the experiences of that final summer in germany had a profound effect upon george webber. he had come face to face with something old and genuinely evil in the spirit of man which he had never known before, and it shook his inner world to its foundations. not that it produced a sudden revolution in his way of thinking. for years his conception of the world and of his own place in it had been gradually changing, and the german adventure merely brought this process to its climax. it threw into sharp relief many other related phenomena which george had observed in the whole temper of the times, and it made plain to him, once and for all, the dangers that lurk in those latent atavistic urges which man has inherited from his dark past.

hitlerism, he saw, was a recrudescence of an old barbarism. its racial nonsense and cruelty, its naked worship of brute force, its suppression of truth and resort to lies and myths, its ruthless contempt for the individual, its anti-intellectual and anti-moral dogma that to one man alone belongs the right of judgment and decision, and that for all others virtue lies in blind, unquestioning obedience — each of these fundamental elements of hitlerism was a throwback to that fierce and ancient tribalism which had sent waves of hairy teutons swooping down out of the north to destroy the vast edifice of roman civilisation. that primitive spirit of greed and lust and force had always been the true enemy of mankind.

but this spirit was not confined to germany. it belonged to no one race. it was a terrible part of the universal heritage of man. one saw traces of it everywhere. it took on many disguises, many labels. hitler, mussolini, stalin — each had his own name for it. and america had it, too, in various forms. for wherever ruthless men conspired together for their own ends, wherever the rule of dog-eat-dog was dominant, there it bred. and wherever one found it, one also found that its roots sank down into something primitive in man’s ugly past. and these roots would somehow have to be eradicated, george felt, if man was to win his ultimate freedom and not be plunged back into savagery and perish utterly from the earth.

when george realised all this he began to look for atavistic yearnings in himself. he found plenty of them. any man can find them if he is honest enough to look for them. the whole year that followed his return from germany, george occupied himself with this effort of self-appraisal. and at the end of it he knew, and with the knowledge came the definite sense of new direction towards which he had long been groping, that the dark ancestral cave, the womb from which mankind emerged into the light, forever pulls one back — but that you can go home again.

the phrase had many implications for, him. you can’t go back home to your family, back home to your childhood, back home to romantic love, back home to a young man’s dreams of glory and of fame, back home to exile, to escape to europe and some foreign land, back home to lyricism, to singing just for singing’s sake, back home to aestheticism, to one’s youthful idea of “the artist” and the all-sufficiency of “art” and “beauty” and “love”, back home to the ivory tower, back home to places in the country, to the cottage in bermuda, away from all the strife and conflict of the world, back home to the father you have lost and have been looking for, back home to someone who can help you, save you, ease the burden for you, back home to the old forms and systems of things which once seemed everlasting but which are changing all the time — back home to the escapes of time and memory.

in a way, the phrase summed up everything he had ever learned. and what he now knew led inexorably to a decision which was the hardest he had ever bad to make. throughout the year he wrestled with it, talked about it with his friend and editor, foxhall edwards, and fought against doing what he realised he would have to do. for the time had come to leave fox edwards. they bad reached a parting of the ways. not that fox was one of the new barbarians. god, no! but fox — well, fox — fox understood. and george knew that whatever happened, fox would always remain his friend.

so in the end, after all their years together, they parted. and when it was over, george sat down and wrote to fox. he wanted to leave the record clear. and this is what he wrote: