"now, tom dear, don't you do another single thing for me; i'm sure i shall be all right, and cousin anna will meet me at the train in boston and then everything will be smooth sailing. you'll miss your train if you wait another moment and blame me for it ever after, so good-by; i'll write you as soon as i'm comfortably settled with elizabeth frances fairfax, in 45 merton hall."
"well, so long, little sister; let me know if there's anything i can do for you and we'll spend thanksgiving together surely at aunt sarah's, and may be, if you're very good, i'll come up and take you to the harvard-yale the week before. you wouldn't mind[2] going with that good-looking room-mate of mine if i could persuade connie huntington to accompany me, would you? it's only a few hours' run up to boston, but here are some chocolates and magazines in case you tire of the scenery. be game, little girl, and above every thing else, make good."
with these words thomas cabot swung off the train just in time to catch a near-by accommodation train to convey him to littleton center, where he was to join a merry house-party of young people. jean quietly arose from her seat and watched from the car window until her brother had entirely disappeared from view, and then somewhat reluctantly turned and resumed her former seat.
brother and sister had come from los angeles to new york together, he to enter upon his senior year at yale and she to become a freshman at ashton college. jean was the only daughter and youngest child of a family of six. the four older brothers had been educated in the west and were determined that the two youngest children[3] should see something of the life and culture of the east. mrs. cabot had died when jean was six, and although she had had governesses and accommodating aunts and cousins galore to consider her welfare, still most of her life had been spent in the company of her father and brothers, and when they decided that she should go east to ashton, a small college of about five hundred strong, within twenty-five miles of boston, she had never for one moment doubted the wisdom of their choice, and acquiesced as willingly as though brother will had said, "jean, go get your racket for a set of tennis."
from los angeles to new york, tom and she had kept up a continuous conversation on the "do's and don'ts" of college life, and at the end of the journey jean felt that she had a great advantage over the other green freshmen, for she had been too carefully coached by her brother to make any serious errors. then, too, cousin anna maitlandt, a graduate of ashton 1911, was to meet her at boston and take her out to college to see that she made[4] a good beginning amid the strange new surroundings.
now tom was gone, and for the first time that she could remember, jean was alone, face to face with the first big thing in her life. she tried to read, but thoughts of home would persist in rushing in upon her, and between the lines danced little pictures of life away out in california. she wondered why she had come to college. was it simply to please her father and brothers or did she mean to make a success of it for her own sake? she was fond of books and of study, but fond of so many other things as well. what would there be in college to take the place of her horseback rides over the ranch with the boys, her evenings with her father in his den, her tennis, her weeks in camp in the mountains, her whole free outdoor life? she knew little of girls and cared less, for up to this time they had played a small part in her life. to be sure, she had known them at st. margaret's, her fitting school, but she had spent as little time as possible there in order to be at the call of the boys when they[5] needed her, and you may be sure some one of the five needed her most of the time. she was their true confidante and they told her their little business worries and successes, their love affairs, and their hopes and ambitions, for each felt that his secret was safe with her. in spite of her tender years and lack of real experience she seemed to be able to advise where many an older person would have failed. and now she was leaving them all behind and was wondering what they could do without her. the more she thought, the more the longing came over her to give it all up and go back to those she loved best.
before she realized it two great tears were rolling down her cheeks and as she was about to wipe them away a tall, handsome girl stood before her, smiling down at her. "isn't this jean cabot?" she asked, giving her hand a cordial shake. "may i sit down here and talk a little? you're going to ashton college, aren't you? so am i. my name is allison, marguerite allison, 1914. of course you're wondering how i knew it was you. well, i was sitting in the last[6] chair of this car and saw your brother as he bade you good-by. i met tom last year at the yale prom and i am sure he is going now to a house-party at littleton center. i've just come from there and know all about it. i was terribly disappointed not to stay over the week-end, but i'm on the house committee and just have to be back to-morrow. you know student government just makes you do things. belle thurston, an old ashton girl, who is giving the house-party, told me she expected tom this evening, but he was stopping off in new york long enough to get his sister jean started for her year at ashton. so that's how i knew it was you. but tell me, dear, where are you going to live?"
by this time jean's tears had dried and she had regained her usual composure and quite firmly replied, "oh, miss allison, i'm so glad to know you; i was just beginning to get homesick, but you've saved my life. i'm to live in merton, 45, with elizabeth frances fairfax. i got my assignment just the day before we started."
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"merton; why, that's my house. isn't it grand? 'forty-five' is fourth floor and mine is 27, second floor. as for elizabeth frances fairfax, she's probably another freshman from massachusetts; name sounds like one of those good old new england families. massachusetts girls are all right in spite of their strict old puritan ancestors. i'm from cherokee, iowa, but i haven't been home all summer. really i haven't any home to go to, for my father is interested in mines and is down in mexico most of the time. i stay with my aunt when i'm in cherokee, but this summer i've been visiting some of the college girls in new york state and ended up at littleton center. and you've come all the way from los angeles? i thought i'd come some distance, but it's nothing in comparison with your trip. most of the girls at college are easterners, but i'm sure you'll like them after you get used to their ways.
"what studies are you going to take? can i help you with your program? come right into 27 as soon as we land and i'll fix things up for you. speaking of massachusetts[8] girls, you'll fall in love with my room-mate, natalie lawton, just the minute you see her. she's from boston; lived there all her short life, not fifteen minutes' walk from the boston public library and copley square. excuse me, of course you don't know anything about boston yet, but you will before you've been a month at ashton. miss emerson, she's college president, you know, thinks there's no place on the whole earth quite like boston, and it's her especial delight to impress upon freshmen the advantages of being so near to this wonderful city. the first time you hear her say, 'now, girls, remember the great advantages offered to you by being in such close proximity to boston,' you will think it rather significant, but by the time you've heard it 576 times it will begin to grow a little monotonous.
"why, miss cabot, we're actually passing through hyde park, and we'll be in the south station in a few minutes. hasn't the time gone quickly? how many trunks have you and where are your checks? let's be getting our things together. i left my luggage up in[9] the other end of the car, so i'll go up and collect it and be back in a minute."
"oh, thank you, miss allison, but my cousin, miss anna maitlandt, has promised to meet me at the train and i am sure she will help me with my trunks."
"what! anna maitlandt, 1911, your cousin! why, she lived in east hall her senior year when i was a freshman. i haven't seen her for perfect ages, but she was my crush freshman year. how good it will seem to see her again! and to think she's your cousin! how small the world is after all! here we are—follow me and i'll keep my eye open for anna."
the long express train was crowded, but the two girls were quickly out upon the platform and well up the track before a word was said. marguerite was well in the lead, when all at once jean saw her drop her bags and vigorously seize a rather petite girl, trim in her immaculate white linen suit. by the time their greetings were over, jean had arrived on the scene and found herself as effusively greeted.
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"so this is little jean! well, i never should have known you. why, you're as big as tom, and look more like a senior than a green freshie! no hazing you, my lady. oh, what a prize for ashton athletic association! what is your specialty, jean, tennis, basket-ball or rowing? you'll make all three without half trying.
"now, where are your trunk checks? we'll send the trunks out to ashton at once to have them waiting for us when we arrive. i'm going to take you girls up town with me for dinner and a good talk, and jean must go out home with me for the night. to-morrow will be plenty early enough for her to arrive. what say'st thou, peggy?"
"oh, nan, you're a perfect dear to invite me, but really i can't accept. you see i'm due out at merton for a meeting of the house committee to-night. i stayed down at littleton center till the last minute and now i've got to hustle back, for we've loads of work to plan out. drop into 27 to-morrow as soon as you arrive and make it your headquarters until jean's room is settled.[11] come down to the inn for lunch with me at noon. all of the old girls will be there and it will be a good opportunity to introduce jean to them. you know there's nothing like knowing the right girls at the start.
"by the way, did you know that bess mcneil was married last week? oh, i'm just brim-full of news to tell you, but it will have to wait till later, for i must leave you now or i'll never catch the 5:09. so glad to have met you, nan; seems like old times, and i think your cousin is a perfect dear. so long till to-morrow," and with this she dashed across the station to a waiting taxicab which would convey her and her bags across the city to the north station.
jean's trunks were soon re-checked and the two girls left the station and took an uptown electric. before long they alighted and entered a quiet hotel where a good dinner was quickly served. since jean's arrival the two girls had talked a steady stream, but the conversation had centered almost entirely upon the families and home life of the two. now, however, it changed to the more[12] important subject of college. anna did most of the talking, for it took a long time to answer jean's many questions. how much there was to be said. in fact, anna might have sat there all night discoursing on the joys and sorrows of a college girl's life if a sweet-sounding clock had not reminded her that in a very few moments the last suburban train departed for framington. quickly she paid her bill and they were on their way again.
although it was rather late when they arrived home, they found mr. and mrs. maitlandt waiting for them. after a most cordial greeting, mrs. maitlandt suggested that they all retire, as it had been a hard day for jean and she must be fresh and rested for her first day at college.
after the good-nights had been said, jean found herself alone in her room a little bewildered in her new surroundings. her poor body and head ached as she had never known them to do before. to be sure, everybody had been so good to her, but now they had all left her and for the first time since she had left home she was alone. quickly undressing[13] she put out her electric light and went over to the window. it was a bright, starry night and as she gazed out upon its splendor a wave of homesickness swept over her and she sobbed, "oh, father and the boys, why did i leave you? i wish i'd never promised to go to college."