i have already mentioned that frank renton, being up in town on the business of negotiating the change he desired into a regiment of the line, was taken one evening by his brother laurie to no. 375, fitzroy square.
it was a thing very lightly done, as so many things are that affect our lives. ‘come with me and see the padrona,’ laurie had said, as the evening darkened, before they went out to dinner. ‘you’ve heard me talk of her. she has such charming children.’ this was the first thing it came into his head to say; for being foolish he could not launch into praise of herself. and frank had gone very carelessly, looking with open eyes of amused wonder at all the artists’ houses, and at the dinginess of the square. alice was playing when they went in, and frank, sitting down in the shade before the lamp was lighted, and observing, still with a half-amused surprise, how familiar his brother was in the house, was softly penetrated by those unknown strains coming{134} from he could not tell where, and made by he knew not whom. the door of the great drawing-room was open, and there came from it the usual gleam of red firelight, the usual ghostly appearance behind of the curtained windows. when he had listened for a long time in silence, not feeling himself quite able to join in the conversation which was going on, frank at last took heart to ask who was the musician. the lamp was brought into the room at this moment, and the padrona turned to him, with a smile as soft and tender as the music, just dawning about her lips. ‘it is my child,’ she answered, in that full tone of love and pride which comes only out of the heart of a woman who has a daughter. there was such softness in the tone, such love and profound complacency and content, that it touched the young soldier. somehow it occurred to him for the moment that there must be some painful defect about the creature whose name came thus from her mother’s lips—blind, perhaps, or sick, or somehow not just an ordinary child. then with a curious impulse, which she could not have explained, the padrona lifted her voice and called ‘alice!’ frank turned to the open door as the music stopped, with unusual curiosity, expecting some pale vision, with signs of decay in its countenance, or sightless eyes at the least; when all at once there looked out upon him, ‘alice with her curls,’ like a rose between the falling folds of the vague, dim-coloured curtains, with eyes like stars, half{135} dazzled, confused with the sudden light, and those sweet tints for which, as i have said, the beholder was grateful to her. he looked and looked, and the young man’s eyes were touched as by ithuriel’s spear. no man had yet seen in her what, all at once, frank renton saw. she was to him no child, but a woman. he got up off his chair stumbling, confused. and laurie was sitting calmly there talking to the mother with this fairy princess coming to them! it seemed incredible. and, in fact, laurie scarcely looked at alice even as he shook hands with her. he gave her a kind, half-paternal smile, and went on talking, which was to frank such a mystery as no explanation could clear away. then she sat down and took her work with the quiet of a child, totally unaware of young frank’s reverential admiration. fortunately he knew a little about music. ‘was that so-and-so that you were playing?’ he said, when he had sat for some minutes looking at her work and listening to laurie’s interminable talk with the padrona. the young soldier had a certain contempt for them as they sat and chattered—talking nonsense about any stupid subject that came into their heads, when they might have been talking to alice, or listening to her music. ‘you must practise a great deal,’ then said the young man, in the safe obscurity into which his silence had thrown him—for, though the padrona had received him very graciously as laurie’s brother, what was she to find that could be said to a speechless young guardsman{136} who probably had not an idea in his head? frank, however, had several ideas; but he was discomposed, as most people are when brought suddenly into the company of familiar friends who know all each other’s ways of thinking and habits of mind. he could not strike into the full stream of their conversation, and it was natural that he should draw towards alice, who was also left out of it. ‘you must practise a great deal or you could not play so well,’ he repeated, taking a little courage. and nobody paid any great heed to the two sitting apart, as it were, in the shade.
‘i am very fond of music,’ said alice; ‘i like it better than anything;’ and then there was a long pause, and the conversation on the other side of the table thrust itself into prominence again, and became offensively audible. there was talk chiefly about pictures of which frank did not know very much, and about people of whom he knew nothing—not the kind of people talked of in society whom he would have known. laurie had always had strange friends; but how odd it was to find him in the midst of a new world like this, and a world so entirely apart and separate from the known hemisphere! but yet frank did not find it disagreeable to sit silent against the wall now that alice was at the table with her work. after ten minutes more he made another attempt at conversation. ‘have you heard madame schumann play that?’ he said; and alice glanced up at him and softly shook her curls.{137}
‘i have not heard much music,’ she said. ‘we never go out. it bores mamma going out in the evening. i shall when i am older, perhaps; but not now.’
‘but if you never go out in the evening, what do you do with yourself?’ said frank, with some consternation. upon which alice startled him completely by answering, in the softest matter-of-course voice, ‘we have mostly people with us at home.’
here frank came to a dead standstill. he glanced round upon the room, which, though pleasant, and cheerful, and homelike, bore no appearance of being adapted for such perpetual hospitality. ‘we have mostly people with us at home.’ did they give dinners or dances, or what did they give in this curious, grey-green, picture-hung, half-lighted place? as if in answer to this question mary at that moment came in with the tea, carrying a vast tray before her, with heaps of cups and saucers, substantial bread and butter, steaming urn, and all the paraphernalia of that modern meal. the young guardsman looked on bewildered to see alice rise, in the same calm, matter-of-course way, and rinse the teapot and make the tea. was it the tea-party of humble life which he was in for? would the guests come in presently and take their seats round the table and munch their bread and butter? and what if there might be muffins, perhaps, or buttered toast? frank would have been amused had not alice been{138} there in the midst of it. he would have concluded that his brother had brought him to make acquaintance with the habits of the aborigines in these dingy regions out of the world. but then how came this creature there? he was relieved when he saw little edith clamber up to her high chair, and became aware that it was only to be a family party after all. frank was not sufficiently philanthropical, being a guardsman, to interest himself much in the children and the bread and butter; but by degrees alice surmounted all the obstacles of her surroundings, and began to cast a lovely haze upon the whole scene. he did not say much; he sat, if the truth must be told, in rather an embarrassed, sheepish way in his chair against the wall, with very little of the assurance natural to his profession. but then it must be taken into account that this was an undiscovered country,—such an america, as columbus discovered, full of strange new beings, new customs,—a foreign world to frank. he was out of his depth. when the padrona now and then turned to address him, with a vain attempt to make him comfortable, he felt himself drawl and yaw-haw as does the ordinary young swell of romance. and it was evident to him that his brother’s friend gave him up as quite impracticable. little edith, however, was less fastidious. she got down out of her high chair and placed it close to the stranger, and took him under her little wing.{139}
‘sit next to me,’ said edith, ‘and you shall have some cake. are you laurie’s little brother? you are bigger than he is. didn’t he say it was his little brother, alice? but i always say harry is my little brother, and he is a great deal,—such a great deal,—about six feet taller than me.’
‘and older too,’ said harry. ‘i am eight and you are six. you’re not six till your birthday, and alice is sixteen, and me and frank——’
‘nurse says girls are quite different,’ said little edie. ‘you are only boys, you two. are you mr. renton, as well as laurie, mr. laurie’s brother?—how funny it would be to call you that!—or have you another name all to yourself?’
‘i am frank,’ said the guardsman, laughing; and then the boys drew near him, and alice looked up smiling from her tea-making, and a certain acquaintance sprang up. to know that alice was sixteen on the one side,—and to know that this young fellow, who gazed and addressed her in a tone so different from laurie’s tone, for instance, was frank, seemed somehow to give each of them a certain hold on the other. frank put down his hat, and drew his chair to the table; and by-and-by they were all sitting round it, drinking tea and talking.
‘laurie’s brother is not so stupid as i thought he was,’ the padrona said afterwards, as she made her resumé of the whole proceedings; and with that slight remark mrs. severn dismissed the matter from{140} her thoughts. laurie himself was trouble enough, the foolish fellow; but that any further complication should arise through laurie’s brother was a thing which never entered into her mind.
when the two brothers left the house there was silence between them for some time. indeed, little was said till they had got as far as harley street. then, all at once, laurie spoke.
‘you were out of your element in the square,’ he said, with a little forced laugh. ‘you don’t understand the kind of thing; but i can tell you it is no small matter to me to have such a house to go to.’ this was uttered abruptly, and was not at all what he meant to say. to seem to apologise for the padrona and her house was as far as possible from his intention, and yet it sounded like an apology in his brother’s ears.
‘i daresay,’ said frank; and then he too added hastily, with a shade of embarrassment,—‘she is quite lovely, i think.’
‘no;—do you though?’ cried laurie, with a mixture of amaze, and delight, and indignation. ‘i never saw you look at her even, all the time we were there.’
‘and she plays wonderfully,’ said frank. ‘music goes to one’s heart, you know, coming like that, out of the dark, one can’t tell how. i thought she must be blind, or consumptive, or something; and then to see a face like a little rose!{141}’
‘oh, you mean alice,’ said laurie, drawing a long breath of relief, and amusement, and kindly contempt. alice was a very nice little thing; but how it should occur to any one to put her in the first place! to be sure, the boy was only twenty. laurie, who was twenty-four, felt the difference strongly.
‘who else could i mean?’ said frank, calmly;—‘there was no other girl there. but, laurie, really you ought to mind what you are about. we may have come down in the world, you know, and seen better days, and all that; but we need not fall quite out of the habits of gentlemen all the same.’
‘am i falling out of the habits, &c.?’ said laurie, laughing. ‘i am only a poor painter, my dear fellow. i am not a swell and a guardsman like you.’
‘i shan’t be a guardsman a minute longer than i can help it, and you know that,’ said frank, with a little indignation; ‘but i hope i shall never see a girl like that come into a room without treating her with proper respect.’
‘proper respect!’ cried laurie, much mystified; and then he laughed. ‘alice is only a child,’ he said. ‘i have known her since she was that height. she thinks me a kind of old uncle, or godfather, or something. yes, of course, she plays charmingly,—but she is only a child all the same.’
‘a child! she is sixteen,’ said frank; ‘and lovely, i think. i don’t know the family, of course; they{142} are your friends; but a young lady like miss severn is generally considered entitled to a little ceremony. i don’t want to be didactic,’ said the guardsman, ‘but——’
this remonstrance furnished laurie with laughter for the rest of the evening; but frank did not see the joke. of course the young lady was nothing to him. this he explained fully. but it vexed him to think that his brother was falling into the free and easy habits which, he supposed, were current among the people who lived in those dingy streets, where every house boasted a long, central window, and the very atmosphere was redolent of paint;—beings who lived all their lives in shooting-coats and wide-awakes,—wild, untrimmed, hairy men, not fit to come into a lady’s society at any time. people on that level might be utterly indifferent and irreverent, and treat a woman as they treated their comrades; but that laurie should fall into such ways vexed frank. this was the chief subject of his thoughts as he bowled down through the darkness in the twelve o’clock train to royalborough, where his battalion was quartered. it was another of the results of his father’s unfortunate will. frank had been, as mr. renton foresaw, the one who felt it least. his nominal allowance had always been just what it now was, and his mother was as ready now as ever to supply him with those odd five-pound notes which drop in so{143} pleasantly to a youthful pocket. it made no more difference than his father’s death must have made under any circumstances. there was no longer a bright and pleasant house to take his friends to, but that had nothing to do with the will, and was at the present moment a necessity of nature. and then he had his profession, and liked it, and might hope for advancement in it. and in the meantime he had made up his mind to go to india, a proceeding which had its pleasant as well as unpleasant aspects. he had sold his pet horse, to be sure, which cost him a pang; but still a man may get over that. and he was noway banished from the society he had been used to, or from the kind of life. nothing was changed with him to speak of, but everything was changed with laurie; and as for ben, he had disappeared under the waters altogether,—disgusted, or indignant, or furious with fate. frank’s heart was heavy as he went back in the dreary ‘last train,’ dropping people at all the stations,—coming every now and then to a jarring, tedious stoppage in the blackness of the night. it is not a cheerful mode of locomotion when a man is alone, and has thoughts which are the reverse of agreeable. laurie’s intimacy in the painter’s house, the accustomed, familiar way in which he sat down amongst all those children and took his tea, the homely table, the talk in which his brother was so absorbed as to forget everything,{144}—even common politeness,—how fatal was all this! had he gone there, indeed, kindly as a chance visitor,—as any potentate from belgravia might look in now and then, it might have been well; but to become an habitué of such a house, to give up for it,—as he seemed to be doing,—all the charms of society, could that be well? ‘why should it be so?’ frank asked himself. no doubt lady grandmaison would have invited laurie all the same,—as, indeed, she had invited himself, frank,—notwithstanding the temporary cloud under which they all were living. no doubt the barnards and the courtenays would have been just as kind as ever. he might have kept up all his friends, frank concluded to himself, with the premature prudence of a young man of society; why shouldn’t he? nothing but the absence of a coat or a pair of gloves could have absolutely shut out laurie renton from society; and his coat, frank felt, was quite presentable, and had even a flower in it, the extravagant wretch; and yet his world had become fitzroy square!
frank renton dwelt so much on this thought that the apparition of alice severn went out of his head,—and yet not, perhaps, quite out of his head. he had not been such a fool, he would have said, as to fall in love with a girl whom he had only seen once,—a girl belonging to the objectionable locality in which laurie had lost himself; yet the little{145} picture she made as she stood for a moment answering her mother’s call in the doorway, with the dim curtains falling round her like a frame, and herself so bright in colouring, so sweet in all her rose-tints, lasted in his mind as such impressions seldom did. perhaps it was the quite unexpected character of the appearance that made him dwell upon it. in a ball-room, or at a picnic, or, in short, at any party, or in a country-house where there are a number of people assembled, a man knows he is likely to meet some pretty girl or other, and is prepared for the vision; but when you are making a humdrum call, in a house quite out of the world, on people quite unacquainted with anybody you know,—in short, very respectable people, but moving in a different sphere,—and are, all at once, confronted by a creature like a rose, playing beethoven in the dark, standing looking at you from the doorway with dazzling, lovely, half-seeing eyes,—of course you had not been looking for anything of the kind, and it makes a certain impression on you. frank was not in any way addicted to art. he did not understand it much, nor care for it. now and then something struck him as being ‘a pretty picture;’ but it might be one of laurie’s drawings, or it might be a raffael, and the difference was not very evident to the guardsman. perhaps it was the first time that he had of his own accord, or rather involuntarily, in{146} spite of himself, by impulsion of nature, hung up as it were a picture of his own making on the walls of his mind. ‘by jove, if laurie were to paint something like that,’ he said to himself, altogether unaware in his simplicity that neither laurie nor any of his fellows could have done justice to the evening darkness, and the soft lamplight, and the dark, undefined curtains draping themselves about the bright young face. frank made it for himself, which was much more satisfactory, and left it there, hanging in his private closet of recollections, though, so far as he was aware, he thought but little of alice severn, and was much too sensible a fellow to fall in love at first sight.
besides, he was busy, and had no time just then for nonsense of any kind. it was not quite so easy to manage the exchange he wanted as he had believed it would be; and mrs. renton, though she interfered so little in her son’s proceedings, did what she could to put a stop to this movement on his part. ‘i never even hear from ben,’ she said, pathetically. ‘i do not know where he has gone or what has become of him; and laurie, though he writes punctually, has not been to see me for ever so long; what shall i do if you go too?’
‘but, mother, i must go,’ frank would say; ‘i can’t get on where i am now. no, mamma,—thanks; i ought not to take it. what my father{147} meant was that we should go and seek our fortune. and beside, if ben and laurie don’t have money from you, i ought not to have it. that is as clear as daylight.’
‘if ben and laurie were here they would have everything i could give them,’ said mrs. renton; ‘they ought to know that; but you are the only one of my boys that stands by me, frank. put it in your pocket, dear, and never mind. ah! if your poor dear papa could but have seen the harm it has done!’ and she cried, poor soul, longing for her other children, though she had not energy enough to seek them out; ‘but we must not blame your dear papa,’ she added, hastily, drying her eyes.
‘no,’ said frank. ‘but it has done harm. laurie was not like himself last time i saw him. he has got among a queer sort of people,—artists and that sort of thing. i don’t feel quite easy about him, to tell the truth.’
‘among low people, do you mean?’ cried his mother, with the tears ready to flow from her eyes.
‘n—no; not exactly low people,’ said frank; and somehow a hot flush of colour covered his own face. all at once that picture rose up before him, and alice out of the doorway looked at him with reproachful eyes. ‘i heard that favourite thing of yours so beautifully played the other day,’ he added, hastily; and then he hummed a few bars to identify{148} the melody; ‘charmingly played. i don’t think any one could have done it better.’
‘mary plays it very nicely,’ said his mother, who was easily led away from one subject to another.
‘oh, mary!’ said frank. ‘yes, she does very well, of course; but this was almost genius, you know. she played it as if she were making it up herself. quite a young girl, fifteen or so,’ frank went on; ‘and sitting in a dark room, so she must have played from memory. i wish you could have heard her.’
‘was it any one i know?’ said mrs. renton.
‘it was somebody laurie knows,’ said frank shortly. ‘i suppose he’ll stick there for ever and ever, and never do anything. i wish he were not such a lazy beggar. in one way he is the cleverest of us all.’
‘my poor laurie! so you all say,’ said the mother; ‘but this i know,—laurie is never lazy when he can serve other people, frank; and he is not so clever as ben is,’ she added. ‘your dear papa always said so. ben was the clever one, he always said. i would not mind about cleverness if i but knew where he was and what he was doing. that breaks my heart.’
‘oh, he will turn up,’ said frank, whose heart was not in any danger of breaking. and he put{149} his mother’s gift in his pocket, though not without compunction. ‘it seems like stealing a march upon them,’ he said to himself as he went away. this was just about a month before the time when ben suddenly appeared at renton manor to bid them all good-bye, and when laurie was near the climax of his little drama. frank, whom no necessity had urged on, was but beginning to make his arrangements for setting out in the world, when they voluntarily or involuntarily had completed theirs, and were about to take their plunge. as he went down the walk to the river, under the budded trees, his own idea was that he was the only one of the three who would really go off, as his father wished, to seek his fortune. ben had hidden himself somewhere in a fit of disgust, but would repent and become reasonable, and return to renton to manage his mother’s affairs, which needed some one to look after them. after all, renton was his mother’s for the time being, and it was the natural home of her eldest son; and as for laurie, he would stick fast where he was, and would not have pluck enough to make any change. so that it was utterly out of the question that he, frank, should relinquish his plans and prospects in order that one of his mother’s children might be near her. mrs. renton, indeed, was not a woman to exercise such an influence on her sons. they were fond of her; but either they were{150} not fond enough to make a sacrifice for her, or she was not the kind of woman to require it. she kept in the background, wailing softly, but was not energetic enough to demand a response from any one. frank marched down to his boat, which lay waiting for him, with a feeling that if he was not the clever one, he was at least the energetic one, of the family, and probably would be the only one to make his fortune. the first step, to be sure, was a little slow and troublesome, but, once in india, everything became possible. he resolved within himself that he would scorn delight and live laborious days, as soon as he had got himself made into a real soldier instead of an ornamental guardsman. he would go in for his profession with all his heart. no doubt it was a resolve which might call for a good deal of self-denial, but for that young frank was prepared. parties, and pleasure, and music, and even love affairs, were things he meant to be out of his way. as for falling into a lower sphere contentedly, as laurie seemed to have done, frank hoped that such a descent was impossible to him. he pulled down the stream to cookesley, though it was cold; for the river was at once the best and most expeditious way of passing between the manor and royalborough. frank pulled down the stream, and felt his heart glow and tingle as he thought of all he was going to do. he had some ‘pluck’ he admitted to himself, if not so much{151} cleverness as laurie or ben. so it will be seen he had quite forgotten that momentary peep at alice severn, and the equally temporary impression which her young beauty had made upon his imagination or his heart.