there are some people to whom love comes in a single blinding flash; it is as though the heavens were opened and the vision and the glory theirs in a sudden, transcendant revelation. to others it comes gradually, their hearts opening diffidently to its warmth and light as a closed bud unfolds its petals, almost imperceptibly, to the sun.

with jean, its coming partook in a measure of both of these. love itself did not come to her suddenly. it had been secretly growing and deepening within her for months. but the recognition of it came upon her with an overwhelming suddenness.

lady anne, in recalling that bleak tragedy of the past, had accomplished more than she knew. she had shown jean her own heart.

from those fierce, unexpected pangs of jealousy which had stabbed her as she realised the part played by another woman in blaise’s life—the woman who had been his wife—had sprung the knowledge that she loved him. only love could explain the instant, clamorous rebellion of her whole being against that other woman’s claim. and now, looking back upon the months which she had spent at staple, she comprehended that the veiled figure of love, face shrouded, had walked beside her all the way. that was why these even, uneventful weeks at staple had seemed so wonderful!

the recognition of the great thing that had come into her life left her a little breathless and shaken. but she did not seek to evade or deny it. the absolute candour of her mind—candid even to itself—accepted the truth quite simply and frankly. no false shame that she had, as far as actual fact went, given her love unasked, tempted her to disguise from herself the reality of what had happened. for good or ill, whether blaise returned her love or no, it was his.

but in her inmost heart she believed that he, too, cared—half-fearfully, half-joyfully recognising the pent-up force which surged behind the bars of his deliberate aloofness.

true, he had never definitely spoken of his love in so many words, hut lady anne had supplied the key to his silence. the past still bound him! alive, nesta had held him by her beauty; and dead, she still held him with the cords of remorse and unavailing self-reproach—cords which can bind almost as closely as the strands of love.

but for that——

the hot colour surged into jean’s cheeks at the sweet, secret thought which lay behind that “but”. blaise cared! cared for her, needed her, just as she cared for and needed him. to her woman’s eyes, newly anointed with love’s sacramental oil and given sight, it had become suddenly evident in a hundred ways, most of all evident in his sullen effort to conceal it from her.

so much that he had said, or had not said—those clipped sentences, bitten off short with a savage intensity that had often enough troubled and bewildered her, now found their right interpretation. he cared... but the bondage of the past still held.

and with that thought came reaction. the brief, quivering ecstacy, which had sent little fugitive thrills and currents racing through every nerve of her, died suddenly like a damped-out fire, as she realised all which that bondage implied.

it was possible he might never break the silence which he himself had decreed. from the very beginning he had recognised and insisted upon—the fact that they two were only “ships that pass,” and though now, for a little space, fate had directed the course of each into the same channel, a year, at most, would float them out again on to the big ocean of life where vessels signalled—and passed—each other. she must, in the ordinary course of events, return eventually to beirnfels, while blaise remained in england. and that would be the end of it.

she knew the man’s dogged pertinacity; he would hold to an idea or belief immovably if he conceived it right, no matter what the temptation to break away. and in the flood of light vouchsafed by lady anne’s disclosure, she felt convinced that he had somehow come to regard the tragic happenings of the past as standing betwixt him and any future happiness. why, jean could not altogether fathom, but she guessed that the dominant factor in the matter was probably an exaggerated consciousness of responsibility for his wife’s death, and perhaps, too, a certain lingering tenderness, a subconscious feeling of loyalty to the dead woman, which urged him on to the sacrifice of his own personal happiness as some kind of atonement.

unless—and a swift spasm of pain shot through her, searing its way like a tongue of flame—unless lady anne had been altogether mistaken in her fixed belief that blaise had not really cared for his wife but had only been carried away on the swift tide of passion—that tide which runs so fiercely and untrammelled in hot youth.

jean had her black hour then, when she faced the fact that although her love was given, and although she tremulously believed it was returned, she would probably never know the supreme joy of utter certainty, never hear the beloved’s voice utter those words which hold all heaven for the woman who hears them.

but, through the darkness that closed about her, there gleamed a single thread of light—the light of her own bestowal of love. even if she never knew, of a surety, that blaise cared, even if—and here she shrank, but forced herself to face the possibility sincerely—even if she were utterly mistaken and he did not care for her in any other way save as a friend—his “little comrade”—still there would remain always the golden gleam of love that has been given. for no one who loves can be quite unhappy.