the quaker had become as weak as water in his daughter's hands. to whatever she might have desired he would have given his assent. he went daily up from pegwell bay to pogson and littlebird's, but even then he was an altered man. it had been said there for a few days that his daughter was to become the wife of the eldest son of the marquis of kingsbury, and then it had been said that there could be no such marriage—because of marion's health. the glory while it lasted he had borne meekly, but with a certain anxious satisfaction. the pride of his life had been in marion, and this young lord's choice had justified his pride. but the glory had been very fleeting. and now it was understood through all pogson and littlebird's that their senior clerk had been crushed, not by the loss of his noble son-in-law, but by the cause which produced the loss. under these circumstances poor zachary fay had hardly any will of his own, except to do that which his daughter suggested to him. when she told him that she would wish to go up to london for a few days, he assented as a matter of course. and when she explained that she wished to do so in order that she might see lord hampstead, he only shook his head sadly, and was silent.

"of course i will come as you wish it," marion had said in her letter to her lover. "what would i not do that you wish,—except when you wish things that you know you ought not? mrs. roden says that i am to go up to be lectured. you mustn't be very hard upon me. i don't think you ought to ask me to do things which you know,—which you know that i cannot do. oh, my lover! oh, my love! would that it were all over, and that you were free!"

in answer to this, and to other letters of the kind, he wrote to her long argumentative epistles, in which he strove to repress the assurances of his love, in order that he might convince her the better by the strength of his reasoning. he spoke to her of the will of god, and of the wickedness of which she would be guilty if she took upon herself to foretell the doings of providence. he said much of the actual bond by which they had tied themselves together in declaring their mutual love. he endeavoured to explain to her that she could not be justified in settling such a question for herself without reference to the opinion of those who must know the world better than she did. had the words of a short ceremony been spoken, she would have been bound to obey him as her husband. was she not equally bound now, already, to acknowledge his superiority,—and if not by him, was it not her manifest duty to be guided by her father? then at the end of four carefully-written, well-stuffed pages, there would come two or three words of burning love. "my marion, my self, my very heart!" it need hardly be said that as the well-stuffed pages went for nothing with marion,—had not the least effect towards convincing her, so were the few words the very food on which she lived. there was no absurdity in the language of love that was not to her a gem so brilliant that it deserved to be garnered in the very treasure house of her memory! all those long useless sermons were preserved because they had been made rich and rare by the expression of his passion.

she understood him, and valued him at the proper rate, and measured him correctly in everything. he was so true, she knew him to be so true, that even his superlatives could not be other than true! but as for his reasoning, she knew that that came also from his passion. she could not argue the matter out with him, but he was wrong in it all. she was not bound to listen to any other voice but that of her own conscience. she was bound not to subject him to the sorrows which would attend him were he to become her husband. she could not tell how weak or how strong might be his nature in bearing the burden of the grief which would certainly fall upon him at her death. she had heard, and had in part seen, that time does always mitigate the weight of that burden. perhaps it might be best that she should go at once, so that no prolonged period of his future career should be injured by his waiting. she had begun to think that he would be unable to look for another wife while she lived. by degrees there came upon her the full conviction of the steadfastness, nay, of the stubbornness, of his heart. she had been told that men were not usually like that. when first he had become sweet to her, she had not thought that he would have been like that. was it not almost unmanly,—or rather was it not womanly? and yet he,—strong and masterful as he was,—could he have aught of a woman's weakness about him? could she have dreamed that it would be so from the first, she thought that from the very first she could have abstained.

"of course i shall be at home on tuesday at two. am i not at home every day at all hours? mrs. roden shall not be there as you do not wish it, though mrs. roden has always been your friend. of course i shall be alone. papa is always in the city. good to you! of course i shall be good to you! how can i be bad to the one being that i love better than all the world? i am always thinking of you; but i do wish that you would not think so much of me. a man should not think so much of a girl,—only just at his spare moments. i did not think that it would be like that when i told you that you might love me."

all that tuesday morning, before he left home, he was not only thinking of her, but trying to marshal in order what arguments he might use,—so as to convince her at last. he did not at all understand how utterly fruitless his arguments had been with her. when mrs. roden had told him of marion's strength he had only in part believed her. in all matters concerning the moment marion was weak and womanly before him. when he told her that this or the other thing was proper and becoming, she took it as gospel because it came from him. there was something of the old awe even when she looked up into his face. because he was a great nobleman, and because she was the quaker's daughter, there was still, in spite of their perfect love, something of superiority, something of inferiority of position. it was natural that he should command,—natural that she should obey. how could it be then that she should not at last obey him in this great thing which was so necessary to him? and yet hitherto he had never gone near to prevailing with her. of course he marshalled all his arguments.

gentle and timid as she was, she had made up her mind to everything, even down to the very greeting with which she would receive him. his first warm kiss had shocked her. she had thought of it since, and had told herself that no harm could come to her from such tokens of affection,—that it would be unnatural were she to refuse it to him. let it pass by as an incident that should mean nothing. to hang upon his neck and to feel and to know that she was his very own,—that might not be given to her. to hear his words of love and to answer him with words as warm,—that could be allowed to her. as for the rest, it would be better that she should let it so pass by that there need be as little of contention as possible on a matter so trivial.

when he came into the room he took her at once, passive and unresisting, into his arms. "marion," he said. "marion! do you say that you are ill? you are as bright as a rose."

"rose leaves soon fall. but we will not talk about that. why go to such a subject?"

"it cannot be helped." he still held her by the waist, and now again he kissed her. there was something in her passive submission which made him think at the moment that she had at last determined to yield to him altogether. "marion, marion," he said, still holding her in his embrace, "you will be persuaded by me? you will be mine now?"

gradually,—very gently,—she contrived to extricate herself. there must be no more of it, or his passion would become too strong for her. "sit down, dearest," she said. "you flurry me by all this. it is not good that i should be flurried."

"i will be quiet, tame, motionless, if you will only say the one word to me. make me understand that we are not to be parted, and i will ask for nothing else."

"parted! no, i do not think that we shall be parted."

"say that the day shall come when we may really be joined together; when—"

"no, dear; no; i cannot say that. i cannot alter anything that i have said before. i cannot make things other than they are. here we are, we two, loving each other with all our hearts, and yet it may not be. my dear, dear lord!" she had never even yet learned another name for him than this. "sometimes i ask myself whether it has been my fault." she was now sitting, and he was standing over her, but still holding her by the hand.

"there has been no fault. why should either have been in fault?"

"when there is so great a misfortune there must generally have been a fault. but i do not think there has been any here. do not misunderstand me, dear. the misfortune is not with me. i do not know that the lord could have sent me a greater blessing than to have been loved by you,—were it not that your trouble, your grief, your complainings rob me of my joy."

"then do not rob me," he said.

"out of two evils you must choose the least. you have heard of that, have you not?"

"there need be no evil;—no such evil as this." then he dropped her hand, and stood apart from her while he listened to her, or else walked up and down the room, throwing at her now and again a quick angry word, as she went on striving to make clear to him the ideas as they came to her mind.

"i do not know how i could have done otherwise," she said, "when you would make it so certain to me that you loved me. i suppose it might have been possible for me to go away, and not to say a word in answer."

"that is nonsense,—sheer nonsense," he said.

"i could not tell you an untruth. i tried it once, but the words would not come at my bidding. had i not spoken them, you would read the truth in my eyes. what then could i have done? and yet there was not a moment in which i have not known that it must be as it is."

"it need not be; it need not be. it should not be."

"yes, dear, it must be. as it is so why not let us have the sweet of it as far as it will go? can you not take a joy in thinking that you have given an inexpressible brightness to your poor marion's days; that you have thrown over her a heavenly light which would be all glorious to her if she did not see that you were covered by a cloud? if i thought that you could hold up your head with manly strength, and accept this little gift of my love, just for what it is worth,—just for what it is worth,—then i think i could be happy to the end."

"what would you have me do? can a man love and not love?"

"i almost think he can. i almost think that men do. i would not have you not love me. i would not lose my light and my glory altogether. but i would have your love to be of such a nature that it should not conquer you. i would have you remember your name and your family—"

"i care nothing for my name. as far as i am concerned, my name is gone."

"oh, my lord!"

"you have determined that my name shall go no further."

"that is unmanly, lord hampstead. because a poor weak girl such as i am cannot do all that you wish, are you to throw away your strength and your youth, and all the high hopes which ought to be before you? would you say that it were well in another if you heard that he had thrown up everything, surrendered all his duties, because of his love for some girl infinitely beneath him in the world's esteem?"

"there is no question of above and beneath. i will not have it. as to that, at any rate we are on a par."

"a man and a girl can never be on a par. you have a great career, and you declare that it shall go for nothing because i cannot be your wife."

"can i help myself if i am broken-hearted? you can help me."

"no, lord hampstead; it is there that you are wrong. it is there that you must allow me to say that i have the clearer knowledge. with an effort on your part the thing may be done."

"what effort? what effort? can i teach myself to forget that i have ever seen you?"

"no, indeed; you cannot forget. but you may resolve that, remembering me, you should remember me only for what i am worth. you should not buy your memories at too high a price."

"what is it that you would have me do?"

"i would have you seek another wife."

"marion!"

"i would have you seek another wife. if not instantly, i would have you instantly resolve to do so."

"it would not hurt you to feel that i loved another?"

"i think not. i have tried myself, and now i think that it would not hurt me. there was a time in which i owned to myself that it would be very bitter, and then i told myself, that i hoped,—that i hoped that you would wait. but now, i have acknowledged to myself the vanity and selfishness of such a wish. if i really love you am i not bound to want what may be best for you?"

"you think that possible?" he said, standing over her, and looking down upon her. "judging from your own heart do you think that you could do that if outward circumstances made it convenient?"

"no, no, no."

"why should you suppose me to be harder-hearted than yourself, more callous, more like a beast of the fields?"

"more like a man is what i would have you."

"i have listened to you, marion, and now you may listen to me. your distinctions as to men and women are all vain. there are those, men and women both, who can love and do love, and there are those who neither do nor can. whether it be for good or evil,—we can, you and i, and we do. it would be impossible to think of giving yourself to another?"

"that is certainly true."

"it is the same with me,—and will ever be so. whether you live or die, i can have no other wife than marion fay. as to that i have a right to expect that you shall believe me. whether i have a wife or not you must decide."

"oh, dearest, do not kill me."

"it has to be so. if you can be firm so can i. as to my name and my family, it matters nothing. could i be allowed to look forward and think that you would sit at my hearth, and that some child that should be my child should lie in your arms, then i could look forward to what you call a career. not that he might be the last of a hundred traffords, not that he might be an earl or a marquis like his forefathers, not that he might some day live to be a wealthy peer, would i have it so,—but because he would be yours and mine." now she got up, and threw her arms around him, and stood leaning on him as he spoke. "i can look forward to that and think of a career. if that cannot be, the rest of it must provide for itself. there are others who can look after the traffords,—and who will do so whether it be necessary or not. to have gone a little out of the beaten path, to have escaped some of the traditional absurdities, would have been something to me. to have let the world see how noble a countess i could find for it—that would have satisfied me. and i had succeeded. i had found one that would really have graced the name. if it is not to be so,—why then let the name and family go on in the old beaten track. i shall not make another venture. i have made my choice, and it is to come to this."

"you must wait, dear;—you must wait. i had not thought it would be like this; but you must wait."

"what god may have in store for me, who can tell. you have told me your mind, marion; and now i trust that you will understand mine. i do not accept your decision, but you will accept mine. think of it all, and when you see me again in a day or two, then see whether you will not be able to join your lot to mine and make the best of it." upon this he kissed her again, and left her without another word.