this change from insecurity to being an accredited newspaper man was delightful. for a very little while, a year or so, it seemed to open up a clear straight course which if followed energetically must lead me to great heights. of course i found that beginners were very badly paid. salaries ranged from fourteen to twenty-five dollars for reporters; and as for those important missions about which i had always been reading, they were not even thought of here. the best i could learn of them in this office was that they did exist—on some papers. young men were still sent abroad on missions, or to the west or to africa (as stanley), but they had to be men of proved merit or budding genius and connected with papers of the greatest importance. how could one prove oneself to be a budding genius?

salary or no salary, however, i was now a newspaper man, with the opportunity eventually to make a name for myself. having broken with the family and with my sister c——, i was now quite alone in the world and free to go anywhere and do as i pleased. i found a front room in ogden place overlooking union park (in which area i afterwards placed one of my heroines). i could walk from here to the office in a little over twenty minutes. my route lay through either madison street or washington boulevard east to the river, and morning and night i had ample opportunity to speculate on the rancid or out-at-elbows character of much that i saw. both washington and madison, from halsted east to the river, were lined with vile dens and tumbledown yellow and gray frame houses, slovenly, rancorous, unsolved and possibly unsolvable misery and degeneracy, whole streets of degraded, dejected, miserable souls. why didn’t society do better by them? i often asked of myself then. why didn’t they do better by themselves? did god, who, as had been drummed into me up to that hour was all wise, all merciful, omnipresent and omnipotent make people so or did they themselves have something to do with it? was government to blame, or they themselves? always the miseries of the poor, the scandals, corruptions and physical deteriorations which trail folly, weakness, uncontrolled passion fascinated me. i was never tired of looking at them, but i had no solution and was not willing to accept any, suspecting even then that man is the victim of forces over which he has no control. as i walked here and there through these truly terrible neighborhoods, i peered through open doors and patched and broken windows at this wretchedness and squalor, much as a man may tread the poisonous paths of a jungle, curious and yet fearsome.

it was this nosing and speculative tendency, however, which helped me most, as i soon found. journalism, even in chicago, was still in that discursive stage which loved long-winded yarns upon almost any topic. nearly all news stories were padded to make more of them than they deserved, especially as to color and romance. all specials were being written in imitation of the great novelists, particularly charles dickens, who was the ideal of all newspaper men and editors as well as magazine special writers (how often have i been told to imitate charles dickens in thought and manner!). the city editors wanted not so much bare facts as feature stories, color, romance; and, although i did not see it clearly at the time, i was their man.

write?

why, i could write reams upon any topic when at last i discovered that i could write at all. one day some one—maxwell, i suppose—hearing me speak of what i was seeing each day as i came to or went from the office to my room, suggested that i do an article on chicago’s vilest slum, which lay between halsted and the river, madison and twelfth streets, for the next sunday issue, and this was as good as meat and drink for me. i visited this region a few times between one and four in the morning, wandering about its clattering boardwalks, its dark alleys, its gloomy mire and muck atmosphere. chicago’s wretchedness was never utterly tame, disconsolate or hang-dog, whatever else it might be; rather, it was savage, bitter and at times larkish and impish. the vile slovens, slatterns, prostitutes, drunkards and drug fiends who infested this region all led a strident if beggarly or horrible life. saloon lights and smells and lamps gleaming smokily from behind broken lattices and from below wooden sidewalk levels, gave it a shameless and dangerous color. accordions, harmonicas, jew’s-harps, clattering tin-pan pianos and stringy violins were forever going; paintless rotting shacks always resounded with a noisy blasphemous life between twelve and four; oaths, foul phrases; a hogarthian shamelessness and reconciliation to filth everywhere—these were some of the things that characterized it. although there was a closing-hour law there was none here as long as it was deemed worth while to keep open. only at four and five in the morning did a heavy peace seem to descend, and this seemed as wretched as the heavier vice and degradation which preceded it.

in the face of such a scene or picture as this my mind invariably paused in question. i had been reared on dogmatic religious and moral theory, or at least had been compelled to listen to it all my life. here then was a part of the work of an omnipotent god, who nevertheless tolerated, apparently, a most industrious devil. why did he do it? why did nature, when left to itself, devise such astounding slums and human muck heaps? harlots in doorways or behind windows or under lamp-posts in these areas, smirking and signaling creatures with the dullest or most fox-like expression and with heavily smeared lips and cheeks and blackened eyebrows, were ready to give themselves for one dollar, or even fifty cents, and this in the heart of this budding and prosperous west, a land flowing with milk and honey! what had brought that about so soon in a new, rich, healthy, forceful land—god? devil? or both working together toward a common end? near at hand were huge and rapidly expanding industries. the street-cars and trains, morning and evening, were crowded with earnest, careful, saving, seeking, moderately well-dressed people who were presumably anxious to work and lay aside a competence and own a home. then why was it that these others lived in such a hell? was god to blame? or society?

i could not solve it. this matter of being, with its differences, is permanently above the understanding of man, i fear.

i smiled as i thought of my father’s attitude to all this. there he was out on the west side demanding that all creatures of the world return to christ and the catholic church, see clearly, whether they could or not, its grave import to their immortal souls; and here were these sows and termagants, wretched, filthy, greasy. and the men low-browed, ill-clad, rum-soaked, body-racked! mere bags of bones, many of them, blue-nosed, scarlet-splotched, diseased—if god should get them what would he do with them? on the other hand, in the so-called better walks of life, there were so many strutting, contentious, self-opinionated swine-masters whose faces were maps of gross egoism and whose clothes were almost a blare of sound.

i think i said a little something of all this in the first newspaper special i ever wrote. it seemed to open the eyes of my superiors.

“you know, theodore,” maxwell observed to me as he read my copy the next morning between one and three, “you have your faults, but you do know how to observe. you bring a fresh mind to bear on this stuff; anyhow i think maybe you’re cut out to be a writer after all, not just an ordinary newspaper man.” he lapsed into silence, and then at periods as he read he would exclaim: “jesus christ!” or “that’s a hell of a world!” then he would fall foul of some turgid english and with a kind of malicious glee would cut and hack and restate and shake his head despairingly, until i was convinced that i had written the truckiest rot in the world. at the close, however, he arose, dusted his lap, lit a pipe and said: “well, i think you’re nutty, but i believe you’re a writer just the same. they ought to let you do more sunday specials.” and then he talked to me about phases of the chicago he knew, contrasting it with a like section in san francisco, where he had once worked.

“a hell of a fine novel is going to be written about some of these things one of these days,” he remarked; and from now on he treated me with such equality that i thought i must indeed be a very remarkable man.