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The Serio-Comic Governess

Chapter 8
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in such a mood she was playing one saturday evening in the interval before dinner, when she became aware that somebody was listening, and turning her head, she saw through the irish mist a man's figure standing in the conservatory. the figure was vanishing when she cried out a whit huskily, "oh, pray, don't let me drive you away."

he stood still. "if i am not interrupting your music," he murmured.

"not at all," she said, breaking it off altogether.

as the mist cleared she had a vivid impression of a tall, fair young man against a background of palms. "eyes burning under a white marble mantel-piece," she summed up his face. could this uncrippled, rather good-looking person be bob?

"won't you come in, mr. robert?" she said riskily.

"i only wished to thank you," he said, sliding a step or two into the room.

"there is nothing to thank me for," she said, whirling her stool to face him. "it's my way of amusing myself." she was glad she was in her evening frock.

"amusing yourself!" he looked aghast.

"what else? i am alone--i have nothing better in the world to do."

"does it amuse you?" he was flushed now, even the marble mantel-piece ruddied by the flame. "i wish it amused me."

now it was eileen's turn to gasp. "then why do you listen?"

"i don't listen--i bury myself as far away as i can."

"so i have understood. then what are you thanking me for?"

"for what you are doing for--." his hesitation was barely perceptible--"my mother."

"oh!" eileen looked blank. "i thought you meant for my music."

his face showed vast relief. "oh, you were talking of your music! of course, of course, how stupid of me! that is what has drawn me from my hole, like a rat to the pied piper, and i do thank you most sincerely. but being drawn, what i most wished to thank the piper for was--"

"your mother pays the piper for that," she broke in.

he smiled but tossed his head. "money! what is that?"

"it is more than i deserve for mere companionship--pleasant drives and theatres."

he did not accept her delicate reticence.

"but you have altered her wonderfully!" he cried.

"oh, i have not," she cried, doubly startled. "it's just nothing that i have done--nothing." then she felt her modesty had put her foot in a bog-hole. unseeingly he helped her out.

"it is most kind of you to put it like that. but i see it in every movement, every word. she imitates you unconsciously--i became curious to see so excellent a model, though i had resolved not to meet you. no, no, please, don't misunderstand."

"i don't," she said mischievously. "you have now given me three reasons for seeing me. you need give me none for not seeing me."

"but you must understand," he said, colouring again, "how painful all this has been for me--"

"not seeing me?" she interpolated innocently.

"the--the whole thing," he stammered.

"yes, parents are tiresome," she said sympathetically.

he came nearer the music-stool.

"are they not? they came down every year for the eights."

"is that at oxford?"

"yes."

she was silent; her thumb flicked at a note on the keyboard behind her.

"but that's not what i mind in them most--"

she wondered at the rapidity with which his shyness was passing into effusiveness. but then was she not the "mother-confessor"? had not even her favourite nuns told her things about their early lives, even when there was no moral to be pointed? "they're very good-hearted," she murmured apologetically. "i'm often companion--in charity expeditions."

"it's easy to be good-hearted when you don't know what to do with your money. this place is full of such people. but i look in vain for the diviner impulse."

eileen wondered if he were a dissenter. but then "the place was full of such people."

"you don't think there's enough religion?" she murmured.

"there's certainly plenty of churches and chapels. but i find myself isolated here. you see, i'm a socialist."

eileen crossed herself instinctively.

"you don't believe in god!" she cried in horror. for the good nuns had taught her that "_les socialistes_" were synonymous with "_les athees_."

he laughed. "not, if by god you mean mammon. i don't believe in property--we up here in the sun and the others down there in the soot."

"but you _are_ up here," said eileen, naively.

"i can't help it. my mother would raise cain." he smiled wistfully. "she couldn't bear to see a stranger helping father in the factory management."

"then you _are_ down there."

"quite so. i work as hard as any one even if my labour isn't manual. i dress like an ordinary hand, too, though my mother doesn't know that, for i change at the office."

"but what good does that do?"

"it satisfies my conscience."

"and i suppose the men like it?"

"no, that's the strange part. they don't. and father only laughs. but one must persist. at oxford i worked under ruskin."

"oh, you're an artist!"

"no, i didn't mean that part of ruskin's work. his gospel of labour--we had a patch for digging."

"what--real spades!"

"did you imagine we called a spoon a spade?" he said, a whit resentfully.

eileen smiled. "no, but i can't imagine you using a common or garden spade."

"you are thinking of my hands." he looked at them, not without complacency, eileen thought, as she herself wondered where he had got his long white fingers from. "but it is a couple of years ago," he explained. "it was hard work, i assure you."

"did your mother know?" eileen asked with a little whimsical look.

"of course not. she would have been horrified."

"well, but most people would be surprised."

"yes. put your muscle into an oar or a cricket bat and you are a hero; put your muscle into a spade and you are a madman."

"you think it's _vice versa_?" queried eileen, ingenuously.

"much more. at least," he stammered and coloured again, "i don't pose as a hero but simply--"

"as what?" eileen still looked innocent.

"i simply think work is the noblest function of man," he burst forth. "don't you?"

"i do not," answered eileen. "work is a curse. if the serpent had not tempted eve to break god's commandment, we should still be basking in paradise."

he looked at her curiously. "you believe that?"

"isn't it in the bible?" she answered, seriously astonished.

"whatever the primitive semitic allegorist may have thought, work is a blessing, not a curse."

"then you _are_ an atheist!" eileen recoiled from this strange young man.

"ah, you shrink back!" he said in tones of bitter pleasure. "i told you i lived in isolation."

eileen's humour shot forth candidly. "you'll not be isolated when you die."

his bitterness passed into genial superiority. "you mean i'll go to hell. how can you believe anything so horrible?"

"why is that horrible for me to believe? for you--" and she filled up the sentence with a smile.

"i don't believe you do believe it."

"there's nothing you seem to believe. i do honestly think that you can't be saved if you don't believe."

"i accept that. the question, however, is what kind of belief and what kind of saving. do you suppose plato is in hell?"

"i don't know. he invented platonic love, didn't he? so that might save him." she looked at him with her great grey eyes--he couldn't tell whether she was quizzing him or not.

"is that all you know of plato?"

"i know he was a greek philosopher. but i only learned greek roots at the convent. so plato is greek to me."

"he has been beautifully englished by the master of my college. i wish you'd read him."

"is the translation in the library?"

"of course--with lots of other interesting books, and such queer folios and quartos and first editions. the collector was a man of taste. why do you never come and let me show them you?"

"you'd run away."

"no, i wouldn't," he smiled encouragingly.

"yes, you would. and leave your pipe on plato!"

he laughed. "was i rude? but i didn't know you then. come to-morrow afternoon and show you've forgiven me."

the new interest was sufficiently tempting. but her maidenliness held back. "i'll come with your mother."

disgust lent him wit. "you're her companion--not she yours."

"true. nor i yours."

"then i'll come here."

"bringing the plato and the folios--?"

"why not? you can't forbid me my own drawing-room."

"i can run away and leave my crochet-hook behind."

"you'll find me hooked on whenever you return."

"well, if you're determined--by hook or by crook! but you're not going to convert me to socialism?"

"i won't promise."

"you must. i don't mind reading plato."

"he's worse. he isn't a christian at all."

"i don't mind that. he's b.c. he couldn't help it. but you socialists came after christ."

"how do you know socialism isn't a return to him?"

"is it?"

"aha! you are getting interested.... but i hear my mother coming down to dinner. to be continued in our next. _a demain_, is it not?"

he held out his shapely white hand, and hastened through the conservatory into the garden.

"going to dig?" eileen called after him maliciously.

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