limbs, whilst heaving mighty sighs, and exhaling the strong aroma of a sweating sleeper. it was as if some mighty cybele had fallen there beneath the moon, intoxicated with the embraces of the sun. far away, abbe mouret's eyes followed the path to les olivettes, a narrow pale ribbon stretching along like a wavy stay-lace. he could hear brother archangias whipping the truant schoolgirls, and spitting in the faces of their elder sisters. he could see rosalie slyly laughing in her hands while old bambousse hurled clods of earth after her and smote her on her hips. then, too, he thought, he had still been well, his neck barely heated by the lovely morning sunshine. he had felt but a quivering behind him, that confused hum of life, which he had faintly heard since morning when the sun, in the midst of his mass, had entered the church by the shattered windows. never, then, had the country disturbed him, as it did at this hour of night, with its giant bosom, its yielding shadows, its gleams of ambery skin, its lavish goddess-like nudity, scarce hidden by the silvery gauze of moonlight.

the young priest lowered his eyes, and gazed upon the village of les artaud. it had sunk into the heavy slumber of weariness, the soundness of peasants' sleep. not a light: the battered hovels showed like dusky mounds intersected by the white stripes of cross lanes which the moonbeams swept. even the dogs were surely snoring on the thresholds of the closed doors. had the artauds poisoned the air of the parsonage with some abominable plague? behind him gathered and swept the gust whose approach filled him with so much anguish. now he could detect a sound like the tramping of a flock, a whiff of dusty air, which reached him laden with the emanations of beasts. again came back his thoughts of a handful of men beginning the centuries over again, springing up between those naked rocks like thistles sown by the winds. in his childhood nothing had amazed and frightened him more than those myriads of insects which gushed forth when he raised certain damp stones. the artauds disturbed him even in their slumber; he could recognise their breath in the air he inhaled. he would have liked to have had the rocks alone below his window. the hamlet was not dead enough; the thatched roofs bulged like bosoms; through the gaping cracks in the doors came low faint sounds which spoke of all the swarming life within. nausea came upon him. yet he had often faced it all without feeling any other need than that of refreshing himself in prayer.

his brow perspiring, he proceeded to open the other window, as if to seek cooler air. below him, to his left, lay the graveyard with the solitaire erect like a bar, unstirred by the faintest breeze. from the empty field arose an odour like that of a newly mown meadow. the grey wall of the church, that wall full of lizards and planted with wall-flowers, gleamed coldly in the moonlight, and the panes of one of the windows glistened like plates of steel. the sleeping church could now have no other life within it than the extra-human life of the divinity embodied in the host enclosed in the tabernacle. he thought of the bracket lamp's yellow glow peeping out of the gloom, and was tempted to go down once more to try to ease his ailing head amid those deep shadows. but a strange feeling of terror held him back; he suddenly fancied, while his eyes were fixed upon the moonlit panes, that he saw the church illumined by a furnace-like glare, the blaze of a festival of hell, in which whirled the month of may, the plants, the animals, and the girls of les artaud, who wildly encircled trees with their bare arms. then, as he leaned over, he saw beneath him desiree's poultry-yard, black and steaming. he could not clearly distinguish the rabbit-hutches, the fowls' roosting-places, or the ducks' house. the place was all one big mass heaped up in stench, still exhaling in its sleep a pestiferous odour. from under the stable-door came the acrid smell of the nanny-goat; while the little pig, stretched upon his back, snorted near an empty porringer. and suddenly with his brazen throat alexander, the big yellow cock, raised a crow, which awoke in the distance impassioned calls from all the cocks of the village.

then all at once abbe mouret remembered: the fever had struck him in desiree's farmyard, while he was looking at the hens still warm from laying, the rabbit-does plucking the down from under them. and now the feeling that some one was breathing on his neck became so distinct that he turned at last to see who was behind him. and then he recalled albine bounding out of the paradou, and the door slamming upon the vision of an enchanted garden; he recalled the girl racing alongside the interminable wall, following the gig at a run, and throwing birch leaves to the breeze as kisses; he recalled her, again, in the twilight, laughing at the oaths of brother archangias, her skirts skimming over the path like a cloudlet of dust bowled along by the evening breeze. she was sixteen; how strange she looked, with her rather elongated face! she savoured of the open air, of the grass, of mother earth. and so accurate was his recollection of her that he could once more see a scratch upon one of her supple wrists, a rosy scar on her white skin. why did she laugh like that when she looked at him with her blue eyes? he was engulfed in her laugh as in a sonorous wave which resounded and pressed close to him on every side; he inhaled it, he felt it vibrate within him. yes, all his evil came from that laugh of hers which he had quaffed.

standing in the middle of the room, with both windows open, he remained shivering, seized with a fright which made him hide his face in his hands. so this was the ending of the whole day; this evocation of a fair girl, with a somewhat long face and eyes of blue. and the whole day came in through the open windows. in the distance--the glow of those red lands, the ardent passion of the big rocks, of the olive-trees springing up amid the stones, of the vines twisting their arms by the roadside. nearer--the steam of human sweat borne in upon the air from les artaud, the musty odour of the cemetery, the fragrance of incense from the church, tainted by the scent of greasy-haired wenches. and there was also the steaming muck-heap, the fumes of the poultry-yard, the oppressing ferment of animal germs. and all these vapours poured in at once, in one asphyxiating gust, so offensive, so violent, as to choke him. he tried to close his senses, to subdue and annihilate them. but albine reappeared before him like a tall flower that had sprung and grown beautiful in that soil. she was the natural blossom of that corruption, delicate in the sunshine, her white shoulders expanding in youthfulness, her whole being so fraught with the gladness of life, that she leaped from her stem and darted upon his mouth, scenting him with her long ripple of laughter.

a cry burst from the priest. he had felt a burning touch upon his lips. a stream as of fire coursed through his veins. and then, in search of refuge, he threw himself on his knees before the statuette of the immaculate conception, exclaiming, with folded hands:

'holy virgin of virgins, pray for me!'