she cried a great deal—and she slept a little. she would have died sooner than own it, but luckily for her newly developed sense of veracity, there was no one to question her on this point. about eight o’clock in the morning she rose and dressed, resolved to go downstairs to breakfast as usual. she found it practically impossible not to see rivers again. if he wished to avoid her, he easily could do so.

so at the usual hour, she drifted into the little sitting-room, her face composed to a certain extent, but her eyelids swelled, and her cheeks bleached and seared by a sufficient percentage of the hours of the night devoted to weeping.

the man of her thoughts was sitting at the breakfast table, bending studiously over a bradshaw. he hardly looked up, but he muttered something civil. mrs. elles was woman of the world enough to be able to murmur her conventional “good morning” in return, for the benefit of dorothy, who was in attendance, and who watched them both so intently as to justify mrs. elles’ peevish remark, “i do wish dorothy would not stare so.”

“does she? i have not noticed,” he replied, listlessly. “would you mind pouring out the tea?{164}”

this commonplace suggestion brought her back from the verge of hysterics, as it was perhaps intended to do.

“oh, i forgot,” she exclaimed, taking her hands out of her lap, and becoming suddenly and inefficiently active. rivers never got a worse cup of tea in his life, probably, than the one mrs. elles gave him that morning, and he took it without sugar, comment, or complaint.

they ate and drank in silence. mrs. elles could bear anything but that.

“will you look out a train for me—a train home?” she asked, in tones as nearly devoid of all emotion as she could compass.

“i will, if you will tell me where you live!” he replied, with equal coldness.

“newcastle,” she murmured, in a voice choked with incipient sobs.

he opened the guide with cruelly assured hands. “there is a train at 12:45,” he said, looking up.

but the strain had been too much for her, she had flung down her napkin, and had risen from the table, and hurrying across the room to the sofa, had flung herself down there in a heap, with her face to the wall. he caught the white gleam of a pocket handkerchief, which alone told him she was weeping.

there was a silence. rivers groaned—the nervous groan of a man who is too well bred to swear at a woman.{165}

she tried to refrain from sobbing aloud. she lay quite still. her eyes, half open in the dim penumbra of the sofa corner, saw only, as in a nightmare, its rough horse-hair surface, like a dreary hill, studded with briars of incommensurate proportions, and over which she somehow imagined herself climbing. her ears, preposterously sharpened by her excitement, next heard the faint click of a teacup, hastily pushed aside. a panic fear overcame her, lest this should be the signal of his rising, and that the clash of the door closing behind him, as she had heard it last night, and remembered it, would be the next sound that would come to her ears. but as in some stages of the mesmeric trance, she was powerless to stop him; she would not be able to raise a finger even to save her life, and her life it would be that she would lose. he would go out of the room—out of her world for ever! she listened ... her ears were tingling ... it was positive pain....

he did rise—and she presently felt his hand on her shoulder, and heard strange, unexpected words of tenderness from his lips.

“dear—i love you—but what can i do? you are another man’s wife.”

she turned her whole body round, and caught his arm to her, and hid her face on his sleeve.

“yes, i know, but can you ever forgive me—for the lies i have told you? that is what i want to know.”

“i have said that i loved you,” he said, simply.{166} “i can’t say more than that. women are different, i suppose.”

she never remembered anything sadder than the sigh with which he said this. she realized that in order to exonerate the woman he said he cared for, and to condone her fault, he had been obliged to involve the whole of her sex in her disgrace, and to set all womankind a few degrees lower.

“what am i to do then?” she asked like a child, sitting up, and pushing the disordered hair off her brows without regard to order or becomingness.

“obviously,” he said, and his tone was almost brutal, “go, unless you will let me? only, as you have a home and a husband to go to——”

“you might have spared me that!” she said, with a flash of her old spirit, rising, and wandering deviously towards the door, like one in a sad and hopeless dream. “of course i must go!” she said meekly, fumbling with the door handle. “will you please open it? i have things to do ... give up my room ... pay my bill....”

“have you—are you sure you have enough money?”

“no, i daresay not,” she answered with dreary inconsequence. “but it doesn’t matter!”

“what nonsense! of course it matters. you must let me lend you some.”

she shuddered. “oh, i couldn’t borrow of you.”

“why not? you don’t know what you are saying, poor thing!”

at that word she began to cry.{167}

“look here——” his words were rough, but his voice was gentle. “for heaven’s sake, don’t go and expose yourself—expose us”—for she had made a gesture expressive of entire disregard of all malign inferences with regard to herself—“to the whole household! it is bad enough already!”

he took her hand, and she ceased to weep, and looked up into the face of her supreme arbiter with a dull submission.

“you must take these three notes that i am going to give you,” he said authoritatively, “and go quietly up to your room and ring for the servant and ask for your bill and pay it—i can’t do all this for you, or i would—but i will order the trap to take you to the station in time for the 12:45!”

“drive to the station with me,” she murmured.

“no, i must not do that, but i will tell you what i will do. as soon as you have made all your arrangements, we will take a little walk in the park, shall we?”

he spoke like an ascetic, dealing himself out many penances, and but one indulgence. his tone throughout was businesslike and decided, he was no longer the quiet indifferent dreamer of dreams, but the efficient man of the world, the man of action; and the fanciful hysterical woman at his side was completely dominated by his decision, and stilled for the moment into something like acquiescence with her fate.

she carried out all his directions faithfully and{168} accurately, and in less than half an hour, joined him in the road outside the inn, veiled and spectacled, and demure as a nun about to take the vow!

“i have told them,” he said, “to bring the trap round to the park gates to meet you. so you will not need to go back to the inn at all. we have just half an hour.”

“but you are wasting your whole morning’s work,” she said as they turned in at the park gates. it was the first thing that occurred to her to say.

“oh, just for once!” he replied. “my work will have no cause to complain of me—after to-day.”

she shuddered at the grimness of his accent—she apprehended his meaning only too well. she seemed to see him in her mind’s eye, as he would be henceforth, stooping, brooding, gloating over his work in the dell of brignal, alone, as he was before she came there, and mildly, dully happy perhaps, as he may have been, before the human interest came to trouble him.

and yet—“he does not want to let me see how he feels it,” was the secret consolation that lay all the while at the back of her thought, explaining his brusqueness, his taciturnity, his hardness, which her surface mind could not help resenting and deprecating. her soul’s life, which was then at its lowest ebb, lived on that thought, and her body took courage from it.

she walked into the park almost briskly by his side, and when they had travelled a certain distance{169} along the broad path, he made a significant movement of his hand towards her spectacles.

“can you take those things off?” he asked her, imperiously.

she obediently doffed the symbol of her martyrdom and return to the paths of virtue, and handed them to him. he folded the spectacles and put them in his coat pocket.

“the bill was only thirteen pounds,” she next remarked, holding out the notes he had lent her. “i had plenty of money of my own, so i return these.”

the notes, too, he put into his pocket without comment. then she said reproachfully:—

“don’t you want to know my name?”

he started. “your name? that does not matter, does it?”

“but you surely must know my name to write to me by?”

“i am not going to write to you.”

“why not?” there was a sharp note of prescient anguish in her voice.

“i am not good at writing letters.”

“ah, no, it isn’t that,” she answered sadly. “you mean of course that you want to go quite out of my life.”

“what can i do?”

“do!” she repeated after him vaguely. then—“must you?”

“yes—i must.{170}”

“but it isn’t possible,—no, it isn’t possible!” she cried.

“quite possible,” he answered her doggedly. “i did not know you a month ago—i shall not know you a month hence, that’s all!”

she wailed out gently, like a child. “but what am i to do? what are you going to do?”

“i am going to do my work,” he answered her severely and coldly. “my work, that i have been letting go to the dogs lately. i shall paint and paint—like the very devil—as i did before you came. you must do that too. work is the only thing, i find.”

“work, work, honest work!” she repeated mechanically. “but will you tell me what work i have to do? it is all very well for you—you speak as if you quite looked forward to your life without me—but i shall eat my heart out.”

“oh, people say that, but there is a certain savage pleasure in renunciation, as you will find.”

his tone was so extraordinarily bitter, that she cried out joyfully, “oh, then you do care a little? you speak of renunciation! then i can speak. i was afraid to. i was beginning to think—that you had only—oh, how difficult it is to say these things!—that you had only—proposed—to me, because i had compromised myself by staying here with you so long. out of pity, you know!”

they had left the broad walk, and were wandering down a track in the undergrowth. he turned round{171} to her, and his voice was quite different from the one he had been hitherto using.

“you are quite wrong if you think that. on the contrary——” he stopped, and seemed embarrassed for the first time. “it was what i wanted—i said that i loved you—and i did. i do—only——”

“then—then—if you can say that——” she seized his hand, raised it to her lips, and kissed it. “then let him—let my husband divorce me! i must say it! i can’t let myself drown without a word! mortimer will have every excuse to divorce me, don’t you see? i have been living practically alone with you for a whole month! it looks bad enough—even old mr. popham saw it. i could not defend it—and i won’t! mortimer will have to divorce me, and we will marry each other and be happy.... why do you shake your head like that? no! but why not? you think my proposal dreadful! so it is, but i would do anything—anything in the world to come to you.”

“and so would i for you—you must not doubt that!” he replied, and his slow deliberate tones in no wise expressed the emotion that, for her comfort, she could see in his eyes. he gave her back her hands, as it were.

“anything,”—he repeated gravely, “but a dishonourable thing! no, not even for you!... look here! it is now half past eleven—you can only just do it! the trap will be there already! you shall leave me here.... please—don’t make diffi{172}culties, my dear. it has to be. we have decided it, haven’t we? good-bye ... good-bye!”

she did not cry. she stood still and leant her head against the trunk of a huge beech tree, and felt her hair catch in its rough bark, and half closed her eyes in anticipation of a parting that would be worse to bear than a blow. would he kiss her? he must, and yet she would not ask him.

he did; he took her in his arms, and gratified her great love with a kiss more perfunctory than passionate, perhaps, and which yet awakened the woman’s heart in her body once and for all. then he turned sharply on his heel and raised his hat—she smiled even in her misery at the irony of it, but she understood him now—and left her.

she dared not watch him go, lest she fall into the crime of calling him back to her. he might hate her for that. she looked up into the branches of the tree overhead, till a sudden rush of tears mercifully blinded her!

ten minutes later, she made her way down the broad walk to the gate, turning a foolish unintelligent stare on the porter who opened it for her as he had done for rivers ten minutes before—she felt a wild desire to ask him how her lover had looked as he passed through. still in a merciful dream she mounted the steps of the dog-cart that was waiting in the road for her, and was whirled away in the direction of barnard castle.

she was wrong in her supposition—rivers had not{173} left the park, but had turned down a little side path to the right. he stayed in the park till he heard the sound of the wheels of the dog-cart going past the high boundary wall. then he walked with his quick elastic step to the gate, and back to the “heather bell.”

“i wonder if i shall ever paint another decent picture?” was the purely technical remark that he made to himself. he was very pale, and he lifted his hat off, once or twice, and breathed deeply as the cold morning air met his forehead.

“a lady to see you, mr. rivers,” said jane anne to him, as he crossed the porch.

“where?”

“she asked to be shown into your sitting-room, sir,” answered jane anne, with great suavity of manner.

“you should not have done that!” the painter said wearily, and passed in.

the first thing that caught his eyes on entering the little parlour that he had shared with mrs. elles was her tear-stained handkerchief lying like a white blot on the black horsehair sofa, and her long tan-coloured gloves spread at length upon the table. if he had thought about it, he would have recollected that the gloves had not lain there when he left the room, or at any rate, were not in the same position. in the very middle of the room stood a tall commanding presence, the “bombazine mother”—as mrs. elles had insisted on calling her—the lady he had seen talking to jane anne in the garden last night!{174}

one bony hand was firmly planted on the table in the neighbourhood of the gloves, the other flourished a letter in an aggressively judicial manner. the artist bowed, and waited for her to speak.

“i daresay you know my name, sir!” she said.

“i have not the pleasure,” he answered, curtly. her voice had a most painful effect on him.

“poynder—mrs. george poynder—i am the aunt—by marriage—of the lady who has been living with you here for one calendar month! don’t attempt to deny it, man——”

she spoke so preposterously fast that he had no opportunity of doing so. pointing to jane anne, who had slunk into the room during her speech, she continued:

“this young lady will bear out what i have said, and the good people of the inn. there are plenty of ph?be’s things about; for instance, that object on the sofa—you will hardly say it is yours, i presume? i saw besides, with my own eyes last night, an unparallelled scene of——”

here the painter interrupted her by almost roaring out:

“please to leave the room, jane anne!”

the girl, cowed, crept out. the painter continued:

“if this lady is your niece, madam, you will hardly wish to discuss her reputation in public. now, all i have to say to you is this, that this is the parlour of the inn, common to all, and the only available sitting-room. {175}your niece, miss——,” he hesitated, he did not remember to have ever called mrs. elles by any name—“has been good enough to consent to share it with me during the time you name——”

“nonsense! now look here! it is no earthly use your beginning to tell me a pack of cock-and-bull stories like that!” struck in the old woman, and her overpowering emphasis actually silenced the man with the mere physical oppression of volume of sound and harsh quality of tone. the genius was no match for the virago.

“i have stayed here, in this very inn, from last night. i meant to see for myself—and i have seen! the vicar’s wife—if there is such a thing as a vicar in this god-forgotten place!—who was scandalized by the goings on here, wrote to me and apprised me that mrs. elles—my niece—by marriage—perhaps you will have the brass to say that you did not know that she was a married lady?”

“i certainly did not know”—began the artist, almost mildly—for the sake of another woman, grown suddenly dearer to him than she had been, he thought to exercise diplomacy in dealing with the coarse virago who held that woman’s fate in her hands—but it was of no avail, since she interrupted him again, stridently, volubly, overwhelmingly, so that his forehead contracted, and he turned pale under the mere shock of the impact of the words she flung at him.

“yes, my niece ph?be ran away from her husband—my nephew—and came straight here to you, and has{176} been living here with you for a clear month under an assumed name. that looks pretty bad, doesn’t it? so bad that mortimer—my nephew—will have no difficulty in getting his divorce?”

“divorce!” muttered rivers, taken by surprise, and foolishly allowing her to see the shock her words had given him.

“yes indeed, divorce, what else would you have? he will be perfectly justified. the woman has always been a constant source of trouble and disgrace to him. she has never known how to behave herself, and god knows what might have happened, and i, for one, am rare and glad to be shot of the little baggage! and now——”

mrs. poynder was not without a certain kind of penetration, and seeing herself in imminent danger of being ordered out of the room, adroitly concluded to be beforehand with the man whom she had goaded into fury.

“and now, sir, i will wish you a very good day!” she said, quite quietly, moving towards the door. “and since you are so very careful of ph?be’s reputation—there isn’t much of it—but the landlady here tells me she was under the impression that you and she were courting. well, perhaps now that you have ruined her, you will be gentleman enough to marry her. it is the very least you can do, when you have got her kicked out of her husband’s house!”

“and by god, i will, if it comes to that!” rivers{177} said, with sudden and determined emphasis. he strode to the door.

“now, madam, have the goodness to leave my room.”

he held the door open for her as she passed out. he was white with rage.

“i am sure i thought i heard you say it was the common parlour?” the terrible woman remarked to him, over her shoulder.

. . . . . . . .

a moment later, he seized his hat and went out. jane anne was waiting for him in the passage, her comely face marred with tears. she caught his hand and held it.

“oh, mr. rivers, do please forgive me! mrs. topham wrote the letter, she did indeed, and the other lady stayed here all night—and saw you——”

he shook her hand off his sleeve, and passed out into the road, without even looking at her.

jane anne looked at her hand—the hand he had disdained—as if she would like to cut it off. her heavy brows contracted—met together in a dull frown of rage and disappointment.

“then i’ll just swear anything they like!” she muttered to herself.