mormons abandon their homes and move south—prepare for the worst—go to payson—affairs being settled, return to ogden—called to go east as a missionary—journey across the plains—meet my parents in iowa—preaching and traveling—my father's testimony—missionary labors—called to missouri—sent to bring a herd of cattle—return to my parents' home—bid farewell to them—purchasing cattle.

some time in may, 1858, as i remember, an order came from president brigham young for everybody living north of utah county to move south and leave their homes prepared for burning; for it had been decided that if johnston's army came in, as it had threatened to do, with hostile intentions, the people would lay waste the country and fight to the bitter end. i do not remember that there was a dissenting voice from this determination.

everybody moved out to the south, myself and family going to payson, one hundred miles from ogden. there we made a camp, and i cut wild hay and hauled it for a livelihood, that being the only employment i could find.

in the latter part of july, when peace had been re-established, i returned home and made hasty preparations for my family for the winter, as i had been called by president brigham young to accompany general horace s. eldredge to florence, nebraska, with a company consisting of twenty men who were going on business and partly as missionaries. i belonged to the latter class. i went into the western part of iowa, being assigned to that field of labor, while the others went to their several destinations.

the company was to have moved out on the 1st of september, so i. a. canfield and i, fitted with a four-mule team and light wagon, were in salt lake city ready to start at the appointed time; but the rest of the party would not or could not be ready for ten or twelve days, so we returned home and stayed until the 11th. we then went to salt lake city and waited until the 14th, and, as the party was still tardy, we moved out to the top of the little mountain, and there camped. from that place we proceeded to the weber river, where we were overtaken by john neff and dusten arna, who were to join the party when it came up. as their teams were not in the best of plight for the journey, we traveled together to ham's fork, where we stopped on the 19th, and waited for those yet in the rear to come up. about 8 o'clock that evening h. s. eldredge, jos. w. young and horton haight reached our camp.

on the 20th, the company having got together, proceeded on the way to the sweetwater. on the 26th we reached the platte river, where i was taken very sick with hemorrhoids of the bowels. with that exception, all moved smoothly. on the 28th we passed fort laramie, and my health began to improve, though i had been brought almost to death's door, and the company was detained one afternoon in consequence. after that i improved, and the company made rapid headway. october 3rd two deserters from fort laramie passed the party. they had stolen two horses and a mule from the government, and, as i remember it, made good their escape.

nothing happened out of the ordinary until october 19th, when the party arrived at florence, nebraska, on the missouri river. from that point each went to his field of labor or to his business, as planned beforehand. canfield and i crossed the river to l. o. littlefield's, in crescent city, and stayed over night with him and his family, and on the 20th proceeded on our way to calhoun, harrison county, iowa, where my father lived with his family. we were soon overtaken by clayton webb and b. h. dennis, my brothers-in-law. i accepted a seat in their buggy and they took me to my father's home.

i had not seen father for eleven years. i was an entire stranger to every one of the family, who kept a hotel. i went in and ate with strangers, and did not make myself known until after all the evening work was done. then after i was satisfied that they had not the remotest idea of my identity, i told them who i was. it was some time before they could realize that what i said was true. to them it seemed that the dead had come to life, and the long lost had been found, for they had all given up hope of ever seeing me again. it was not difficult for me to recognize my father and mother, but my elder brother and sister were dead, and the younger ones had all grown out of memory.

when i had visited with them a few days, i preached several times in the public schoolhouse, and then traveled and preached. on one occasion i had a walk and talk with my father alone. we talked of my absence, and he said, "james, i had given up all hopes of ever seeing your face again, but thanks be to god i have that privilege. you always have stood up for the faith and have been a man through thick and thin for your religion." then he said, "oh that i had the faith that i once had, and felt as i have felt! i would be a happy man if i had the spirit that you have, and that i once had." he burst into a flood of tears, and exclaimed, "oh, my god, i am in the dark and i do not know that i shall ever feel as i once felt. then i could divide the last loaf, yes, the last morsel of food that i had with a mormon. talk about heaven! the true spirit of mormonism is heaven. i thank god that you have kept the faith, though you have had a hard time of it." then he added, "james, stick to it and never give it up; for if there is any salvation for me or any of my family it will be through you, for you are the joseph of my family, and i have known it since before you were born." he then seemed as humble as a little child, and continued: "james, be faithful in the work, but as for me or any of my family going to utah, i don't think we will ever go."

i told him he could do no better than to go with his entire family and renew their covenants, for the good spirit was for all who would seek it in the proper way. at last father said that he did not know what they should do yet, the weather being wet and cold.

we returned into the house and i stayed with the family the first month, preaching in the public schoolhouse every sabbath. then my brother willis and i traveled around from place to place, and preached everywhere we found an opportunity, first to raglan township, and then to the northeast, forty miles into shelby county. we preached several times in garden grove schoolhouse, and went from there to a small town called monteno, thence to pottawatomie county. we preached to a full hall in council bluffs city, then went out on mosquito creek, in what was called the garner settlement. thus we continued to travel and preach from place to place and bear our testimonies, as health and opportunity permitted.

in january, 1859, preached my cousin ira johnson's funeral sermon; he had been accidentally shot and killed while out with a surveying party in that region of country. the same day i baptized six persons and confirmed them; this was at my father's house, and from that time my father seemed quite changed in his feelings. he said it was all that he could do to keep out of the water, and stated that he had never felt better in his life than he did on that occasion. said he, "james, i want you to preach all the time."

on april 7th i received a letter from general horace s. eldredge, asking me to come down to platte county, missouri, and receive one hundred and seventy-seven head of work oxen that he had contracted for with mr. lampton and mr. thompson, cattle merchants. having also received the written contract for the cattle, i started on the 8th, and on the 9th i took passage on the steamboat satan, which lay at the council bluffs landing. i paid ten dollars for passage to parkville, platte county, missouri. the boat called at all important towns and landings. nothing out of the ordinary happened except that we were driven under a high sandbank in a short bend of the river, by a powerful wind storm, and in trying to extricate the boat, the side-wheel next the shore threw the water with such force against the bank as to cause it to cave in onto the boat, so that the guards and wheelhouse were carried away.

i landed at parkville on april 13th, stopped overnight, and on the 14th proceeded eight miles to mr. thompson's. on the 15th i went with him to his partner in the contract, mr. lampton. the men general eldredge promised in his letter on the 15th to send to help drive and care for the cattle, did not arrive until the 27th, when eldredge came with five men. he furnished money to pay the expenses, and gave instructions, then returned to st. louis. on the 28th, 29th and 30th, myself and party received and branded one hundred and seventy-seven head of work oxen and two valuable mules.

we started for the north on may 1st, traveling through rochester, marysvale, lindon and sydney, keeping from the river and on the high, rolling prairies, through what was called the platte purchase in missouri. we arrived in council bluffs on may 15th, and went from there to florence, nebraska, where i delivered up the drove of cattle and span of mules, on the 16th, to bishop frederick kesler, who was general eldredge's agent. we lost but one head from among the cattle, although we had an exceedingly stormy and muddy time of it most of the way, having to swim several streams that had been swollen by the heavy rains, so that the journey was taken with great hardships, and danger as well.

i went to my father's home on the 17th, in calhoun county, iowa, settled with my father, who was very kind to me and my brother willis, helping us to two yoke of oxen to cross the plains with. we bade farewell to the parental home and to the family on the 27th. father accompanied us to council bluffs and paid our expenses until the 30th, when we parted with him. we crossed the river at omaha, and moved up to florence, where we went into a camp or rendezvous and waited for others to come to make a company strong enough to cross the plains.

the company had its camp some three miles northwest of florence, where general eldredge, the church agent, and elder george q. cannon, agent for the european emigration, both called on me to go out into nebraska and also to cross into iowa and purchase work cattle for them. each furnished me with five hundred dollars in gold then, and as it was the time that hundreds of gold hunters were returning from pike's peak, i had great success in my purchases, spending a thousand dollars some days in the purchase of cattle, buying whole teams as they stood on the road, sometimes wagons, equipage and provisions. i would hire a trusty man to drive them up to florence, and then i would replenish my pockets and go on again. for ten days i traveled early and late, and did thousands of dollars' worth of business for the church and emigration.