he is very much frightened; the sailors abuse him; and he becomes miserable and forlorn

while the scene last described was going on, we were all startled by a horrid groaning noise down in the forecastle; and all at once some one came rushing up the scuttle in his shirt, clutching something in his hand, and trembling and shrieking in the most frightful manner, so that i thought one of the sailors must be murdered below.

but it all passed in a moment; and while we stood aghast at the sight, and almost before we knew what it was, the shrieking man jumped over the bows into the sea, and we saw him no more. then there was a great uproar; the sailors came running up on deck; and the chief mate ran forward, and learning what had happened, began to yell out his orders about the sails and yards; and we all went to pulling and hauling the ropes, till at last the ship lay almost still on the water. then they loosed a boat, which kept pulling round the ship for more than an hour, but they never caught sight of the man. it seemed that he was one of the sailors who had been brought aboard dead drunk, and tumbled into his bunk by his landlord; and there he had lain till now. he must have suddenly waked up, i suppose, raging mad with the delirium tremens, as the chief mate called it, and finding himself in a strange silent place, and knowing not how he had got there, he rushed on deck, and so, in a fit of frenzy, put an end to himself.

this event, happening at the dead of night, had a wonderfully solemn and almost awful effect upon me. i would have given the whole world, and the sun and moon, and all the stars in heaven, if they had been mine, had i been safe back at mr. jones', or still better, in my home on the hudson river. i thought it an ill-omened voyage, and railed at the folly which had sent me to sea, sore against the advice of my best friends, that is to say, my mother and sisters.

alas! poor wellingborough, thought i, you will never see your home any more. and in this melancholy mood i went below, when the watch had expired, which happened soon after. but to my terror, i found that the suicide had been occupying the very bunk which i had appropriated to myself, and there was no other place for me to sleep in. the thought of lying down there now, seemed too horrible to me, and what made it worse, was the way in which the sailors spoke of my being frightened. and they took this opportunity to tell me what a hard and wicked life i had entered upon, and how that such things happened frequently at sea, and they were used to it. but i did not believe this; for when the suicide came rushing and shrieking up the scuttle, they looked as frightened as i did; and besides that, and what makes their being frightened still plainer, is the fact, that if they had had any presence of mind, they could have prevented his plunging overboard, since he brushed right by them. however, they lay in their bunks smoking, and kept talking on some time in this strain, and advising me as soon as ever i got home to pin my ears back, so as not to hold the wind, and sail straight away into the interior of the country, and never stop until deep in the bush, far off from the least running brook, never mind how shallow, and out of sight of even the smallest puddle of rainwater.

this kind of talking brought the tears into my eyes, for it was so true and real, and the sailors who spoke it seemed so false-hearted and insincere; but for all that, in spite of the sickness at my heart, it made me mad, and stung me to the quick, that they should speak of me as a poor trembling coward, who could never be brought to endure the hardships of a sailor's life; for i felt myself trembling, and knew that i was but a coward then, well enough, without their telling me of it. and they did not say i was cowardly, because they perceived it in me, but because they merely supposed i must be, judging, no doubt, from their own secret thoughts about themselves; for i felt sure that the suicide frightened them very badly. and at last, being provoked to desperation by their taunts, i told them so to their faces; but i might better have kept silent; for they now all united to abuse me. they asked me what business i, a boy like me, had to go to sea, and take the bread out of the mouth of honest sailors, and fill a good seaman's place; and asked me whether i ever dreamed of becoming a captain, since i was a gentleman with white hands; and if i ever should be, they would like nothing better than to ship aboard my vessel and stir up a mutiny. and one of them, whose name was jackson, of whom i shall have a good deal more to say by-and-by, said, i had better steer clear of him ever after, for if ever i crossed his path, or got into his way, he would be the death of me, and if ever i stumbled about in the rigging near him, he would make nothing of pitching me overboard; and that he swore too, with an oath. at first, all this nearly stunned me, it was so unforeseen; and then i could not believe that they meant what they said, or that they could be so cruel and black-hearted. but how could i help seeing, that the men who could thus talk to a poor, friendless boy, on the very first night of his voyage to sea, must be capable of almost any enormity. i loathed, detested, and hated them with all that was left of my bursting heart and soul, and i thought myself the most forlorn and miserable wretch that ever breathed. may i never be a man, thought i, if to be a boy is to be such a wretch. and i wailed and wept, and my heart cracked within me, but all the time i defied them through my teeth, and dared them to do their worst.

at last they ceased talking and fell fast asleep, leaving me awake, seated on a chest with my face bent over my knees between my hands. and there i sat, till at length the dull beating against the ship's bows, and the silence around soothed me down, and i fell asleep as i sat.