when the friday morning came in paradise row both father and daughter, at no. 17, were full of thought as they came down to breakfast. to each of them it was a day laden with importance. the father's mind had been full of the matter ever since the news had been told to him. he had received marion's positive assurance that such a marriage was altogether impossible with something of impatience till she had used that argument as to her own health, which was so powerful with her. on hearing that he had said nothing, but had gone away. nor had he spoken a word on the subject since. but his mind had been full of it. he had lost his wife,—and all his little ones, as she had said; but he had declared to himself with strong confidence that this child was to be spared to him. he was a man whose confidence was unbounded in things as to which he had resolved. it was as though he had determined, in spite of fate, in spite of god, that his marion should live. and she had grown up under his eyes, if not robust, by no means a weak creature. she did her work about the house, and never complained. in his eyes she was very beautiful; but he saw nothing in her colour which was not to him a sign of health. he told himself that it was nothing that she, having seen so many die in her own family, should condemn herself; but for himself he repudiated the idea, and declared to himself that she should not become an early victim. so thinking, he exercised his mind constantly during those few days in considering whether there was any adequate cause for the refusal which marion had determined to give this man.

he, in truth, was terribly anxious that this grand stroke of fortune should be acknowledged and accepted. he wanted nothing from the young lord himself,—except, perhaps, that he might be the young lord's father-in-law. but he did want it all, long for it all, pant for it all, on behalf of his girl. if all these good things came in his girl's way because of her beauty, her grace, and her merit, why should they not be accepted? others not only accepted these things for their daughters, but hunted for them, cheated for them, did all mean things in searching for them,—and had their tricks and their lies regarded by the world quite as a matter of course,—because it was natural that parents should be anxious for their children. he had not hunted. he had not cheated. the thing had come in his girl's way. the man had found her to be the most lovely, the most attractive, the most loveable among all whom he had seen. and was this glory to be thrown away because she had filled her mind with false fears? though she were to die, must not the man take his chance with her, as do other husbands in marrying other wives?

he had been thinking of this, and of nothing but this, during the days which had intervened since lord hampstead had been in paradise row. he had not said a word to his daughter,—had indeed not dared to say a word to her, so abhorrent to him was the idea of discussing with her the probabilities of her own living or dying. and he was doubtful, too, whether any words coming from him at the present might not strengthen her in her resolution. if the man really loved her he might prevail. his words would be stronger to overcome her than any that could be spoken by her father. and then, too, if he really loved her, the one repulse would not send him back for ever. it might, perhaps, be better that any arguments from her father should be postponed till she should have heard her lover's arguments. but his mind was so filled with the whole matter that he could not bring himself to assure himself certainly that his decision was the best. though he was one who rarely needed counsel from others, on this occasion he did need it, and now it was his purpose to ask counsel of mrs. roden before the moment should have come which might be fatal to his hopes.

as this was the day immediately following christmas, there was no business for him in the city. in order that the weary holiday might be quicker consumed, they breakfasted at no. 17 an hour later than was usual. after breakfast he got through the morning as well as he could with his newspaper, and some record of stocks and prices which he had brought with him from the city. so he remained, fretful, doing nothing, pretending to read, but with his mind fixed upon the one subject, till it was twelve o'clock, at which hour he had determined to make his visit. at half-past one they were to dine, each of them having calculated, without, however, a word having been spoken, that lord hampstead would certainly not come till the ceremony of dinner would be over. though the matter was so vitally important to both of them, not a word concerning it was spoken.

at twelve o'clock he took up his hat, and walked out. "you will be back punctually for dinner, father?" she asked. he made his promise simply by nodding his head, and then left the room. five minutes afterwards he was closeted with mrs. roden in her drawing-room. having conceived the difficulty of leading up to the subject gradually, he broke into it at once. "marion has told thee that this young man will be here to-day?" she simply assented. "hast thou advised her as to what she should say?"

"she has not seemed to want advice."

"how should a girl not want advice in so great a matter?"

"how, indeed? but yet she has needed none."

"has she told thee," he asked, "what it is in her mind to do?"

"i think so."

"has she said that she would refuse the man?"

"yes; that certainly was her purpose."

"and given the reasons?" he said, almost trembling as he asked the question.

"yes, she gave her reasons."

"and didst thou agree with her?" before she could reply to this mrs. roden felt herself compelled to pause. when she thought of that one strongest reason, fully as she agreed with it, she was unable to tell the father of the girl that she did so. she sat looking at him, wanting words with which she might express her full concurrence with marion without plunging a dagger into the other's heart. "then thou didst agree with her?" there was something terrible in the intensity and slowness of the words as he repeated the question.

"on the whole i did," she said. "i think that unequal marriages are rarely happy."

"that was all?" he asked. then when she was again silent, he made the demand which was so important to him. "did she say aught of her health in discussing all this with thee?"

"she did, mr. fay."

"and thou?"

"it was a subject, my friend, on which i could not speak to her. all that was said came from her. her mind was so fully made up, as i have said before, no advice from me could avail anything. with some people it is easy to see that whether you agree with them or differ from them it is impossible to turn them."

"but to me thou canst say whether thou hast agreed with her. yes; i know well that the subject is one difficult to talk of in a father's hearing. but there are things which should be talked of, though the heart should break." after another pause he continued; "is there, thinkest thou, sufficient cause in the girl's health to bid her sever herself from these delights of life and customary habits which the lord has intended for his creatures?" at every separate question he paused, but when she was silent he went on with other questions. "is there that in her looks, is there that in her present condition of life, which make it needful for thee, her friend, or for me, her father, to treat her as though she were already condemned by the hand of the lord to an early grave?" then, again, looking almost fiercely into her face, he went on with his examination, "that is what thou art doing."

"not i;—not i."

"yes, thou, my friend; thou, with all thy woman's softness in thy heart! it is what i shall do, unless i bring myself to tell her that her fears are vain. to me she has said that that is her reason. it is not that she cannot love the man. has she not said as much to thee?"

"yes; truly."

"and art thou not assenting to it unless thou tell'st her that her fancies are not only vain, but wrong? though thou hast not spoken the word, has not thy silence assented as fully as words could do? answer me at any rate to that."

"it is so," she said.

"is it then necessary to condemn her? art thou justified in thine own thoughts in bidding her regard herself as one doomed?" again there was a pause. what was she to say? "thou art aware that in our poor household she does all that the strictest economy would demand from an active mother of a family? she is never idle. if she suffers i do not see it. she takes her food, if not with strong appetite, yet regularly. she is upright, and walks with no languor. no doctor comes near her. if like others she requires change of air and scene, what can give her such chance as this marriage? hast thou not heard that for girls of feeble health marriage itself will strengthen them? is she such that thou as her friend must bid her know that she must perish like a blighted flower? must i bid her to hem and stitch her own winding-sheet? it comes to that if no word be said to her to turn her from this belief. she has seen them all die,—one after another,—one after another, till the idea of death, of death for herself as well as for them, has gotten hold of her. and yet it will be the case that one in a family shall escape. i have asked among those who know, and i have found that it is so. the lord does not strike them all, always. but if she thinks that she is stricken then she will fall. if she goes forth to meet death on the path, death will come half way to encounter her. dost thou believe of me that it is because the man is a noble lord that i desire this marriage?"

"oh no, mr. fay."

"he will take my child away from me. she will then be but little to me. what want i with lords, who for the few days of active life that are left to me would not change my city stool for any seat that any lord can give me? but i shall know that she has had her chance in the world, and has not been unnecessarily doomed—to an early grave!"

"what would you have me do?"

"go to her, and tell her that she should look forward, with trust in god, to such a state of health as he may vouchsafe to give her. her thoughts are mostly with her god. bid her not shorten his mercies. bid her not to tell herself that she can examine his purposes. bid her do in this as her nature bids her, and, if she can love this man, give herself into his arms and leave the rest to the lord."

"but he will be there at once."

"if he be there, what harm? thou canst go when he comes to the door. i shall go to her now, and we shall dine together, and then at once i will leave her. when you see me pass the window then thou canst take thine occasion." so saying, without waiting for a promise, he left her and went back to his own house.

and marion's heart had been full of many thoughts that morning,—some of them so trifling in their object, that she herself would wonder at herself because that they should occupy her. how should she be dressed to receive her lover? in what words first should she speak to him,—and in what sort? should she let any sign of love escape from her? her resolution as to her great purpose was so fixed that there was no need for further thought on that matter. it was on the little things that she was intent. how far might she indulge herself in allowing some tenderness to escape her? how best might she save him from any great pain, and yet show him that she was proud that he had loved her? in what dress she might receive him, in that would she sit at table with her father. it was christmas time, and the occasion would justify whatever of feminine smartness her wardrobe possessed. as she brought out from its recess the rich silk frock, still all but new, in which he had first seen her, she told herself that she would probably have worn it for her father's sake, had no lover been coming. on the day before, the christmas day, she had worn it at church. and the shoes with the pretty buckles, and the sober but yet handsome morsel of lace which was made for her throat,—and which she had not been ashamed to wear at that memorable dinner,—they were all brought out. it was christmas, and her father's presence would surely have justified them all! and would she not wish to leave in her lover's eyes the memory of whatever prettiness she might have possessed? they were all produced. but when the moment came for arraying herself they were all restored to their homes. she would be the simple quaker girl as she was to be found there on monday, on tuesday, and on wednesday. it would be better that he should know how little there was for him to lose.

zachary fay ate his dinner almost without a word. she, though she smiled on him and tried to look contented, found it almost impossible to speak. she uttered some little phrases which she intended to be peculiar to the period of the year; but she felt that her father's mind was intent on what was coming, and she discontinued her efforts. she found it hardly possible to guess at the frame of his mind, so silent had he been since first he had yielded to her when she assured him of her purpose. but she had assured him, and he could not doubt her purpose. if he were unhappy for the moment it was needful that he should be unhappy. there could be no change, and therefore it was well that he should be silent. he had hardly swallowed his dinner when he rose from his chair, and, bringing in his hat from the passage, spoke a word to her before he departed. "i am going into the city, marion," he said. "i know it is well that i should be absent this afternoon. i shall return to tea. god bless thee, my child."

marion, rising from her chair, kissed his lips and cheeks, and accompanied him to the door. "it will be all well, my father," she said; "it will be all well, and your child will be happy."

about half-an-hour afterwards there came a knock at the door, and marion for a moment thought that her lover was already there. but it was mrs. roden who came up to her in the drawing-room. "am i in the way, marion?" she asked. "i will be gone in a minute; but perhaps i can say a word first."

"why should you be in the way?"

"he is coming."

"yes, i suppose so. he said that he would come. but what if he come? you and he are old friends."

"i would not be here to interrupt him. i will escape when we hear the knock. oh, marion!"

"what is it, mrs. roden? you are sad, and something troubles you?"

"yes, indeed. there is something which troubles me sorely. this lover of yours?"

"it is fixed, dear friend; fixed as fate. it does not trouble me. it shall not trouble me. why should it be a trouble? suppose i had never seen him!"

"but you have seen him, my child."

"yes, indeed; and whether that be for good or evil, either to him or to me, it must be accepted. nothing now can alter that. but i think, indeed, that it is a blessing. it will be something to me to remember that such a one as he has loved me. and for him—"

"i would speak now of you, marion."

"i am contented."

"it may be, marion, that in this concerning your health you should be altogether wrong."

"how wrong?"

"what right have you or i to say that the lord has determined to shorten your days."

"who has said so?"

"it is on that theory that you are acting."

"no;—not on that; not on that alone. were i as strong as are other girls,—as the very strongest,—i would do the same. has my father been with you?"

"yes, he has."

"my poor father! but it is of no avail. it would be wrong, and i will not do it. if i am to die, i must die. if i am to live, let me live. i shall not die certainly because i have resolved to send this fine lover away. however weak marion fay may be, she is strong enough not to pine for that."

"if there be no need?"

"no need? what was it you said of unequal marriages? what was the story that you told me of your own? if i love this man, of whom am i to think the most? could it be possible that i should be to him what a wife ought to be to her husband? could i stand nobly on his hearth-rug, and make his great guests welcome? should i be such a one that every day he should bless the kind fortune which had given him such a woman to help him to rule his house? how could i go from the littleness of these chambers to walk through his halls without showing that i knew myself to be an intruder? and yet i should be so proud that i should resent the looks of all who told me by their faces that i was so. he has done wrong in allowing himself to love me. he has done wrong in yielding to his passion, and telling me of his love. i will be wiser and nobler than he. if the lord will help me, if my saviour will be on my side, i will not do wrong. i did not think that you, mrs. roden, would turn against me."

"turn against thee, marion? i to turn against thee!"

"you should strengthen me."

"it seems to me that you want no strength from others. it is for your poor father that i would say a word."

"i would not have father believe that my health has aught to do with it. you know,—you know what right i have to think that i am fit to marry and to hope to be the mother of children. it needs not that he should know. let it suffice for him to be told that i am not equal to this greatness. a word escaped me in speaking to him, and i repent myself that i so spoke to him. but tell him,—and tell him truly,—that were my days fixed here for the next fifty years, were i sure of the rudest health, i would not carry my birth, my manners, my habits into that young lord's house. how long would it be, mrs. roden, before he saw some little trick that would displease him? some word would be wrongly spoken, some garment would be ill-folded, some awkward movement would tell the tale,—and then he would feel that he had done wrong to marry the quaker's daughter. all the virtues under the sun cannot bolster up love so as to stand the battery of one touch of disgust. tell my father that, and tell him that i have done well. then you can tell him also, that, if god shall so choose it, i shall live a strong old maid for many years, to think night and day of his goodness to me,—of his great love."

mrs. roden, as she had come across from her own house, had known that her mission would fail. to persuade another against one's own belief is difficult in any case, but to persuade marion fay on such a matter as this was a task beyond the eloquence of man or woman. she had made up her mind that she must fail utterly when the knock came at the door. she took the girl in her arms and kissed her without further attempt. she would not even bid her think of it once again, as might have been so easy at parting. "i will go into your room while he passes," she said. as she did so lord hampstead's voice was heard at the door.