they didn't keep the secret of the baby's crippled condition from olive till the four decades were over, nor anything like it. the moment she saw clarence, she guessed at once with a woman's instinct that something serious had happened: and she didn't rest till she had found out from him all about it. rhoda brought her the poor wee mite, carefully wrapped after the phalansteric fashion in a long strip of fine flannel, and olive unrolled the piece until she came at last upon the small crippled feet, that looked so soft and tender and dainty and waxen in their very deformity. the young mother leant over the child a moment in speechless misery. "spirit of humanity," she whispered at length feebly, "oh give me strength to bear this terrible unutterable trial! it will break my heart. but i will try to bear it."

there was something so touching in her attempted resignation that rhoda, for the first time in her life, felt almost tempted to wish she had been born in the old wicked prephalansteric days, when they would have let the poor baby grow up to womanhood as a matter of course, and bear its own burden through life as best it might. presently, olive raised her head again from the crimson silken pillow. "clarence," she said, in a trembling voice, pressing the sleeping baby hard against her breast, "when will it be? how long? is there no hope, no chance of respite?"

"not for a long time yet, dearest olive," clarence answered through his tears. "the phalanstery will be very gentle and patient with us, we know: and brother eustace will do everything that lies in his power, though he's afraid he can give us very little hope indeed. in any case, olive darling, the community waits for four decades before deciding anything: it waits to see whether there is any chance for physiological or surgical relief: it decides nothing hastily or thoughtlessly: it[pg 313] waits for every possible improvement, hoping against hope till hope itself is hopeless. and then, if at the end of the quartet, as i fear will be the case—for we must face the worst, darling, we must face the worst—if at the end of the quartet it seems clear to brother eustace, and the three assessor physiologists from the neighbouring phalansteries, that the dear child would be a cripple for life, we're still allowed four decades more to prepare ourselves in: four whole decades more, olive, to take our leave of the darling baby. you'll have your baby with you for eighty days. and we must wean ourselves from her in that time, darling. we must try to wean ourselves. but oh olive, oh rhoda, it's very hard: very, very, very hard."

olive answered not a word, but lay silently weeping and pressing the baby against her breast, with her large brown eyes fixed vacantly upon the fretted woodwork of the panelled ceiling.

"you mustn't do like that, olive dear," sister rhoda said in a half-frightened voice. "you must cry right out, and sob, and not restrain yourself, darling, or else you'll break your heart with silence and repression. do cry aloud, there's a dear girl: do cry aloud and relieve yourself. a good cry would be the best thing on earth for you. and think, dear, how much happier it will really be for the sweet baby to sink asleep so peacefully than to live a long life of conscious inferiority and felt imperfection! what a blessing it is to think you were born in a phalansteric land, where the dear child will be happily and painlessly rid of its poor little unconscious existence, before it has reached the age when it might begin to know its own incurable and inevitable misfortune. oh, olive, what a blessing that is, and how thankful we ought all to be that we live in a world where the sweet pet will be saved so much humiliation, and mortification, and misery!"

at that moment, olive, looking within into her own wicked rebellious[pg 314] heart, was conscious, with a mingled glow, half shame, half indignation, that so far from appreciating the priceless blessings of her own situation, she would gladly have changed places then and there with any barbaric woman of the old semi-civilized prephalansteric days. we can so little appreciate our own mercies. it was very wrong and anti-cosmic, she knew; very wrong, indeed, and the hierarch would have told her so at once; but in her own woman's soul she felt she would rather be a miserable naked savage in a wattled hut, like those one saw in old books about africa before the illumination, if only she could keep that one little angel of a crippled baby, than dwell among all the enlightenment, and knowledge, and art, and perfected social arrangements of phalansteric england without her child—her dear, helpless, beautiful baby. how truly the founder himself had said, "think you there will be no more tragedies and dramas in the world when we have reformed it, nothing but one dreary dead level of monotonous content? ay, indeed, there will; for that, fear not; while the heart of man remains, there will be tragedy enough on earth and to spare for a hundred poets to take for their saddest epics."

olive looked up at rhoda wistfully. "sister rhoda," she said in a timid tone, "it may be very wicked—i feel sure it is—but do you know, i've read somewhere in old stories of the unenlightened days that a mother always loved the most afflicted of her children the best. and i can understand it now, sister rhoda; i can feel it here," and she put her hand upon her poor still heart. "if only i could keep this one dear crippled baby, i could give up all the world beside—except you, clarence."

"oh, hush, darling!" rhoda cried in an awed voice, stooping down half alarmed to kiss her pale forehead. "you mustn't talk like that, olive dearest. it's wicked; it's undutiful. i know how hard it is not to[pg 315] repine and to rebel; but you mustn't, olive, you mustn't. we must each strive to bear our own burdens (with the help of the community), and not to put any of them off upon a poor, helpless, crippled little baby."

"but our natures," clarence said, wiping his eyes dreamily; "our natures are only half attuned as yet to the necessities of the higher social existence. of course it's very wrong and very sad, but we can't help feeling it, sister rhoda, though we try our hardest. remember, it's not so many generations since our fathers would have reared the child without a thought that they were doing anything wicked—nay, rather, would even have held (so powerful is custom) that it was positively wrong to save it by preventive means from a certain life of predestined misery. our conscience in this matter isn't yet fully formed. we feel that it's right, of course; oh yes, we know the phalanstery has ordered everything for the best; but we can't help grieving over it; the human heart within us is too unregenerate still to acquiesce without a struggle in the dictates of right and reason."

olive again said nothing, but fixed her eyes silently upon the grave, earnest portrait of the founder over the carved oak mantelpiece, and let the hot tears stream their own way over her cold, white, pallid, bloodless cheek without reproof for many minutes. her heart was too full for either speech or comfort.