i have said that, ere the regular hutting of the army for the winter siege began, quarters were found for me by fate elsewhere; a circumstance which came about in the following manner. all may have heard of the famous solitary ride of lieutenant maxse of the royal navy, to open a communication between headquarters and balaclava; and it was my chance to have a similar solitary ride to perform, but, unfortunately, to fail in achieving the end that was in view. one afternoon, on being informed by the adjutant of ours that i was wanted at headquarters, i assumed my sword and sash--indeed, these appurtenances were rarely off us--and putting my tattered uniform in such order as the somewhat limited means of my "toilet-table" admitted, repaired at once, and not without considerable surprise, and some vague misgivings, to the house inhabited by lord raglan. i had there to wait for some time, as he was busy with some of the headquarter staff, and had just been holding a conference with certain french officers of rank, who were accompanied by their aides and orderlies. among them i saw the fat and full-faced but soldier-like marshal pelissier, the future duc de malakoff, with his cavalry escort and banner; and grouped about the place, or departing therefrom, i saw chasseurs d'afrique in sky-blue jackets and scarlet trousers; imperial cuirassiers in helmets and corslets of glittering steel; french horse artillery with caps of fur and pelisses covered with red braid. there, too, were many of our own staff officers, with their plumed hats; even the turkish cavalry escort of some pasha, stolid-looking fellows in scarlet fezzes, were there, their unslung carbines resting on the right thigh; and i saw some of our land transport corps, in red jackets braided with black, loitering about, as if some important movement was on the tapis; but whatever had been suggested, nothing was fated to come of it.

through the buzz and babel of several languages, i was ushered at last, by an orderly sergeant, into the little dingy room where the commander-in-chief of our eastern army usually held his councils or consultations, received reports, and prepared his plans. the military secretary, the chief of the staff, the adjutant-general, and some other officers, whose uniforms were all threadbare, darned, and discoloured, and whose epaulettes were tattered, frayed, and reduced almost to black wire, were seated with him at a table, which was littered with letters, reports, despatches, telegrams, and plans of sebastopol, with the zigzags, the harbour, the valley of the tchernaya, and of the whole crimea. and it was not without an emotion of interest and pleasure, that i found myself before our old and amiable leader, the one-armed lord raglan--he whose kindly nature, charity, urbanity, and queer signature as fitzroy somerset, when military secretary, had been so long known in our army during the days of peace; and to whom the widow or the orphan of a soldier never appealed in vain.

"glad to see you, captain hardinge," said he, bowing in answer to my salute; "i have a little piece of duty for you to perform, and the chief of the staff" (here he turned to the future hero of the attack on the redan) "has kindly reminded me of how well you managed the affair of the flag of truce sent to the officer on the russian left, concerning the major of the 93rd highlanders."

i bowed again and waited.

"my personal aides," he continued, "are all knocked up or engaged elsewhere just now, and i have here a despatch for marshal canrobert, requiring an immediate answer, as there is said to be an insurrection among the polish troops within sebastopol, and if so, you will readily perceive the necessity for taking instant advantage of it. at this precise time, the marshal is at a tartar village on the road to kokoz." (here his lordship pointed to a map of the crimea.) "it lies beyond the pass of baidar, which you will perceive indicated there, and consequently is about thirty english miles to our rear and right. you can neither miss him nor the village, i think, by any possibility, as it is occupied by his own old corps, the 3rd zouaves, a french line regiment, and four field guns. you will deliver to him this letter, and bring me his answer without delay."

"unless i fail, my lord."

"as richelieu says in the play, 'there is no such word as fail!'" he replied, smiling. "but, however, in case of danger, for there are cossacks about, you must take heed to destroy the despatch."

"very good, my lord--i shall go with pleasure."

"you have a horse, i presume?"

"i had not thought of that, my lord--a horse, no; here i can scarcely feed myself, and find no use for a horse."

"take mine--i have a spare one," said the chief of the staff, who was then a major-general and c.b. he rang the hand-bell for the orderly sergeant, to whom he gave a message. then i had a glass or two of sherry from a simple black bottle; lord raglan gave me his missive sealed, and shook my hand with that energy peculiar to the one-armed, and a few minutes more saw me mounted on a fine black horse, belonging to the chief of the staff, and departing on my lonely mission. the animal i rode--round in the barrel, high in the forehead, and deep in the chest, sound on its feet and light in hand--was a thorough english roadster--a nag more difficult to find in perfection than even the hunter or racer; but his owner was fated to see him no more.

i rode over to the lines of the regiment, to let some of our fellows--who all envied me, yet wished me well--know of the duty assigned me. what was it to me whether or not she saw my name in despatches, in orders, or in the death list? whether i distinguished myself or died mattered little to me, and less now to her. it was a bitter conviction; so excitement and forgetfulness alike of the past and of the present were all i sought--all i cared for. caradoc, however, wisely and kindly suggested some alteration or modification in my uniform, as the country through which i had to pass was certainly liable to sudden raids by scouting cossacks. so, for my red coat and bearskin, i hastily substituted the blue undress surtout, forage cap, and gray greatcoat. i had my sword, revolver, and ammunition pouch at my waist-belt. perceiving that i was gloomy and sullen, and somewhat low-spirited in eye and bearing, caradoc and charley gwynne, who could not comprehend what had "been up" with me for some time past, and who openly assured me that they envied me this chance of "honourable mention," accompanied me a little way beyond the line of sentries on our right flank.

"au revoir, old fellow! keep up your heart and remember all i have said to you," were phil's parting words, "and together we shall sing and be merry. i hope to keep the 1st of march in sebastopol, and there to chorus our old mess room song;" and as he waved his hand to me, the light-hearted fellow sang a verse of a ditty we were wont to indulge in on st. david's-day, while toby purcell's spurs were laid on the table, and the band, preceded by the goat led by the drum-major with a salver of leeks, marched in procession round it:

"then pledge me a toast to the glory of wales--

to her sons and her daughters, her hills and her vales;

once more--here's a toast to the mighty of old--

to the fair and the gentle, the wise and the bold;

here's a health to whoever, by land or by sea,

has been true to the wales of the brave and the free!"

and poor phil caradoc's voice, carolling this local ditty, was the last sound i heard, as i took the path that led first towards balaclava and thence to the place of my destination, while the sun of the last day of november was shedding lurid and farewell gleams on the spires and white walls of sebastopol. many descriptions have rendered the name and features of balaclava so familiar to all, with its old genoese fort, its white arnaout dwellings shaded by poplars and other trees, that i mean to skip farther notice of it, and also of the mud and misery of the place itself--the beautiful and landlocked harbour, once so secluded, then crowded with man-of-war boats and steam launches, and made horrible by the swollen and sweltering carcasses of hundreds of troop-horses, which our seamen and marines used as stepping-stones when leaping from boat to boat or to the shore. some little episodes made an impression upon me, which i am unlikely to forget, after approaching balaclava by a cleft between those rocky heights where our cavalry were encamped, and where, by ignominiously making draught-horses of their troopers for the conveyance of planks, they were busily erecting a town of huts that looked like a "backwood" hamlet. a picturesque group was formed by some of the kilted highland brigade, brawny and bearded men, their muscular limbs displayed by their singular costume, piling a cairn above the trench where some of their dead comrades lay, thus fulfilling one of the oldest customs of their country--in the words of ossian, "raising the stones above the mighty, that they might speak to the little sons of future years." elsewhere i saw two frenchmen carrying a corpse on a stretcher, from which they coolly tilted it into a freshly dug hole, and began to cover it up, singing the while as cheerily as the grave-digger in hamlet, which i deemed a striking proof of the demoralising effect of war--for their comrade was literally buried exactly as a dog would have been in england; and yet, that the last element of civilisation might not be wanting, a gang of "navvies" were laying down the sleepers for the first portion of the camp-railway, through the main street of balaclava, the bella-chiare of the adventurous genoese.

though i did not loiter there, the narrow way was so deep with mud, and so encumbered by the débris and material of war, that my progress was very slow, and darkness was closing in on land and sea when i wheeled off to the left in the direction of kokoz, after obtaining some brandy from a vivandière of the 12th french infantry--not the pretty girl with the semi-uniform, the saucy smile, and slender ankles, who beats the drum and pirouettes so prettily as the orthodox stage vivandière--but a stout french female party, muffled in a bloodstained russian greatcoat, with a tawny imp squalling at her back. i passed the ground whereon the picturesque sardinian army was afterwards to encamp, and soon entered the lovely baidar valley. the mountains and the dense forests made me think of wales, for on my right lay a deep ravine with rocks and water that reflected the stars; on my left were abrupt but well-wooded crags, and i could not but look first on one side, and then on the other, with some uneasiness; for russian riflemen might be lurking among the latter, and stray cossacks might come prowling down the former, far in rear of canrobert's advanced post at the tartar village. a column such as he had with him might penetrate with ease to a distance most perilous for a single horseman; and this valley, lovely though it was--the tempe of the crimea--i was particularly anxious to leave behind me. i have said that i felt reckless of peril, and so i did, being reckless enough and ready enough to face any danger in front; yet i disliked the idea of being quietly "potted" by some muscovite boor lying en perdue, behind a bush, and then being brained or bayoneted by him afterwards; for i knew well that those who were capable of murdering our helpless wounded on the field, would have few compunctions elsewhere. reflection now brought another idea--a very unpleasant one--to mind. though i was in rear of this french advanced post, there was nothing to prevent cossack scouts--active and ubiquitous as the uhlans of prussia--from deeming me a spy and treating me as such, if they found me there; for was not major andré executed most ignominiously by the americans on that very charge, though taken in the uniform of the cameronian regiment?

unfortunately for me, there were and are two roads through the baidar valley: one by the pass, of recent construction; and the other, the ancient horse-road, which is old, perhaps, as the days of the greeks of klimatum. a zigzag ascent, and a gallery hewn through the granite rocks for some fifty yards or so, lead to a road from whence, by its lofty position, the whole line of shore can be seen for miles, and the sea, as i saw it then, dotted by the red top-lights of our men-o'-war and transports. the other follows for some little distance, certainly, the same route nearly, but comes ere long to the devil's staircase, the steps of which are trunks of trees alternated by others hewn out of the solid rock; and this perilous path lies, for some part of the way at least, between dark, shadowy, and enormous masses of impending cliffs, where any number of men might be taken by surprise. and certainly i felt my heart beat faster, with the mingled emotions of fierce excitement and stern joy, as i hooked my sword-hilt close up to my waist-belt, assured myself that the caps were on my revolver, and spurred my roadster forward. darkness was completely set in now, and before me there twinkled one solitary star at the distant end of the gloomy and rocky tunnel through which i was pursuing my solitary way.