this then is the story of the drama of my life; the story of how in my case the greatest miracle of all was accomplished, and the shadow on the dial was brought ten degrees backward. she who had been dead was alive again, she who had been lost was found. the past was given back to me to be lived over again, with its misdeeds expiated and its mistakes retrieved.

i learnt from my darling that the greater part of what she had told me was absolutely true; only that it was frank who gave his life to save the child that was playing in the sun when the shells began to fall in that doomed street of louvain—not fay.

so frank wildacre died the death of a hero: for there is no more glorious death for any man than to give his life for another's. again it struck me afresh, as it had often struck me before, how since the beginning of the great war the prophecy had been literally fulfilled that the last should be first, and the first last. frank, who had been thoughtless and irresponsible and frivolous, had been called to lay down his life for one of those little ones whose angels do always behold the face of the father: whilst i, who had taken the world so seriously, and had ever longed to do great deeds and think high thoughts, was left amongst the useless ones at home. yet we were all part of the great army of the living god, and it was not for us to pick and choose who should go forth with the hosts and who should stay at home by the stuff. that was all left in the hands of "our captain, christ, under whose colours we had fought so long."

frank only lived for about an hour after he was hit. they managed to carry him into a house, but there was no hope from the first. he was conscious almost to the end; and he devoted those last moments to careful thought for his sister. he told her to cut off her long hair and dress herself up in his clothes, and try to get away to england as soon as she could, as it was not safe for her to remain in belgium now that he was no longer there to take care of her: and as terrible and ghastly rumours were already current as to the unspeakable way in which the ruthless invaders were treating such women as were hapless enough to fall into their hands, he thought fay would be safer if her sex were not known. and so he fell on sleep.

as soon as frank had passed to his well-earned reward, fay followed out all his instructions to the letter, and succeeded, after many vicissitudes, in escaping to england with a crowd of belgian refugees. no one penetrated her disguise—not even isabel chayford, who put down fay's extraordinary likeness to her own self to the fact that she and frank were twins, and so were expected to resemble one another. and fay kept to her own room most of the time that she was at the chayfords', for fear isabel should discover her identity. ponty found her out at once: there was never any deceiving ponty! but fay could always twist my old nurse round her little finger, and therefore ponty kept her secret for her.

to this hour i cannot conceive how i could have been such a fool as not to know my darling the moment i set eyes on her. but the grim fact remains that i am by nature a fool, and this was one of the occasions of my displaying my folly. my one excuse—and a feeble one it is!—is my extreme short-sightedness: the first moment that fay's dear face was close to my own i recognised her like a shot: but lying in the chesterfield on the other side of the fire-place, with her short curly hair and elfin face, she looked so like frank that i took it for granted she was frank; and she was so much aged and changed, alas! by all she had suffered, that she had lost much of her likeness to the fay of the past. as to her voice, frank's was so high for a man's and hers was so deep for a woman's that i frequently had mistaken the one for the other in the old days: so no wonder i did so now, when i was convinced in my own mind that fay was dead, and that frank was talking to me from the other side of the great fire-place.

i gathered that fay's original idea was to find out whether or not i had forgiven her. if i had, she meant to reveal herself to me and to ask me to take her back as my wife: but if i had not forgiven her, she intended to return to australia, leaving me with the idea that she was dead and i was free. a wild, childish scheme, just like my impracticable darling!

but when isabel told her how deeply my anger against frank had eaten into my very soul, destroying my gift of healing and coming between me and my god, fay realised that there was far more at stake than just the relations between herself and me. the salvation of my soul was hanging in the balance, and it was for her dear hands to adjust the scales. with an insight beyond her years, she understood that before i could find peace i must forgive frank, believing him to be alive: the easy forgiveness which we accord to the dead, who can no longer hurt or be hurt by us, was not the thing that was demanded of me. i was called upon to forgive frank fully and freely, even although i believed that it was through him that my darling had gone to her death, and that therefore there was no possibility of her ever coming back to me, or of the wrong which he had done me ever being rectified.

this my darling enabled me to do, and thereby saved my soul alive.

and now we are once more all in all to each other; and the love that is stronger than death can lighten even the long shadows cast by the great war.

i do not think there is any more to add to my story, save the interesting fact that we have christened our first-born son francis.

at present he finds his sole occupation in mewling and puking in his nurse's arms; but his beloved mother and i have every reason to hope that eventually he will learn to employ his time with more profit both to himself and to the world at large.

i think that some day "sir francis kingsnorth" will be quite an effective name and sound very well indeed. but i shall not be there to hear it.