monday, november 17th. this was a black day in our calendar. at seven o’clock in the morning, it being our watch below, we were aroused from a sound sleep by the cry of “all hands ahoy! a man overboard!” this unwonted cry sent a thrill through the heart of every one, and, hurrying on deck, we found the vessel hove flat aback, with all her studding-sails set; for, the boy who was at the helm leaving it to throw something overboard, the carpenter, who was an old sailor, knowing that the wind was light, put the helm down and hove her aback. the watch on deck were lowering away the quarter-boat, and i got on deck just in time to fling myself into her as she was leaving the side; but it was not until out upon the wide pacific, in our little boat, that i knew whom we had lost. it was george ballmer, the young english sailor, whom i have before spoken of as the life of the crew. he was prized by the officers as an active and willing seaman, and by the men as a lively, hearty fellow, and a good shipmate. he was going aloft to fit a strap round the main topmasthead, for ringtail halyards, and had the strap and block, a coil of halyards, and a marline-spike about his neck. he fell from the starboard futtock shrouds, and, not knowing how to swim, and being heavily dressed, with all those things round his neck, he probably sank immediately. we pulled astern, in the direction in which he fell, and though we knew that there was no hope of saving him, yet no one wished to speak of returning, and we rowed about for nearly an hour, without an idea of doing anything, but unwilling to acknowledge to ourselves that we must give him up. at length we turned the boat’s head and made towards the brig.

death is at all times solemn, but never so much so as at sea. a man dies on shore; his body remains with his friends, and “the mourners go about the streets”; but when a man falls overboard at sea and is lost, there is a suddenness in the event, and a difficulty in realizing it, which give to it an air of awful mystery. a man dies on shore — you follow his body to the grave, and a stone marks the spot. you are often prepared for the event. there is always something which helps you to realize it when it happens, and to recall it when it has passed. a man is shot down by your side in battle, and the mangled body remains an object, and a real evidence; but at sea, the man is near you — at your side — you hear his voice, and in an instant he is gone, and nothing but a vacancy shows his loss. then, too, at sea — to use a homely but expressive phrase — you miss a man so much. a dozen men are shut up together in a little bark upon the wide, wide sea, and for months and months see no forms and hear no voices but their own, and one is taken suddenly from among them, and they miss him at every turn. it is like losing a limb. there are no new faces or new scenes to fill up the gap. there is always an empty berth in the forecastle, and one man wanting when the small night-watch is mustered. there is one less to take the wheel, and one less to lay out with you upon the yard. you miss his form, and the sound of his voice, for habit had made them almost necessary to you, and each of your senses feels the loss.

all these things make such a death peculiarly solemn, and the effect of it remains upon the crew for some time. there is more kindness shown by the officers to the crew, and by the crew to one another. there is more quietness and seriousness. the oath and the loud laugh are gone. the officers are more watchful, and the crew go more carefully aloft. the lost man is seldom mentioned, or is dismissed with a sailor’s rude eulogy — “well, poor george is gone! his cruise is up soon! he knew his work, and did his duty, and was a good shipmate.” then usually follows some allusion to another world, for sailors are almost all believers, in their way; though their notions and opinions are unfixed and at loose ends. they say, “god won’t be hard upon the poor fellow,” and seldom get beyond the common phrase which seems to imply that their sufferings and hard treatment here will be passed to their credit in the books of the great captain hereafter — “to work hard, live hard, die hard, and go to hell after all, would be hard indeed!” our cook, a simple-hearted old african, who had been through a good deal in his day, and was rather seriously inclined, always going to church twice a day when on shore, and reading his bible on a sunday in the galley, talked to the crew about spending the lord’s days badly, and told them that they might go as suddenly as george had, and be as little prepared.

yet a sailor’s life is at best but a mixture of a little good with much evil, and a little pleasure with much pain. the beautiful is linked with the revolting, the sublime with the commonplace, and the solemn with the ludicrous.

not long after we had returned on board with our sad report, an auction was held of the poor man’s effects. the captain had first, however, called all hands aft and asked them if they were satisfied that everything had been done to save the man, and if they thought there was any use in remaining there longer. the crew all said that it was in vain, for the man did not know how to swim, and was very heavily dressed. so we then filled away and kept the brig off to her course.

the laws regulating navigation make the captain answerable for the effects of a sailor who dies during the voyage, and it is either a law or a custom, established for convenience, that the captain should soon hold an auction of his things, in which they are bid off by the sailors, and the sums which they give are deducted from their wages at the end of the voyage. in this way the trouble and risk of keeping his things through the voyage are avoided, and the clothes are usually sold for more than they would be worth on shore. accordingly, we had no sooner got the ship before the wind, than his chest was brought up upon the forecastle, and the sale began. the jackets and trousers in which we had seen him dressed so lately were exposed and bid off while the life was hardly out of his body, and his chest was taken aft and used as a store-chest, so that there was nothing left which could be called his. sailors have an unwillingness to wear a dead man’s clothes during the same voyage, and they seldom do so, unless they are in absolute want.

as is usual after a death, many stories were told about george. some had heard him say that he repented never having learned to swim, and that he knew that he should meet his death by drowning. another said that he never knew any good to come of a voyage made against the will, and the deceased man shipped and spent his advance, and was afterwards very unwilling to go, but, not being able to refund, was obliged to sail with us. a boy, too, who had become quite attached to him, said that george talked to him, during most of the watch on the night before, about his mother and family at home, and this was the first time that he had mentioned the subject during the voyage.

the night after this event, when i went to the galley to get a light, i found the cook inclined to be talkative, so i sat down on the spars, and gave him an opportunity to hold a yarn. i was the more inclined to do so, as i found that he was full of the superstitions once more common among seamen, and which the recent death had waked up in his mind. he talked about george’s having spoken of his friends, and said he believed few men died without having a warning of it, which he supported by a great many stories of dreams, and of unusual behavior of men before death. from this he went on to other superstitions, the flying dutchman, &c., and talked rather mysteriously, having something evidently on his mind. at length he put his head out of the galley and looked carefully about to see if any one was within hearing, and, being satisfied on that point, asked me in a low tone —

“i say! you know what countryman ‘e carpenter be?”

“yes,” said i; “he’s a german.”

“what kind of a german?” said the cook.

“he belongs to bremen,” said i.

“are you sure o’ dat?” said he.

i satisfied him on that point by saying that he could speak no language but the german and english.

“i’m plaguy glad o’ dat,” said the cook. “i was mighty ‘fraid he was a fin. i tell you what, i been plaguy civil to that man all the voyage.”

i asked him the reason of this, and found that he was fully possessed with the notion that fins are wizards, and especially have power over winds and storms. i tried to reason with him about it, but he had the best of all arguments, that from experience, at hand, and was not to be moved. he had been to the sandwich islands in a vessel in which the sail-maker was a fin, and could do anything he was of a mind to. this sail-maker kept a junk bottle in his berth, which was always just half full of rum, though he got drunk upon it nearly every day. he had seen him sit for hours together, talking to this bottle, which he stood up before him on the table. the same man cut his throat in his berth, and everybody said he was possessed.

he had heard of ships, too, beating up the gulf of finland against a head wind, and having a ship heave in sight astern, overhaul, and pass them, with as fair a wind as could blow, and all studding-sails out, and find she was from finland.

“oh, no!” said he; “i’ve seen too much o’ dem men to want to see ’em ‘board a ship. if dey can’t have dare own way, they’ll play the d —— l with you.”

as i still doubted, he said he would leave it to john, who was the oldest seaman aboard, and would know, if anybody did. john, to be sure, was the oldest, and at the same time the most ignorant, man in the ship; but i consented to have him called. the cook stated the matter to him, and john, as i anticipated, sided with the cook, and said that he himself had been in a ship where they had a head wind for a fortnight, and the captain found out at last that one of the men, with whom he had had same hard words a short time before, was a fin, and immediately told him if he didn’t stop the head wind he would shut him down in the fore peak. the fin would not give in, and the captain shut him down in the fore peak, and would not give him anything to eat. the fin held out for a day and a half, when he could not stand it any longer, and did something or other which brought the wind round again, and they let him up.

“dar,” said the cook, “what you tink o’ dat?”

i told him i had no doubt it was true, and that it would have been odd if the wind had not changed in fifteen days, fin or no fin.

“o,” says he, “go ‘way! you tink, ‘cause you been to college, you know better dan anybody. you know better dan dem as ‘as seen it wid der own eyes. you wait till you’ve been to sea as long as i have, and den you’ll know.”