it has been seen that frank renton was not, in any sense of the words, a model young man. he was not offensive nor disagreeable, but as a pure matter of fact, the centre of his own world, as, indeed, we all are more or less. when it had been placed so very clearly before him that it was to his advantage to marry money, he had acquiesced, with a little struggle, feeling that the advantage was so great as to create a duty; but now, after this bewildering day, another prospect altogether opened before his eyes. he had forgotten nelly. for the moment she passed from his mind, as if she had never been, and alice had risen upon him like the sun. he could perceive now that from the first moment his heart had claimed her. happiness, companionship, the very light of life, seemed to be concentrated for him in that simple youthful creature, ignorant of the world, innocent as a child, sweet with the earliest freshness of existence. he had no need{307} to reason about it, to say to himself that it was she whom he wanted, she whom he had unconsciously been groping for; he knew it; it was clear as daylight; he seemed to himself to have been aware of it all along, from the earliest moment. a voice from heaven had spoken to him, as to adam, crying, ‘this is she.’ such was the thought that filled his mind as he went down to royalborough in the dark and damp loneliness of the railway carriage. he had so much thinking to do that he had warned the guard that he must have a compartment to himself; and there he lay back in his corner with a very black shadow thrown on him from the dim lamp, and floated forth upon this elysian sea of thought. but it was only for the first two minutes that it was elysian. all at once he sat bolt upright, and remembered that he had forgotten something. nelly! this recollection rushed at him like another railway train in the darkness, so that there was a sharp and violent collision. after the first shock frank began to consider anxiously how far he had gone on that other side, what words he might have spoken, what inferences had been made. only yesterday, it must be allowed, he was making very decided way towards nelly. he had been softened, and brought nearer to her personally, and the house and the hunters had held a very high place in his thoughts. he had persuaded his mother to call, and written a note which{308} was not at all unlike the first beginning of love-making. and yet, to-day, he had forgotten nelly’s existence. when he recollected all this, he grew suddenly very hot, and very uncomfortable. love, even when it is unfortunate, has something sweet in it; but the thought of nelly’s little indignant face was not sweet. he had never loved her; he had never, even to himself, pretended to be fond of her. he had represented to himself that if they were married, no doubt the time would come when he should be fond of his wife. but while he was thus deciding in cold blood, the other had but to give a glance, and all was over with nelly. when this terrible complication became apparent, frank no longer found that there was anything elysian in his circumstances; for this discovery suddenly revealed to him the entire circumstances of the case. nelly was marriageable, for she was very rich; but alice was poor. if the wealth of the one out-balanced the objections against her in respect to birth and breeding, there was no such saving clause in respect to the other. even mr. rich patronised mrs. severn. the artist’s family was of no rank, and had no such social standing whatever, not even that conferred by money. as for the distinction of art,—frank was too much a man of the world not to know for how little that counted. penniless, without connexions or prospects, or blood, or anything,—a creature who was only herself, and pos{309}sessed only the qualities of her own mind and heart! to make such a marriage, frank was aware, would be sheer madness. nelly was different. nelly meant cookesley lodge, with all its accompaniments and a certain sum a-year. alice meant nothing but her simple self. no wonder the moisture stood heavy on his forehead. he had been a fool, in suffering himself to be thus moved out of all sense and prudence. and yet when he tried to turn to other thoughts his heart grew sick. he—almost—made a vow never to think of anybody, never to look at any one more. why was fate always so spiteful? why was it that alice had not nelly’s fortune, or nelly alice’s charms? it was not that he was mercenary. money, except for what it brought, was not important to frank; but there is a difference between being mercenary and being an idiot. and he knew so well what the world would say if, instead of marrying money, he married a girl who had nothing,—neither money nor any other substantial recommendation. he would be laughed at, and she would be snubbed,—and who could wonder at it? thus frank reasoned with himself, and groaned in his heart. and then he thought of india, and the world stood still for a moment that he might look that possibility in the face.

india! in the first place, it was out of the world, and the ridicule attending his fiasco would not, in india, be so overwhelming; but at the same{310} time, the world is a very small place, and news would travel faster than by telegraph to everybody who was anybody. in india the pay was double, which was a very great matter; but then, on the other hand, would not the expenses be greater too? not, of course, in proportion to cookesley lodge and the hunters, which, alas! it was no use thinking any more about, but in proportion to the tiny ménage which a young soldier with two hundred a-year, besides his pay, might venture on at home. and here, once more, frank drew himself up, with a sensation of misery. two hundred a-year and his pay barely sufficed for himself. to marry upon it would be simple madness, neither more nor less. and to wait seven years—— no! india was the only chance. it was the most usual thing in the world for a young fellow going out there to marry before he went;—therefore it must be practicable. there would be no society nor expensive habits,—as he supposed, in his ignorance,—and there was the chance of appointments, which was always worth taking into account. frank contemplated the question all round, but it was a very dreary horizon which encircled him on every side. poverty, the renunciation of most things which had made life agreeable—a struggle with care and the burdens of serious life,—instead of cookesley and the hunters and terriers, and the country gentleman’s existence, for which he had evidently been created!{311} there was so much good in the young man however, that though he could not but contrast the two existences which thus seemed to be set before him, he could not and did not contrast the two through whose hands their different threads must run. he made no comparison there. nelly had been swept out of his sky the moment alice appeared.

one thing was quite clear to him at this crisis of excitement and emotion, while the image of alice still danced before his eyes with all her soft looks and words;—cookesley and its delights,—meaning nelly and her fortune,—were impossible,—quite impossible; altogether out of the question. he had been capable in the abstract of doing a duty to himself and the world, and securing,—in default of laurie, for whom he always acknowledged the position would have been so much more suitable,—all those advantages which seemed to be held out to him in nelly rich’s hand. he liked her very well, and no doubt would have grown fond of her in time. that he could have done. his own interests, and the unanimous voice of his friends, and the appeal of the world in general, had all but decided the question. but frank, notwithstanding the prudent and practical character of his understanding, was true and honest at bottom. and as soon as he discovered beyond question that he was in love with one woman, it became impossible for him to marry another, whatever the advantages might be which{312} she brought with her. he was not capable of that. it was indispensable to him to be true, if not to alice, who knew nothing about his sentiments, at least to nelly. she had a right to it. he could have married her yesterday, but he could not deceive her to-day. what could he do? the clouds closed in upon him, swallowed him up, the more he thought it over. do! nothing but trudge forth to india, leaving his hopes of every description behind him,—a saddened and a solitary man. neither one thing nor another, neither love nor wealth were practicable.

‘i must never see her again,’ frank said to himself, as he got out of the train; ‘i must never see her again!’ perhaps it was because of the very practicality and matter-of-fact character of his mind that he felt it dangerous to permit himself such an indulgence. he could not go and gaze and moon about her, as other men might, without anything coming of it. the only safeguard would be to keep away altogether. but it was not a cheerful thought; and, consequently, when he emerged from the station with his hat down over his brows, a certain air of tragedy and misery was about the poor fellow. and if the reader of this sober history should at any time encounter on the railway between london and royalborough an unfortunate and melancholy guardsman, well thrown back into the shadow of the lamp, gnawing his moustache as he chews the{313} cud of fancy, let him remember the miserable perplexities of poor frank renton, and pity the man. the impulse of the mature spectator’s mind is so invariably to vituperate the military butterfly, that it is the duty of the benevolent moralist to turn the tide of sympathy towards that beautiful, frivolous, yet sometimes suffering creature, when he has the opportunity. after all, guardsmen are men.

frank kept his resolution for a week. he gave himself a fair trial. to describe the cogitations which passed through his mind during that time, would only weary the reader without bringing him any nearer to the issue of the conflict; for, to be sure, it does not matter so very much what conclusion a young man may arrive at in such a contest, after even weeks of thought. five minutes may destroy the entire fabric at any time;—a sudden meeting,—three words,—all unpremeditated on either side,—a chance look,—even a few notes of music played unawares by strange hands,—will suffice to undo the finest piece of reasoning ever put together. nor is it at all unusual in frank’s circumstances for a young man to make an absolute determination against marriage one day, and go and lay himself at the feet of the lady of his affections on the next. many times, it must be allowed, cookesley lodge would burst like a sudden revelation upon the young man’s soul. he could hear the hunters rattling up the avenue, and the dogs yelping{314} a chorus of welcome; and then this charming home-scene would give place to a misty conception of an indian bungalow,—whatever that might be,—and the fierce delights of a jungle-hunt. the question was not alice or nelly,—that would have horrified him;—but cookesley with all possible comforts and indulgences, and india with none;—question enough to make a man ponder. four or five days after his visit to london, though it seemed four or five years from the multiplicity of his thoughts, he rode over to richmont, on an unacknowledged mission to prove to himself whether that image of alice, which he had been trying hard to banish, would disappear before the close realisation of all the good things on the other side. he had tried to forget her, or rather he had tried to shut her out from his thoughts; to divert his mind to anything else in the world rather than allow it to dwell upon her. and he was now going to test what success he had had. nelly rich was sketching under the trees, as we have before seen her, when he rode up to the door; and instead of going in to pay his respects to her mother, frank,—with a strong sense of duty,—crossed the lawn to where the white figure, with sketching-block on her lap, and bright ribbons fluttering about her, sat in the shadow of the soft limes. a prettier picture could not have been desired. the dead white of the dress blazed out in the sunshine, lying in crisp folds upon the soft{315} grass. the silken lime-leaves made a flutter and chequer of light and shade upon the pretty drooping head. nelly was older, more piquant, more expressive, indeed, to any unprejudiced eye more beautiful, than alice severn; not, as frank said to himself hotly, that he ever had made such a profane comparison. but yet it was impossible thus to approach the one without thinking of the other. there was a technicality and a pretension, he thought, about all this paraphernalia of the artist. when alice went softly to her piano, you never could have told, until you heard her, that she was anything but a school-girl. and no one seemed to give her any particular glory for her music. she was a little girl to all of them. whereas nelly was the mistress of everything, more mistress in the house than was her mother, and getting credit for all sorts of talent and cleverness. in his heart frank took up a position of defence for the absent, whom, indeed, no one dreamt of attacking. no doubt he would have to talk of the sketch, and admire it as if it had been something very fine. at fitzroy square the mother had smiled and had just admitted that alice played well;—and that she was as clever at her needle as at her music. how strange was the difference!

‘is it you, mr. renton?’ said nelly; and she put down her sketching-block hastily as he approached. ‘i could not make you out till you came quite close. did you not find mamma?{316}’

‘i confess i did not ask,’ said frank; and the consciousness that he was paying a compliment which he did not mean embarrassed him in his peculiar circumstances; ‘i saw you here——’ and then he stopped, the unfortunate youth giving double meaning to his words.

nelly blushed. it was very natural she should after such an address; and her change of colour told upon frank as the most terrible reproach. ‘i thought mrs. rich would be with you,’ he added, hurriedly; ‘it is so pleasant out-of-doors on such a day. you were sketching, i am sure, and i have stopped your work.’

‘oh, it does not matter,’ said nelly. ‘i want to draw the house, and i cannot get it just as i want it. i must have in the window of the music-room. you know i live there. i don’t care for all the rest of the house in comparison with that one room.’

‘yes,’ said frank, with a sudden relapse, ‘with such music as we had there the other day, the place was like paradise.’

‘you liked little alice severn’s playing,’ said nelly. ‘ah! yes, i remember. she plays very well. for myself i am not fanatical about music. i don’t understand it. i want to know what it says, and it says nothing. and these musical people are so exclusively musical, they never seem to have brains for anything else.{317}’

‘but that could not be the case with—miss severn, i should think,’ said frank, taking a foolish pleasure in speaking of her, and making a little pause before her name like a worshipper. nelly gave him a quick glance, and answered carelessly.

‘oh, alice! she is a good little thing enough; but i don’t think she has much brains,—few girls have,—or men either for that matter. i don’t expect anything of the kind from people who come to this house.’

‘you are not complimentary to your visitors,’ said frank, feeling mortified, and with a secret sense that something at least of this condemnation was intended for himself.

‘well, mr. renton, few of our visitors are complimentary to us,’ said nelly, with a flush on her face, which even frank perceived was quite different from the soft blush which had greeted his first appearance. probably her quick ear had caught some difference in his tone, though he was not himself aware of it. ‘we are rich, and you come to us when we ask you, and are very civil; but i know you laugh at us behind our backs, and make very free with our names, and do not show us the respect you would to the most miserable creature who was of good family. and then you think we are taken in by it, and don’t know——’

‘miss rich, you must allow me to say that{318} personally you are doing me a great injustice,’ said frank, colouring high. ‘i cannot undertake to be responsible for everybody who comes here; but so far as myself and my friends are concerned——’

‘oh, i beg your pardon!’ cried nelly, turning her face towards him with sudden shame and penitence which made it beautiful. her large brilliant eyes were full of tears, and the eloquent blood had rushed to her cheeks. she held out her hands to him in the fervour of her compunction. ‘oh, forgive me!—do forgive me! i was cross. i did not know what i was saying. i did not mean you.’

there was nothing that frank could do but take the pretty, soft, appealing hands, and hold them in his own for a moment. he did not kiss them, as no doubt he would have done had he never paid that visit to the square. ‘there is nothing for me to forgive,’ he said in softened tones. and then nelly recovered herself, and took her hands away.

‘but you must forgive me,’ she said, ‘for being cross to you, who, i am sure, did not deserve it. your mother called on wednesday, and mamma was so pleased. you know we are new people,—very new people—and it is a great thing for us to have mrs. renton calling. but because we are such spick-and-span new people we have always{319} something happening to vex us. one hears bits of gossip about you officers,—how you laugh and discuss one, and take things in your head,’ said nelly, breaking off suddenly, and looking full in frank’s face. what did she mean? whatever it was, it covered him with embarrassment and shame. this conversation at least was true. he had been taking things in his head, and he did not know how to meet her look, or give her any reply.

‘i don’t know to what you refer,’ he faltered. ‘i am sure, miss rich——’ and then he broke off altogether, so great was his confusion under the steady light of her keen eyes. ‘there is no doubt,’ he went on, as soon as he recovered himself, ‘that everything possible and impossible is talked about. it is the fashion everywhere now-a-days. you know it as well as i. but had anything that was less than respectful ever been breathed in my presence——’

‘i was quite sure of that,’ said nelly, leaning towards him with glowing eyes and expressive face. the eyes were full of soft gratitude, and something that looked like a tender pride. ‘i know that,’ she repeated; ‘you have always been so different!’ the voice had fallen quite low, so that frank had to lean forward to hear it. and there was encouragement in her look for anything he might have had to say, for anything{320} he might have been moved to do, in the excitement of the moment. and frank’s heart was softened by compunction and the sense that he was not so blameless as he had claimed to be. the crisis of his fate had come.