the immaculate conception, set on the walnut chest of drawers, was smiling softly, with her slender lips, marked by a dash of carmine. her form was small and wholly white. her long white veil, falling from head to foot, had but an imperceptible thread of gold around its edge. her gown, draped in long straight folds over a sexless figure, was fastened around her flexible neck. not a single lock of her chestnut hair peeped forth. her countenance was rosy, with clear eyes upturned to heaven: her hands were clasped--rosy, childlike hands, whose finger-tips appeared beneath the folds of her veil, above the azure scarf which seemed to girdle her waist with two streaming ends of the firmament. of all her womanly charms not one was bared, except her feet, adorable feet which trod the mystical eglantine. and from those nude feet sprang golden roses, like the natural efflorescence of her twofold purity of flesh.

'virgin most faithful, pray for me,' the priest despairingly pleaded.

this virgin had never distressed him. she was not a mother yet; she did not offer jesus to him, her figure did not yet present the rounded outlines of maternity. she was not the queen of heaven descending, crowned with gold and clothed in gold like a princess of the earth, borne in triumph by a flight of cherubim. she had never assumed an awesome mien; had never spoken to him with the austere severity of an all-powerful mistress, the very sight of whom must bow all foreheads to the dust. he could dare to look on her and love her, without fear of being moved by the gentle wave of her chestnut hair; her bare feet alone excited his affection, those feet of love which blossomed like a garden of chastity in too miraculous a manner for him to seek to cover them with kisses. she scented his room with lily-like fragrance. she was indeed the silver lily planted in a golden vase, she was precious, eternal, impeccable purity. within the white veil, so closely drawn round her, there could be nothing human--only a virgin flame, burning with ever even glow. at night when he went to bed, in the morning when he woke, he could see her there, still and ever wearing that same ecstatic smile.

'mother most pure, mother most chaste, mother ever-virgin, pray for me!' he stammered in his fear, pressing close to the virgin's feet, as if he could hear albine's sonorous footfalls behind him. 'you are my refuge, the source of my joy, the seat of my wisdom, the tower of ivory in which i have shut up my purity. i place myself in your spotless hands, i beseech you to take me, to cover me with a corner of your veil, to hide me beneath your innocence, behind the hallowed rampart of your garment --so that no fleshly breath may reach me. i need you, i die without you, i shall feel for ever parted from you, if you do not bear me away in your helpful arms, far hence into the glowing whiteness wherein you dwell. o mary, conceived without sin, annihilate me in the depths of the immaculate snow that falls from your every limb. you are the miracle of eternal chastity. your race has sprung from a very beam of grace, like some wondrous tree unsown by any germ. your son, jesus, was born of the breath of god; you yourself were born without defilement of your mother's womb, and i would believe that this virginity goes back thus from age to age in endless unwittingness of flesh. oh! to live, to grow up outside the pale of the senses! oh! to perpetuate life solely by the contact of a celestial kiss!'

this despairing appeal, this cry of purified longing, calmed the young priest's fears. the virgin--wholly white, with eyes turned heavenward, appeared to smile more tenderly with her thin red lips. and in a softened voice he went on:

'i should like to be a child once more. i should like to be always a child, walking in the shadow of your gown. when i was quite little, i clasped my hands when i uttered the name of mary. my cradle was white, my body was white, my every thought was white. i could see you distinctly, i could hear you calling me, i went towards you in the light of a smile over scattered rose-petals. and nought else did i feel or think, i lived but just enough to be a flower at your feet. no one should grow up. you would have around you none but fair young heads, a crowd of children who would love you with pure hands, unsullied lips, tender limbs, stainless as if fresh from a bath of milk. to kiss a child's cheek is to kiss its soul. a child alone can say your name without befouling it. in later years our lips grow tainted and reek of our passions. even i, who love you so much, and have given myself to you, i dare not at all times call on you, for i would not let you come in contact with the impurities of my manhood. i have prayed and chastised my flesh, i have slept in your keeping, and lived in chastity; and yet i weep to see that i am not yet dead enough to this world to be your betrothed. o mary! adorable virgin, why can i not be only five years old--why could i not remain the child who pressed his lips to your pictures? i would take you to my heart, i would lay you by my side, i would clasp and kiss you like a friend--like a girl of my own age. your close hanging garments, your childish veil, your blue scarf--all that youthfulness which makes you like an elder sister would be mine. i would not try to kiss your locks, for hair is a naked thing which should not be seen; but i would kiss your bare feet, one after the other, for nights and nights together, until my lips should have shred the petals of those golden roses, those mystical roses of our veins.'

he stopped, waiting for the virgin to look down upon him and touch his forehead with the edges of her veil. but she remained enwrapped in muslin to her neck and finger-nails and ankles, so slim, so etherealised, that she already seemed to be above earth, to be wholly heaven's own.

'well, then,' he went on more wildly still, 'grant that i become a child again, o kindly virgin! virgin most powerful. grant that i may be only five years old. rid me of my senses, rid me of my manhood. let a miracle sweep away all the man that has grown up within me. you reign in heaven, nothing is easier to you than to change me, to rid me of all my strength so that evermore i may be unable to raise my little finger without your leave. i wish never more to feel either nerve, or muscle, or the beating of my heart. i long to be simply a thing--a white stone at your feet, on which you will leave but a perfume; a stone that will not move from where you cast it, but will remain earless and eyeless, content to lie beneath your heel, unable to think of foulness! oh! then what bliss for me! i shall reach without an effort and at a bound my dream of perfection. i shall at last proclaim myself your true priest. i shall become what all my studies, my prayers, my five years of initiation have been unable to make me. yes, i reject life; i say that the death of mankind is better than abomination. everything is stained; everywhere is love tainted. earth is steeped in impurity, whose slightest drops yield growths of shame. but that i may be perfect, o queen of angels, hearken to my prayer, and grant it! make me one of those angels that have only two great wings behind their cheeks; i shall then no longer have a body, no longer have any limbs; i will fly to you if you call me. i shall be but a mouth to sing your praises, a pair of spotless wings to cradle you in your journeys through the heavens. o death! death! virgin, most venerable, grant me the death of all! i will love you for the death of my body, the death of all that lives and multiplies. i will consummate with you the sole marriage that my heart desires. i will ascend, ever higher and higher, till i have reached the brasier in which you shine in splendour. there one beholds a mighty planet, an immense white rose, whose every petal glows like a moon, a silver throne whence you beam with such a blaze of innocence that heaven itself is all illumined by the gleam of your veil alone. all that is white, the early dawns, the snow on inaccessible peaks, the lilies barely opening, the water of hidden, unknown springs, the milky sap of the plants untouched by the sun, the smiles of maidens, the souls of children dead in their cradles --all rains upon your white feet. and i will rise to your mouth like a subtle flame; i will enter into you by your parted lips, and the bridal will be fulfilled, while the archangels are thrilled by our joyfulness. oh, to be maiden, to love in maidenhood, to preserve amid the sweetest kisses one's maiden whiteness! to possess all love, stretched on the wings of swans, in a sky of purity, in the arms of a mistress of light, whose caresses are but raptures of the soul! oh, there lies the perfection, the super-human dream, the yearning which shatters my very bones, the joy which bears me up to heaven! o mary, vessel of election, rid me of all that is human in me, so that you may fearlessly surrender to me the treasure of your maidenhood!'

and then abbe mouret, felled by fever, his teeth chattering, swooned away on the floor.