it was of the organ-builder that i had thackeray's books first. he knew their literary quality, and their rank in the literary, world; but i believe he was surprised at the passion i instantly conceived for them. he could not understand it; he deplored it almost as a moral defect in me; though he honored it as a proof of my critical taste. in a certain measure he was right.

what flatters the worldly pride in a young man is what fascinates him with thackeray. with his air of looking down on the highest, and confidentially inviting you to be of his company in the seat of the scorner he is irresistible; his very confession that he is a snob, too, is balm and solace to the reader who secretly admires the splendors he affects to despise. his sentimentality is also dear to the heart of youth, and the boy who is dazzled by his satire is melted by his easy pathos. then, if the boy has read a good many other books, he is taken with that abundance of literary turn and allusion in thackeray; there is hardly a sentence but reminds him that he is in the society of a great literary swell, who has read everything, and can mock or burlesque life right and left from the literature always at his command. at the same time he feels his mastery, and is abjectly grateful to him in his own simple love of the good for his patronage of the unassuming virtues. it is so pleasing to one's 'vanity, and so safe, to be of the master's side when he assails those vices and foibles which are inherent in the system of things, and which one can contemn with vast applause so long as one does not attempt to undo the conditions they spring from.

i exulted to have thackeray attack the aristocrats, and expose their wicked pride and meanness, and i never noticed that he did not propose to do away with aristocracy, which is and must always be just what it has been, and which cannot be changed while it exists at all. he appeared to me one of the noblest creatures that ever was when he derided the shams of society; and i was far from seeing that society, as we have it, was necessarily a sham; when he made a mock of snobbishness i did not know but snobbishness was something that might be reached and cured by ridicule. now i know that so long as we have social inequality we shall have snobs; we shall have men who bully and truckle, and women who snub and crawl. i know that it is futile to, spurn them, or lash them for trying to get on in the world, and that the world is what it must be from the selfish motives which underlie our economic life. but i did not know these things then, nor for long afterwards, and so i gave my heart to thackeray, who seemed to promise me in his contempt of the world a refuge from the shame i felt for my own want of figure in it. he had the effect of taking me into the great world, and making me a party to his splendid indifference to titles, and even to royalties; and i could not see that sham for sham he was unwittingly the greatest sham of all.

i think it was 'pendennis' i began with, and i lived in the book to the very last line of it, and made its alien circumstance mine to the smallest detail. i am still not sure but it is the author's greatest book, and i speak from a thorough acquaintance with every line he has written, except the virginians, which i have never been able to read quite through; most of his work i have read twice, and some of it twenty times.

after reading 'pendennis' i went to 'vanity fair,' which i now think the poorest of thackeray's novels—crude, heavy-handed, caricatured. about the same time i revelled in the romanticism of 'henry esmond,' with its pseudo-eighteenth-century sentiment, and its appeals to an overwrought ideal of gentlemanhood and honor. it was long before i was duly revolted by esmond's transfer of his passion from the daughter to the mother whom he is successively enamoured of. i believe this unpleasant and preposterous affair is thought one of the fine things in the story; i do not mind owning that i thought it so myself when i was seventeen; and if i could have found a beatrix to be in love with, and a lady castlewood to be in love with me, i should have asked nothing finer of fortune. the glamour of henry esmond was all the deeper because i was reading the 'spectator' then, and was constantly in the company of addison, and steele, and swift, and pope, and all the wits at will's, who are presented evanescently in the romance. the intensely literary keeping, as well as quality, of the story i suppose is what formed its highest fascination for me; but that effect of great world which it imparts to the reader, making him citizen, and, if he will, leading citizen of it, was what helped turn my head.

this is the toxic property of all thackeray's writing. he is himself forever dominated in imagination by the world, and even while he tells you it is not worth while he makes you feel that it is worth while. it is not the honest man, but the man of honor, who shines in his page; his meek folk are proudly meek, and there is a touch of superiority, a glint of mundane splendor, in his lowliest. he rails at the order of things, but he imagines nothing different, even when he shows that its baseness, and cruelty, and hypocrisy are well-nigh inevitable, and, for most of those who wish to get on in it, quite inevitable. he has a good word for the virtues, he patronizes the christian graces, he pats humble merit on the head; he has even explosions of indignation against the insolence and pride of birth, and purse-pride. but, after all, he is of the world, worldly, and the highest hope he holds out is that you may be in the world and despise its ambitions while you compass its ends.

i should be far from blaming him for all this. he was of his time; but since his time men have thought beyond him, and seen life with a vision which makes his seem rather purblind. he must have been immensely in advance of most of the thinking and feeling of his day, for people then used to accuse his sentimental pessimism of cynical qualities which we could hardly find in it now. it was the age of intense individualism, when you were to do right because it was becoming to you, say, as a gentleman, and you were to have an eye single to the effect upon your character, if not your reputation; you were not to do a mean thing because it was wrong, but because it was mean. it was romanticism carried into the region of morals. but i had very little concern then as to that sort of error.

i was on a very high esthetic horse, which i could not have conveniently stooped from if i had wished; it was quite enough for me that thackeray's novels were prodigious works of art, and i acquired merit, at least with myself, for appreciating them so keenly, for liking them so much. it must be, i felt with far less consciousness than my formulation of the feeling expresses, that i was of some finer sort myself to be able to enjoy such a fine sort. no doubt i should have been a coxcomb of some kind, if not that kind, and i shall not be very strenuous in censuring thackeray for his effect upon me in this way. no doubt the effect was already in me, and he did not so much produce it as find it.

in the mean time he was a vast delight to me, as much in the variety of his minor works—his 'yellowplush,' and 'letters of mr. brown,' and 'adventures of major gahagan,' and the 'paris sketch book,' and the 'irish sketch book,' and the 'great hoggarty diamond,' and the 'book of snobs,' and the 'english humorists,' and the 'four georges,' and all the multitude of his essays, and verses, and caricatures—as in the spacious designs of his huge novels, the 'newcomes,' and 'pendennis,' and 'vanity fair,' and 'henry esmond,' and 'barry lyndon.'

there was something in the art of the last which seemed to me then, and still seems, the farthest reach of the author's great talent. it is couched, like so much of his work, in the autobiographic form, which next to the dramatic form is the most natural, and which lends itself with such flexibility to the purpose of the author. in 'barry lyndon' there is imagined to the life a scoundrel of such rare quality that he never supposes for a moment but he is the finest sort of a gentleman; and so, in fact, he was, as most gentlemen went in his day. of course, the picture is over-colored; it was the vice of thackeray, or of thackeray's time, to surcharge all imitations of life and character, so that a generation apparently much slower, if not duller than ours, should not possibly miss the artist's meaning. but i do not think it is so much surcharged as 'esmond;' 'barry lyndon' is by no manner of means so conscious as that mirror of gentlemanhood, with its manifold self-reverberations; and for these reasons i am inclined to think he is the most perfect creation of thackeray's mind.

i did not make the acquaintance of thackeray's books all at once, or even in rapid succession, and he at no time possessed the whole empire of my catholic, not to say, fickle, affections, during the years i was compassing a full knowledge and sense of his greatness, and burning incense at his shrine. but there was a moment when he so outshone and overtopped all other divinities in my worship that i was effectively his alone, as i have been the helpless and, as it were, hypnotized devotee of three or four others of the very great. from his art there flowed into me a literary quality which tinged my whole mental substance, and made it impossible for me to say, or wish to say, anything without giving it the literary color. that is, while he dominated my love and fancy, if i had been so fortunate as to have a simple concept of anything in life, i must have tried to give the expression of it some turn or tint that would remind the reader of books even before it reminded him of men.

it is hard to make out what i mean, but this is a try at it, and i do not know that i shall be able to do better unless i add that thackeray, of all the writers that i have known, is the most thoroughly and profoundly imbued with literature, so that when he speaks it is not with words and blood, but with words and ink. you may read the greatest part of dickens, as you may read the greatest part of hawthorne or tolstoy, and not once be reminded of literature as a business or a cult, but you can hardly read a paragraph, hardly a sentence, of thackeray's without being reminded of it either by suggestion or downright allusion.

i do not blame him for this; he was himself, and he could not have been any other manner of man without loss; but i say that the greatest talent is not that which breathes of the library, but that which breathes of the street, the field, the open sky, the simple earth. i began to imitate this master of mine almost as soon as i began to read him; this must be, and i had a greater pride and joy in my success than i should probably have known in anything really creative; i should have suspected that, i should have distrusted that, because i had nothing to test it by, no model; but here before me was the very finest and noblest model, and i had but to form my lines upon it, and i had produced a work of art altogether more estimable in my eyes than anything else could have been. i saw the little world about me through the lenses of my master's spectacles, and i reported its facts, in his tone and his attitude, with his self-flattered scorn, his showy sighs, his facile satire. i need not say i was perfectly satisfied with the result, or that to be able to imitate thackeray was a much greater thing for me than to have been able to imitate nature. in fact, i could have valued any picture of the life and character i knew only as it put me in mind of life and character as these had shown themselves to me in his books.