the cool determination of gertrude's conduct, the resolution which did not shrink from a proceeding calculated to excite at least observation by her servants, took gilbert lloyd completely by surprise. concealing, by a desperate effort, the passion of anger which flamed up in him, he turned away from the door, and got into the hansom awaiting him; but when quite out of sight of the gilded-bronze gates, and the miniature plantation of the bayswater villa, he stopped the cab, got out, and pulling his hat down over his brow, walked on rapidly, in a mood strange indeed to his calculating and self-contained nature.

by what fatality had this woman once more turned up in his life--this woman of whom he was well rid, his marriage with whom had been a mistake--a failure--and his parting with whom had been the commencement of a new and decidedly fortunate era in his life? his thoughts were in a whirl, and for a time resisted his attempts to reduce them to order and sequence. the physical convulsion of rage claimed to have its way first, and had it. he had known that feeling many times in his life--the maddening anger which turns the face white and the lips livid, which makes the heart beat with suffocating throbs, and dims the sight. he knew all about that, and he had to bear it now, and to bear it in silence, without the relief of speech, with only the aid of solitude. he could not swear at gertrude now, as he had done many a time when annoyance had come to him through her; he could not insult, threaten, strike her now; and much of the fury he felt was due to the powerlessness which drove him nearly mad, and which was his own doing. ay, that was the worst of it, the least endurable part of the wrath which raged within him. this woman, who had been in his power, and had been made to experience the full significance of her position; who had loved him once, and of whom he had wearied, as it was in his nature to weary of any desired object when attained,--this woman held him in supreme indifference and contempt, and set him at naught without fear or hesitation. in the force and irrationality of his anger, he forgot that she was acting quite within the letter and the spirit of the convention made between them; that he it was who had abandoned its spirit at almost the first sight of her, and had now received a humiliating check in endeavouring to violate its letter. for a long time his anger was blind, fierce, and unreasoning--directed almost as much against himself as against gertrude--his wife! his wife! as he called her a hundred times over, in the vain assertion of a position which he had voluntarily abdicated, and which he knew, in the bottom of his angry heart--even while the anger seethed within it--he would not be prepared to resume, were the opportunity afforded him. but as he walked on and on, getting by degrees into outlying regions of the far west--almost as little known to him as california--the habit of calculation, of arranging his thoughts, of (metaphorically) laying his head on the exact process or combination which he required--a faculty and habit of which he felt the value every day--resumed its sway over him, and he no longer raged blindly about what had happened, but set himself to think it out. this, then, was a parti prison the part of gertrude; this, then, was a game in which he was her adversary--with a purpose to gain; she--his, with nothing in view but his defeat. her cards were resolute ignoring of his existence; the absolute and inexorable adherence to the agreement made between them at brighton. his cards were persistent following and watching of her, which the coincidences of his position and the facility with which he could make her circle of acquaintance his, added to the exigencies of her professional career, which she could not control, however unwelcome they might be, rendered easy of playing. the next question was, what end did he propose to himself in this sudden revulsion of feeling, this sudden irruption into his prosperous and pleasant life of an element which he had hoped, intended, and believed to be banished from it for ever? this question he could not answer clearly. the mists of anger and jealousy arose between him and the outline of his purpose. was it to undo the past? was it to woo and win once more this woman, whom he had driven away from him, and who had just made evident to him the weakness of his determination and the strength of her own? was it to put himself entirely and unreservedly under the yoke of her power, from whose possible imposition he had been glad to escape by the final expedient to which he had resorted? had he any such rash, insane notion as this in his thoughts? he did not know, he was not certain; he was not sure of anything but this--that gertrude had refused to see him, and that he was resolved she should, come what might; she should not carry that point, she should not have the triumph at once of fidelity to their strange unnatural compact on her own part, and of having forced him to break it on his. he had dismissed her easily enough from his thoughts, but he could not dismiss her from them now; she kept possession of them now, in the pride of her beauty--how handsome she was! he had never supposed she would have grown into such commanding, self-possessed beauty as hers was now--and in the triumph of her talent--as she had never done since the brief earliest days of their disastrous marriage. gilbert lloyd was a man on whom success of any kind produced a strong impression. it counted for much in the rekindling of his former passion for gertrude that she was now a successful artist, her supposed name in everyone's mouth, holding her own before the world, a woman with a position, an entourage, and an independent career. his thoughts wandered away among scenes which he had long forgotten, in which she was the central figure, and into imaginary pictures of her present life; and he repeated over and over again, with rage--waxing dull by this time--"but she is my wife! she is my wife! no matter what she chooses to do, no matter how she chooses to act towards me, she is my wife! i have only to declare it if i choose." and the consequences to which she, judging by her present conduct, would probably be entirely indifferent--was he prepared to face them? he could not answer this question either; he was not yet cool-headed enough to estimate them aright.

a devouring curiosity concerning gertrude took possession of him--a craving eagerness to know what were her movements, who were her associates, how she lived; even the disposition of the rooms in her house, and her domestic relations. the absolute ignorance of all these things in which he remained, though his imperious will demanded to be informed of them, exasperated him; and with his fruitless anger there was mingled a grim humour, as he thought of the scenes through which they had passed together, as he recalled gertrude in the intimacy of their domestic life. and now he was the one person in the world from whom she concealed herself, the one person shut out from her by a barrier erected by her inflexible will. was he? time would tell. he had not been ignorant daring the sometimes stormy, sometimes gay and careless, but always unsatisfactory, period which preceeded their separation, that he was by no means so indifferent to gertrude as she was to him. on the contrary, he had realised that clearly and plainly, and it had sharpened his anger towards her and hardened his heart in the hour of their parting; and he had hated her then, and chafed under the knowledge that she did not hate him, that she was only glad to be rid of him, had only ceased utterly to love him, and learned utterly to despise him. justly esteeming himself to be a good hater, gilbert lloyd found it difficult to understand how it was that he had so soon ceased to hate gertrude, had so easily yielded to the sense of relief in having done with all that portion of his life in which she had a share, and had never had any serious thought of her, or speculation about her future; for to such an extent had his cynicism gone now that this period of oblivion and ease had in its turn expired, and she had again crossed his path to trouble him. he could only account for this curious phase through which he had passed by what seemed to him an insufficient reason--the new interests in his life, the success which attended his speculation in that "rich brute ticehurst's" affairs--for thus did the more fastidious and not less vicious man of the two characterise, in his meditations, the coarse animal he was devoting himself so successfully to exploiter.. such a chance, after so long a run of ill-luck, varied only by a coupon which he preferred not to dwell in remembrance--a chance, as he thought, with an ominous darkening of his evil face, which, if it had only been afforded him a little sooner, might have averted the necessity for such a coup, was calculated to occupy him entirely, and banish from his mind, anything which might divert him from the pursuit of his object.

and now it seemed wonderful to him that he could have thus forgotten her--now, when he was under the renewed spell of her beauty and her scorn.

there was an extraordinary fascination for him, even in the midst of his anger, in the mingled strangeness and familiarity with which she presented herself to his mind. he had a good deal of imagination, though but little poetry, in his nature, and the extraordinarily exceptional position of this woman and himself--the strangeness of the knowledge that she had accepted the fact of there being nothing mutual or even relative in their position now or ever--appealed, in the midst of his passion, to his imagination.

that she should dare to treat him thus,--that she should know him so little as to dare to treat him thus. he thought this, he said this more than once through his shut teeth; but he was not a fool, even in his rage, and he knew he was talking folly to himself in the moment that he uttered the words. why should she not dare? indeed, there was no daring about it. he had made the position for himself, and he was for the first time brought face to face with all the details of it. what was that position externally in the world's sight, in the only point of view in which he had any practical right to consider it? just this: miss lambert did not choose to admit him to her acquaintance. he was helpless; she was in her right. he might force her to meet him in the houses of other people--at the marchioness of carabas' house, for instance--simply because she could not afford, out of consideration for her own social position, to give up her patroness; and also (he began to understand gertrude now sufficiently to know that this second argument was by far the stronger), because she would never suffer the consideration of meeting or not meeting him to influence her actions, to form a motive of her conduct in the smallest degree. he felt that with a smart twinge of pain, the keen pain of mortified self-love. he had simply ceased to exist for her--that was all; she had taken the full sense of their convention, and was acting on it tout bonnement.. he might, therefore, calculate safely upon meeting her, without her consent, at other houses than her own; but forcing or inducing her to admit him there, was, he felt, entirely beyond his power. he was wholly insensible to the extreme incongruity of such a possibility, had it existed; and no wonder, for in their position all was incongruous, and propriety or impropriety had lost their meaning.

in the conflict of feeling and passion in which gilbert lloyd was thus engaged, there was no element of fierce contention wanting. love, or the debased feeling which he called and believed to be love, and which fluctuated between passion and hate, baffled design, undefined fear, and jealousy, in which not merely gertrude was concerned, but another who had a place in his life of still darker and more fatal meaning, and a more bitterly resented influence over his fate. when he had fought out the skirmish with the newly reawakened love for the wife whom he had almost forgotten, and been beaten, and had been forced to surrender so much of the disputed ground to the enemy, fear marshalled its forces against him, and pressed him hard. but not to the point of victory. gilbert lloyd was a man with whom fear had never had much chance; and if he had yielded somewhat to its influence in the separation from his wife, it was because that influence had been largely supported by long-smouldering discontent, ennui, a coincidence of convenience and opportunity, and a deserved conviction that the full potency or gertrude's will was at work in the matter. there was little likelihood that fear should master him now; but it was there, and he had to stand, and repel its assaults. if he attempted to molest, to control gertrude in any way; if it even became her interest or her pleasure to get rid of him in actual fact, in addition to their convenient theory,--fear asked him, can she not do so? is she not mistress of the situation, of every point of it? and he answered, yes. if she chose to carry out the divorce--which they had mutually instituted without impertinent legal interference--would he dare to intervene? he remembered how he had speculated upon the expediency of encouraging the "rich brute's" penchant for the fashionable singer, when he had no suspicion who the fashionable singer was; and a rush of fury surged all over him as he thought, if she had chosen to encourage him, to marry him, for his rank, would he, gilbert lloyd, her husband, have dared to interfere? fear had the best of it there; but he would not be beaten by fear. this enemy was strong mainly because he could not rightly calculate its strength. how much did gertrude know, or how little? was it knowledge, or suspicion only, which had prompted her to the decision she had adopted, and the prompt action she had taken upon it? to these questions it was impossible he could get any answer; and he would, or thought he would, just then--for he was an unlikely man to stick to such a bargain, if he could have made it--have given years of his life to know what had passed that memorable day at brighton, before he had returned to the deathbed of his friend, and there encountered gertrude. the dying whisper which had conveyed to the young woman the power she had used so promptly was unknown by lloyd; on this point--the great, the essential point of his musings--all was conjecture, dark, terrifying, and undefined.

had love and fear only possessed his dark soul between them, the strife might soon have ended, in a division in which the man's own safety would have been consulted. gilbert lloyd would have made up his mind that, as his first fancy for gertrude had passed away, so this eccentric renewal of it would also harmlessly decline. the whole difficulty might have resolved itself into his persuading ticehurst to go abroad in his company, until the "rich brute" should have escaped all risk of an "entanglement," which lloyd would have painted in the most alarming colours, and lloyd himself have recovered from a passing fit of weak folly, which he might have been trusted to learn to despise, on a sober consideration of its bearing on his interests in the career in which he had contrived with so much difficulty to lancerhimself.

but the look which he had seen in gertrude's proud calm face--the smile which was so absolutely new to him, that it would have thrilled him through with jealousy to whomsoever addressed, because it revealed to him that she had never felt for him that which prompted its soft and trusting sweetness--the smile which had fired all the evil passions in his exceptionally evil nature--had shown gilbert a far more terrible truth: she had never given him such a smile. soit.. he had had such as he had cared for, and he was tired of them, and done with them, and as bright and beautiful were to be had for love or money, particularly for money. thus he might have thought, half in consoling earnest, half in mortification, and acted on the reassuring argument. but the smile, the unknown smile, which had not lighted her face upon their bridal day, which had never adorned the happiest hour--and they had had some happy hours--of their marriage, had beamed upon the man whom of all men living gilbert lloyd hated most bitterly--and that man was his brother. his brother, miles challoner, their dead father's darling son--(and when lloyd thought of his father his face was horrible to see, and his heart was foul with curses and unnatural hate, for he hated his dead father more than his living brother),--the heir who had been his rival always, his master in their nursery, the object of his bitterest envy and enmity when he was so young that it was a mystery of the devil how such passions could have a place in his childish heart. in the name of the devil,--in whom gilbert lloyd was almost tempted to believe as he watched that smile, and felt the tempest rise in his heart, like the waves under the moonbeams,--how had thiscomplication come about! this he could readily ascertain, but what would it avail him to know it? if she loved this hated brother of his, what could he do? enjoy the hideous revenge of keeping quiet, and letting their mutual love grow into the blessing and hope of their existence perhaps, and then come forward and expose all the truth, and crush the two at once? and then? his own share in this, what would it be? utter ruin; and for his brother the sympathy of the world! to be sure it would be deep disgrace for the women who, secretly a wife, encouraged a man to love, and to hope to win her; but she could deny her love and the encouragement, and nobody could prove either, and she was entirely ignorant of the relation subsisting between miles challoner and him. of this gilbert lloyd did not feel a moment's doubt. miles would not divulge a fact in which a terrible family secret was involved, to anyone; he had taken his line towards gilbert on their first accidental meeting far too decidedly for the existence of any doubt on that point. if, on the other hand, gilbert lloyd were to yield to the promptings of passion and revenge, and betray the relationship, ruin of a double kind would inevitably overtake him; vague indeed as to its source or manner, but not admitting of any doubt. he knew that such would be the case, thus: one communication only had been addressed to the man who is here called gilbert lloyd, by his father, after his sudden departure from rowley court. it was brief, and contained in the following words:

"i have placed in the hands of a friend in whom i have entire confidence the narrative of the events which have ended with your banishment from my house, and your erasure from our family annals for ever. this friend is not acquainted with your personal appearance, and cannot therefore recognise you, should your future conduct enable you to present yourself in any place where he may be found; but he will be in close and constant intercourse with my son; and should you venture, either directly or remotely, to injure my son, in person, reputation, estate, or by any means whatever, this friend, being warned by me to investigate any such injury done to my son, on the presumption that it comes from you, will be enabled to identify you; and is, in such ease, bound to me by a solemn promise to expose the whole of the facts, and the proofs in his possession, in such manner as he may judge best for bringing you most certainly and expeditiously to that punishment which human weakness has prevented my being the means of inflicting upon you. i give you this information and warning, in the interest of my son, and also because i desire to turn you, by the only motive available for my purpose, from the commission of a crime whose penalty no one's weakness will enable you to evade.."

gilbert lloyd had never been able during all the vicissitudes of his career--in all its levities, its successes, its failures, its schemes--to forget the warning, or even the phrasing, of this terrible letter. he had burned it in a fury which would have hardly been assuaged by the blood of the writer, and had tried to persuade himself afterwards that he scoffed at the suspicions and the threat and the precaution alike. but the effort failed: he did not scoff--he believed and feared, and remembered; and in this strange and ominous complication, which had brought his brother across his path under circumstances which any man might have feared, he felt the futility of his pretended indifference to an extent which resembled terror.

he wondered at himself now, when he remembered that whenever he had thought about his wife at all in the early days after their separation, in the few and scattered speculations which had arisen in his mind about her, the idea of her ever loving another man had found no place. so intense was his egotism, that, though he did not indulge in the mere vanity of believing that she still loved him, and would repent the step she had taken, he did not in the least realise her matter-of-fact emancipation from the ties which they loosed by mutual consent. he had sometimes wondered whether she got on well with her liberty and her hundred pounds; whether she had gone back to the drudgery of school-life, in the intensified form that drudgery assumes to a teacher; whether she had any friends, and how she accounted to them for her isolation; with other vague and placid vaticinations. but that this young and handsome woman, who had found out the unworthiness of her first love, had been rudely awakened from her woman's dream of happiness, and had exchanged all the sentiment with which she had regarded him for horror and contempt, and a steadily maintained purpose of utter separation--that she should have a second love, should dream again, never occurred to him. as little had he thought about the probability of his meeting her in the widely divergent course which his own life had taken from any within the previous experience of either. but he had met her; and one of the unexpected results of that undesirable event was to awaken him, with a shock, to the strongest suspicion that she did love and dream again, and that the object of the love and the dream was the man he most hated--was his brother. how gilbert lloyd would have regarded this circumstance, had he carried out his acceptation of the situation with such good faith and such complete indifference as gertrude evinced, had he been able to see her again perfectly unmoved and without the slightest wish to alter anything in their position, he did not stop seriously to consider. this might have been; and for a minute or two his mind glanced at certain cynical possibilities in such a case, which might have enabled him to gratify his spite towards both his wife and his brother, in comparative security. but it was not; and that which was, absorbed him wholly.

alternately raging against the feelings which possessed him, and arranging the facts of the case in order, and forcing himself to ponder them with his accustomed coolness, gilbert lloyd walked on for many miles without taking note of distance. when at length he bethought him of the time, and consulted his watch, he found he must hasten back to town, to be ready to dine with the "rich brute," who was to entertain a party of choice spirits devoted to the turf that day. the occasion was an important, and gilbert lloyd intended that it should be a profitable, one. in the midst of the anger and perturbation of his spirit, he was quite capable of attending to his own and his patron's interests--when they were identical; and there was no mental process, involving no matter what amount of passion or scheming or danger, which gilbert lloyd could not lay aside--ranged in its due place in his memory--to await its fitting time; a valuable faculty, and not a little dangerous in the possession of a man at war, more or less openly, with society.

the next day, as gilbert lloyd, as usual admirably mounted, turned into the park, and made for the then almost deserted lady's mile, a carriage swept rapidly by. two ladies occupied the back-seat, and on the front lloyd beheld the unusual apparition of lord sandilands. the ladies were the marchioness of carabas and miss lambert. they saw him; and lady carabas gave him a bow at once graciously graceful and deliciously familiar; but miss lambert looked straight before her with such exquisitely perfect unconsciousness, that it never occurred to either of her companions that she had recognised gilbert lloyd.

then savage anger took possession of him once more, and scattered all the process of thought he had been going through to the winds, and he swore that, come what might, he would meet her where it would be impossible for her to avoid him.