what the senator had told me was true. the deciding conference was on, and i determined to hang about the corridors of the richelieu until it was over. the secretary, whom i found closeted with others (not newspaper men) in a room on the second floor, was good enough to see me when i mentioned senator mcentee’s name, and told me to return at six-thirty, when he was sure the conference would be over and a general statement be issued to the press. if i wished, i might come back at five-thirty. this dampened my joy in the thought that i had something exclusive, though i was later cheered by the thought that i had probably saved my paper from defeat anyhow for we were too poor to belong to the general news service. as a matter of fact, my early information was a cause of wonder in the office, the political man himself coming down late in the night to find out how i had learned so soon. i spoke of my friend senator mcentee as though i had known him for years. the political man merely looked at me and said: “well, you ought to get along in politics on one of the papers, if nowhere else.”

the capture of this one fact, as i rather felt at the time, was my making in this newspaper office and hence in the newspaper world at large, in so far as i ever was made.

at five-thirty that afternoon i was on hand, and, true to his word, the secretary outlined exactly what conclusions the conference had reached. afterward he brought out a type-written statement and read from it such facts as he wished me to have. cleveland was to be nominated. another man, adlai stevenson of illinois, of whom i had never heard, was to be nominated for vice-president. there were other details, so confusing that i could scarcely grasp them, but i made some notes and flew to the office and tried to write out all i had heard. i know now that i made a very bad job of it, but maxwell worked so hard and so cheerfully that he saved me. from one source and another he confirmed or modified my statements, wrote an intelligent introduction and turned it in.

“you’re one of the damnedest crack-brained loons i ever saw,” he said at one place, cutting out a great slice of my stuff, “but you seem to know how to get the news just the same, and you’re going to be able to write. if i could just keep you under my thumb for four or five weeks i think i could make something out of you.”

at this i ventured to lay one hand over his shoulder in an affectionate and yet appealing way, but he looked up frowningly and said: “cut the gentle con work, theodore. i know you. you’re just like all other newspaper men, or will be: grateful when things are coming your way. if i were out of a job or in your position you’d do just like all the others: pass me up. i know you better than you know yourself. life is a god-damned stinking, treacherous game, and nine hundred and ninety-nine men out of every thousand are bastards. i don’t know why i do this for you,” and he cut some more of my fine writing, “but i like you. i don’t expect to get anything back. i never do. people always trim me when i want anything. there’s nobody home if i’m knocking. but i’m such a god-damned fool that i like to do it. but don’t think i’m not on, or that i’m a genial ass that can be worked by every tom, dick and harry.” and after visiting me with that fat superior smile he went on working. i stared, nervous, restless, resentful, sorrowful, trying to justify myself to life and to him.

“if i had a real chance,” i said, “i would soon show you.”

the convention opened its sessions the next day, and because of my seeming cleverness i was given a front seat in the press-stand, where i could hear all speeches, observe the crowd, trade ideas with the best newspaper men in the city and the country. in a day, if you will believe it, and in spite of the fact that i was getting only fifteen dollars a week, my stock had risen so that, in this one office at least, i was looked upon as a newspaper man of rare talent, an extraordinarily bright boy sure to carve out a future for himself, one to be made friends with and helped. here in this press-stand i was now being coached by one newspaper man and another in the intricacies of convention life. i was introduced to two other members of our staff who were supposed to be experienced men, both of them small, clever, practical-minded individuals well adapted to the work in hand. one of them, harry l. dunlap, followed my errant fortunes for years, securing a place through me in st. louis and rising finally to be the confidential adviser of one of our presidents, william howard taft—a not very remarkable president to be adviser to at that. the other, a small brown-suited soul, brady by name, came into my life for a very little while and then went, i know not where.

but this convention, how it thrilled me! to be tossed into the vortex of national politics at a time when the country was seething over the possible resuscitation of the old democratic party to strength and power was something like living. i listened to the speeches, those dully conceived flights and word gymnastics and pyrotechnics whereby backwoods statesmen, district leaders and personality-followers seek to foist upon the attention of the country their own personalities as well as those of the individuals whom they admire. although it was generally known that cleveland was to be nominated (the money power of america having fixed upon him) and it was useless to name any one else, still as many as ten different “statesmen” great leaders, saviors were put in nomination. each man so mentioned was the beau ideal of a nation’s dream of a leader, a statesman, a patriot, lover of liberty and of the people. this in itself was a liberal education and slowly but surely opened my eyes. i watched with amazement this love of fanfare and noise, the way in which various delegations and individual followers loved to shout and walk up and down waving banners and blowing horns. different states or cities had sent large delegations, new york a marching club two thousand strong, all of whom had seats in this hall, and all were plainly instructed to yell and demonstrate at the mention of a given name.

the one thing i heard which seemed rather important at the time, beautiful, because of a man’s voice and gestures, was a speech by bourke cochran, exhorting the convention to nominate his candidate, david bennett hill, and save the party from defeat. indeed his speech, until later i heard william jennings bryan, seemed to me the best i had ever heard, clear, sonorous, forcible, sensible. he had something to say and he said it with art and seeming conviction. he had presence too, a sort of herculean, animal-like effrontery. he made his audience sit up and pay attention to him, when as a matter of fact it was interested in talking privately, one member to another. i tried to take notes of what he was saying until one of my associates told me that the full minutes of his speech could soon be secured from the shorthand reporters.

being in this great hall cheek by jowl with the best of the chicago newspaper world thrilled me. “now,” i said to myself, “i am truly a newspaper man. if i can only get interesting things to write about, my fortune is made.” at once, as the different forceful reporters of the city were pointed out to me (george ade, finley peter dunne, “charlie” seymour, charles d’almy), my neck swelled as does a dog’s when a rival appears on the scene. already, at mere sight of them, i was anxious to try conclusions with them on some important mission and so see which of us was the better man. always, up to the early thirties, i was so human as to conceive almost a deadly opposition to any one who even looked as though he might be able to try conclusions with me in anything. at that time, i was ready for a row, believing, now that i had got thus far, that i was destined to become one of the greatest newspaper men that ever lived!

but this convention brought me no additional glory. i did write a flowery description of the thing as a whole, but only a portion of it was used. i did get some details of committee work, which were probably incorporated in the political man’s general summary. the next day, cleveland being nominated, interest fell off. thousands packed their bags and departed. i was used for a day or two about hotels gathering one bit of news and another, but i could see that there was no import to what i was doing and began to grow nervous lest i should be summarily dropped. i spoke to maxwell about it.

“do you think they’ll drop me?” i asked.

“not by a damned sight!” he replied contentiously. “you’ve earned a show here; it’s been promised you; you’ve made good, and they ought to give it to you. don’t you say anything; just leave it to me. there’s going to be a conference here tomorrow as to who’s to be dropped and who kept on, and i’ll have my say then. you saved the day for us on that nomination stuff, and that ought to get you a show. leave it to me.”

the conference took place the next day and of the five men who had been taken on to do extra work during the convention i and one other were the only ones retained, and this at the expense of two former reporters dropped. at that, i really believe i should have been sent off if it had not been for maxwell. he had been present during most of the transactions concerning mr. gissel’s book and thought i deserved work on that score alone, to say nothing of my subsequent efforts. i think he disliked the little editorial writer very much. at any rate when this conference began maxwell, according to dunlap who was there and reported to me, sat back, a look of contented cynicism on his face not unlike that of a fox about to devour a chicken. the names of several of the new men were proposed as substitutes for the old ones when, not hearing mine mentioned, he inquired:

“well, what about dreiser?”

“well, what about him?” retorted sullivan, the city editor. “he’s a good man, but he lacks training. these other fellows are experienced.”

“i thought you and gissel sort of agreed to give him a show if he sold that book for you?”

“no, i didn’t,” said sullivan. “i only promised to give him a tryout around convention time. i’ve done that.”

“but he’s the best man on the staff today,” insisted maxwell. “he brought in the only piece of news worth having. he’s writing better every day.”

he bristled, according to dunlap, and sullivan and gissel, taking the hint that the quarrel might be carried higher up or aired inconveniently, changed their attitude completely.

“oh, well,” said sullivan genially, “let him come on. i’d just as lief have him. he may pan out.”

and so on i came, at fifteen dollars a week, and thus my newspaper career was begun in earnest.