“ah! let the heart that worships thee
by ev’ry change be proved.”
l. e. l.
“i could forgive the miserable hours
his falsehood, and his only, taught my heart;
but i can not forgive that for his sake
my faith in good is shaken, and my hopes
are pale and cold, for they have looked on death.
why should i love him? he no longer is
that which i loved.”
l. e. l.
“thou livest! thou livest!
i knew thou couldst not die!”
de chatillon—mrs. hemans.
nearly two years had elapsed since the death of reginald de vere ere any event of sufficient importance occurred in annie’s life for us to resume the thread of our narrative. a shock like that, and on such a disposition, could never be forgotten, though time, the softener of all ills, had restored her to some degree of her wonted animation, and though the elastic spirits of the young girl had given way, the woman had become yet more attractive and lovable. the first london season after reginald’s death she had not accompanied her uncle’s family to the great metropolis, but spent the period of their absence quietly in scotland. the second, she did not refuse to join them; but scenes of festivity were so evidently distasteful, that her friends did not urge her entering more into society than her own inclinations prompted. but in her uncle’s house she was seen and known only to be admired and loved, receiving, to her extreme astonishment, an unexceptionable offer of marriage before she had been two months in london. it was declined gratefully, but so decidedly as to give no hope. some weeks afterwards, lord st. clair one morning entered annie’s room. she was alone, so intently engaged in drawing as not to observe the very peculiar expression of countenance with which he regarded her some minutes without speaking.
“i would give something to read your thoughts, cousin mine,” she said, playfully, at length raising her eyes to his face, which instantly resumed its usual kind and open expression. “i could hardly believe you were in the room, you were so silent.”
“i was thinking how very wise the world is, annie. it knows and vouches for so many things concerning individuals, of which they are utterly ignorant themselves.”
“why, what is the report now?”
“only—” he paused for a second, then rallied so quickly, that the huskiness of his first words was unperceived, “that you and i are engaged in marriage, and that i only wait till you are of age, that the disparity of years may seem less.”
“the world must think much too highly of me for such a report to gain credence,” replied annie, simply, yet gravely, though she did start at the intelligence.
“what can you mean?”
“that they must hold me in much greater respect than i deserve to unite my name, even in thought, with yours.”
“my dear annie, can you mean that you are undeserving of the regard of any man, however high his worth? how little do you know yourself! believe me, it is i who should feel proud that the world should believe this so strongly that not even the disparity of years between us is considered an objection.”
“do not talk so, dear henry, or i shall fear i am losing one of the truest friends i have. you have always treated me with such regard as never to flatter me; pray do not begin now.”
“indeed you do me injustice, annie; might i not return the charge, and accuse you of flattering me?”
“no, dear cousin. how can i do otherwise than look up to, and venerate your worth, associating with you at home, as i have done for nearly three years, and receiving such constant kindness, that had i been your own young sister you could not have shown more? do i not see you as a son and brother? and if i did not venerate you, should i not be the only one, either at home or in the world, who did not do you the justice you deserve?”
“and may i not equally have learnt to know and love you?”
“yes, as a child, a sister, but not as the wife you need.”
“is the disparity of years, then, in your mind so great an obstacle? do you think it quite impossible a man of eight-and-thirty can love a girl of twenty?”
“no, not impossible.”
“but impossible that a girl of twenty could love a man of eight-and-thirty; is that it?”
“far less unlikely than the other case,” replied annie, half smiling, for her complete unconsciousness caused her to be amused at her companion’s pertinacity.
“then why should the world’s report be so utterly without foundation, dearest annie?” inquired lord st. clair, with such a sudden change of countenance and tone that it startled her almost into consciousness. the arch and playful look vanished, her cheek paled, and the tears started to her eyes, and laying her hand confidingly on his arm, she said, with quivering lip—
“dearest henry, do not let me lose the kind brother, the true friend i have so long believed you.”
“you shall not, annie,” he answered fervently, “even if to retain such appellatives makes me more miserable than you imagine.”
“do not, do not say so! my thoughts are all memories, and were the world’s report indeed true, would be faithless every hour; could this make your happiness?”
“but must this always be? is devotion to the departed a higher duty than giving happiness to the living? so purely unselfish as you are, would you not in time better secure your own peace by giving inexpressible happiness as the beloved and cherished wife of the living, who would never expect you to love as you have loved, than by indulging in the luxury of memory and devotedness to one who is in heaven? is not this a question worth considering, annie?”
“not now, not now! oh, do not urge me now!” she implored, bursting into tears; and her companion on the instant banished every word and thought of self to soothe and calm her.
a month or two afterwards lord st. clair, to the astonishment of his friends, by whom he was regarded as a particularly quiet stay-at-home sort of person, accepted a diplomatic embassy to the courts of germany and russia, likely to detain him twelve or eighteen months. he had besought and received annie’s permission to correspond with her. letters from a mind and heart like his could not be otherwise than interesting. his words returned repeatedly to her thoughts; she loved him sufficiently to feel a degree of pleasure in the idea of adding to his happiness, and six months after he had left england, her answer to a letter from him, in which generalities had merged into personalities, contained the following words:—
“if, dearest henry, the gratitude and reverence of one whose best affections still linger with the dead are indeed of sufficient worth to give you the happiness which you tell me rests with me, i will not refuse to become yours, if a twelvemonth hence you still desire it. give me that time. the painful feelings with which i now look to marriage, as almost faithlessness to one who, though the actual words never passed his lips, i do believe loved me most truly, will then perhaps, in some degree at least, have subsided, and i may be able to give you all that your wife should bestow. i know and feel that time is the comforter as well as the destroyer, and that though it is actual agony to think that my heart will ever so change as to feel less acutely the loss i have sustained, i know it will and must, and that it is right and best it should do so. give me but time then, dearest henry—let the memories of the dead be so softened that i may do my duty lovingly as well as faithfully to the living; and till that may be, let us continue as we have been to the world and to each other.”
lord st. clair did not hesitate to accede to this request. even his letters did not change their tone; he was still the friend more than the lover; but he contrived to shorten the period of his voluntary banishment, and eleven months after he had quitted england beheld his return.
there was a change in annie, however, which alarmed and pained him; she was pale and thin, and strangely and feverishly restless. lady emily, from being constantly with her, had not remarked the great alteration, but acknowledged, in answer to st. clair’s anxious queries, that she had seemed more unhappy the last four months, that the calm and tranquil cheerfulness which had characterised her had given place to alternations of fitful gaiety and more frequent depression; but what had occasioned it she could not tell; she thought it might be physical, as she had had a slight cough hanging about her for weeks, which nothing she took seemed to remove. four months previous! was it possible that she might regret the promises she had so ingenuously given? lord st. clair more than once caught her glance fixed with a degree of pleading earnestness upon him, as if she failed in courage to speak; and as he was not one to encourage painful doubts where a word might solve them, he took an opportunity of kindly and affectionately inquiring why she was so changed.
the cause was soon revealed. about ten days after she had written to him, as we related, she had seen, amongst other despatches directed to lord st. clair, which were lying on the library table waiting to be arranged and forwarded, a single letter, the writing of the direction of which had caused such a sudden thrill and subsequent faintness, that it had been with difficulty she refrained from involuntarily tearing it open, to know from whom it came. she said that she had endeavoured to conquer the strange fancy; to reason with herself, that the resemblance to a writing she but too well remembered was mere accident. yet so powerful had been its effect, that even when she recalled the superscription, the same feelings of heart-sickness returned as had overpowered her when it first met her eye. it had been put up with other public despatches—the family having before its arrival closed and sent more private letters; that as he had never alluded to it, she had struggled to believe it could have been nothing of interest to her, and yet the subject would not leave her mind, allowing her neither sleep at night nor rest by day. she knew it folly, she said, but conquer it she could not.
and that fearful state of internal restlessness was fated to continue; for, most unfortunately, the packet of despatches in which that was had been lost, in the overflow of a river which the messenger who bore it had to ford, and lord st. clair had never alluded to it, for his letters to annie had been shorter than he liked, from the annoyance and increase of trouble which the loss of this very packet had occasioned him in his political employment. that the post-mark seemed italian was all she could tell him, and his anxiety became as great as hers, though that it could really be what it was easy to discover annie really imagined it, he believed impossible.
meanwhile, the poor girl’s health—under a suspicion which, however imaginary, was very fearful—did not improve, and her relatives rested not till a skilful physician had been consulted; his opinion instantly decided them, and, despite of annie’s resistance, a tour on the continent was resolved on, lord ennerdale desiring her not to let him see her again, till she could bring back her own rosy smiling self.
the party consisted of only lord st. clair, lady emily, and annie; and, making only a brief stay at paris, they proceeded in a south-easterly direction, crossed the jura, and fixed their residence for some weeks in the vicinity of geneva. the complete change of air and scene seemed so to renovate annie, that physical strength gradually returned, and with it more apparent calm of mind. congeniality of taste in our companions is indispensable for the real enjoyment of travelling, and this annie fully possessed; those three years of intimate association with the apparently cold and passionless lady emily had deepened annie’s regard, but not altered her cousin’s chilling manner. but this delicious commune with nature, uninterrupted by intercourse with the world, caused her more than once so to relax as to excite even annie’s surprise, and convince her more than ever that lady emily had not always been what she then was.
they were sitting one evening under the projecting roof of a jutting gallery belonging to a cottage in the beautiful valley of chamouni; lord st. clair had that day left them to join a party of excursionists, in an expedition somewhat too fatiguing for his companions. the cottage, situated on a projecting mount or cliff, commanded a more extensive view than the parish of prieuré itself permits. the rich luxuriance of the vale stretched beneath them, intersected with cliffs covered with foliage and large patches of emerald moss, and variously-tinted lichen clothing the grey stones. here and there a true alpine cottage peeped through dark woods of fir and larch, and the blue and sparkling arve glided noiselessly along, still more lovely in the evening hour, as the glowing rays of sunset are contrasted with the deep shadows falling all around. above them towered mountains of every form, blending their separate charms in a whole so sublime and extensive that height and breadth were lost in distance; misty vapours, or light fleecy clouds, were ever wreathing their snow-capped brows, while mont blanc itself stood alone in its sublime grandeur, and in the unsullied purity of its snowy robe. the sun itself was invisible, but its glowing rays were shed upon the mountain, dyeing it with a deep, rosy flood of light peculiar to that locality, and only to be described by its thrilling resemblance to that fearfully brilliant flush sometimes traced on the countenance of mortal beauty, when life is fading imperceptibly away, and the strange yet perfect loveliness rivets not alone the eye but the imagination with a species of fascination which we have no power to resist. the period of its continuance might have been from fifteen to twenty minutes, when it suddenly changed into a pale greyish tinge, of a shade and appearance so peculiar that it affected the heart and mind with the same species of awe as that with which we regard the sudden change from brilliant life to the ashy hues of death.
an exclamation of admiration, even of delight, broke so naturally from the lips of lady emily st. clair, that her young companion looked up in her face with astonishment.
“have i not surprised you, annie?” she said, with a quiet smile. “are you still amongst those who believe that one so cold and silent as i am now can have no feeling for enjoyment, can see no beauty in nature, no poetry in the universe?”
“no,” replied annie, earnestly; “i know so much of you that mere superficial observers can never know, that i can well believe there is still more which my inexperienced eye can never reach. i wish,” she added, after a short pause, and with some hesitation, “that i were worthy to know you as you are, that you loved me sufficiently to unveil sometimes that which is so studiously concealed.”
“do not do me such wrong, dearest annie, as to doubt that i love you, because i am to you, in general, as to indifferent persons. i cannot change the manner acquired by months, nay, whole years of suffering, even to those whose affections i would do much to win. there is little of interest and much of suffering in my past life; but you shall hear it if you will.”
“not if it give you pain, my kind friend,” said annie; but she looked inquiringly as she seated herself on a cushion at her companion’s feet, and rested her arm on her knee. lady emily paused, as if collecting firmness for the task, then briefly spoke as follows.
“few, who have only known me the last fifteen or sixteen years, would believe that i was once, annie, far more enthusiastic and dreamy, and what the world calls romantic, than you were when i first knew you. an ardent love for the exalted and the beautiful, alike in man and nature; a restless craving for the pure and spiritual; an almost loathing for all that was mean and earthly: these were the elements of my romance, but carried to an excess, that instead of being beneficial, as they might have been, became indeed the height of folly, which is the world’s meaning for such feelings. i was a poet, a visionary, an enthusiast, feeding a naturally vivid imagination on the burning dreams of minds whose wings soared even higher than my own. by my family i was regarded with admiration and love, as one whose talents would raise me far higher than my rank. i had the advantage of association with the genius and the student; and their opinion of my powers, their sympathy, urged me on till i was astonished at myself. but there was a blank in the midst of pleasure; i soared too high in the moments of excitement. my mind, unable to sustain itself in the airy realms of an ill-regulated imagination, was fraught, on its return to earth, with a gloom and void even more exquisitely painful than its precious mood had been joyful. yet had poetry been my only gift, its pains and pleasures might have been confined to my own breast; but the powers of satire, mine in no ordinary degree, were far more dangerous to myself in their baneful influence upon others. i indulged in the most cutting irony, careless whom i might wound, regardless of any feeling but my own pleasure; i knew religion only as a name, whose every ordinance was fulfilled by attending public service once a week. i heard and read that, to some minds, poetry vitalizes religion, for every throb unanswered upon earth lifted up the whole soul to that world where all was love and all was joy. i laughed at such romance, as i termed it, for i could not understand it. in the gloom and void occasionally felt, pride and triumph at my own superiority to my fellows were the constant occupants of my heart, urging me but too often to level the dart of venomed satire on those whose more worldly sentiments and coarser minds excited my contempt; even the young and gentle often bled beneath that cruel lash, if in the merest trifle of word or manner they differed from my idea of excellence. my own family loved me too indulgently to be aware of the dreadful extent of this vice; henry, the only one whose noble nature and judicious feeling would have guided me aright, was a student in germany, and i had no one whose counsels might have spared me, in some measure at least, the bitter self-reproach which heightened the chastisement preparing for me.
“but i am lingering. amongst the numerous guests at my father’s was one, combining noble birth, genius, light and ready wit, with all the fascination of sparkling features, graceful form, and a manner whose elegance i have never yet seen equalled. he courted my society; he did not flatter, for that i ever scorned, but he appreciated. his manner always evinced respect for me, and pleasure at having found one to whom he could converse on nobler subjects than the mere chit-chat of a fashionable world. it needs not to enlarge upon our intimacy, or the means he took to make me believe, without in the least committing himself, that i was to him the object not of esteem or admiration alone.
“why should i hesitate to speak that which is now as if it had never been? i loved him, annie, how deeply and passionately! till my whole soul was wrapped in his image, and my very nature so changed, that i looked on this world with gentler feelings, and believed that the earth which contained him could not be as little worth as i had deemed it. all this would be useless to repeat; the blank in my heart was filled up; my woman’s soul, which neither fame nor talent could satisfy, was at rest; the actual words had not passed his lips indeed, but yet i did not, could not doubt him. that is not love in which a doubt can enter. i was visiting a mutual friend, and daily in expectation of his arrival; to relieve the yearning restlessness of anticipation, i had taken my tablets to a concealed nook in the garden, and was pouring out my whole soul in burning words, when his voice arrested me. the remark preceding his words i had not heard, but all which followed is written on my brain.
“‘propose to emily st. clair!’ he said, in a tone which, while it retained its beautiful harmony, was so changed in expression that i only knew it his by the agony thrilling through my whole being at the words, ‘percy, you are mocking me! marry a blue—a wit! worse still, a poet. pray procure me an admission into a lunatic asylum the very hour i make the proposal; for, at least, were i sufficiently mad to say, will you have me? certain as i am of being accepted, i should escape being rendered more so. no, my good fellow, the lady is agreeable enough as long as i am unchained; but once fettered, her folly and romance would send me to heaven much sooner than i have the least inclination for. why, were i in such a predicament as marriage with her, how do you suppose i could live for ever the actor i am now, when conversing with her, drawing her out as it were, to afford me amusement afterwards? the very idea is exhaustion!’”
“‘it is well her brothers have not seen the progress of your attentions,’ was the reply. ‘you might have to answer for such species of amusement.’”
“‘nonsense, man! were the courts of love in vogue as they were once, she could allege nothing against me to make me her prisoner for life. why, it was the very effort to keep up the liaison, and yet not say one word which her romantic fancy could construe into an offer, that was so fatiguing. her delight in my society was so evident, that i was obliged to be on my guard; words meaningless to others would have misericordia!’”
“‘out upon your consummate self-conceit; she never forgot her self-respect,’ was the reply, and the voices faded in the distance.”
“and you heard this!” exclaimed annie, indignation compelling the interruption. “gracious heaven! can there be such men?”
“be thankful you can still ask such a question, dearest annie. i did hear—and more, remained outwardly calm; at that moment i believe i was conscious but of one feeling, not indignation; no, he might have spoken yet more cruelly, more contemptuously. i heard but one, felt but one truth—that he did not love me—that the deep whelming passion he had excited was unreturned—that he scorned those gifts which i had lately only valued as i believed them valued by him. my brain reeled for the moment; but sense and energy returned, as gradually, but with fearful distinctness, his every word and tone resounded in my ear. anguish, which had been the first feeling, was as nothing, literally nothing, to that chaos of misery which followed—to disrobe the idol my heart had so madly worshipped of the bright colouring of honour and worth, to teach myself he was unworthy, had deceived, wilfully deceived. what was the suffering of unrequited love compared with this? he had said, too, that my preference was so evident, i would have grasped the faintest whisper of an offer. i knew the charge was false as himself; but that he should have believed it, added its bitter pang. how was i to act? my brow was burning, my pulses throbbing, yet return to my own home i would not; i would not feign illness, though god knows it would have been little feigned. i would meet him, pass in his company the period i had promised to my friend, and then i cared not.”
“and you did this?” asked annie, clasping lady emily’s, hand in both hers, and almost startled at its coldness—the only proof that the narrator told not her tale unmoved.
“i did more, my child. though poetry and satire were now to me but fearful spectres, from which a tortured spirit shrank—though that very hour i burned every fragment of composition once so precious, yet, during three long weary weeks, i was to him and to all around me as i had always been; perhaps even more sparkling, more animated, and far more joyous. without any visible effort, i so far changed in bearing towards him, that instead of finding in his conversation as before an echo to my own, i questioned, i doubted, and more than once i saw him quail beneath my glance or tone, compelled, ere we parted, to doubt the influence which he had boasted he possessed. but what availed all this? it did not, could not quench the burning fever within; and when i returned to the quiet of my father’s roof, the tight-strung cord was snapped, and overwrought energies so gave way, that for months, nay, years, the effects of that struggle were visible in a state of health so precarious, so exhausted, that i have seen my poor father pace my chamber hour by hour in silent agony, without the power to address him. for many months all was to me a blank; yet i believe i was not wholly insensible nor always under the influence of fever. ere i recovered sufficiently again to mingle with the world, he who had so deceived me became the husband of another; and that other, one who had been my dearest friend, and who has shunned me since as if she too had deceived, and had courted me from policy, not love. i have had no proof that this really was the case, but my faith in all that was good, and beautiful, and true was so shaken, i believed it as a thing that must be, for such was human nature. this marriage sufficiently accounted to my family for my mysterious illness. indignation was so generally felt, that had i been awake to outward things, my mind might have been perfectly at rest that i had given him no undue encouragement: and his manner had indeed been such as to give, not alone to myself, but to all who had observed, no doubt of his apparent meaning; but i knew nothing of all this. while chained to my couch by bodily exhaustion, memories of my past life rose to appal me, and to add the bitter agony of unmitigated self-reproach to that of unrequited affection. precious gifts had been intrusted to me, and what account could i render of them at that awful throne, before which daily, almost hourly, i expected to be summoned? they had estranged me from my god, and from his creatures. i learned to feel his words were true. unguided by either religion or reason, what could i have been but the idle follower of folly and romance. no throb of kindness or of gentle feeling had interfered to check the contempt i felt for, and breathed in cutting satire upon, others. i had wilfully trampled on many a young kind heart, and it was but just that i should have been thus trampled on myself. presumption and self-conceit caused me to smile, to scorn the censure of the world, and in all probability my manner had been too unguarded. this bitter self-humiliation only increased the struggle to forget that i had loved. in reproaching myself i ceased to reproach him; the pride that had supported me was gone. these thoughts continually pressing on heart and brain were, i am well aware, the sole sources of my long and incurable disease, but i had no power to shake them off; and, fearfully as i suffered, i have never ceased to bless the gracious hand that sent the chastening and recalled me, ere it was too late, unto himself.”
lady emily paused; the quivering of her voice and lip betraying emotion which she evidently struggled to suppress. annie’s tears were falling on her hand, and ere she spoke again, she bent down and kissed her forehead.
“you now know, dearest annie, more of me than i ever breathed to mortal ear,” she resumed, in her usual calm and quiet tone, “more than i ever thought could pass my lips. but do not weep for me, my child; i am happier, safer now, than i could have been had the wild, misguided feelings of earlier life continued. it was no small portion of my suffering so to control myself as never to give vent to the satirical bitterness that, when i rejoined the world, tinged my words and thoughts more darkly than ever. the determination never to use that dangerous gift, gave to my words and manner a stiffness and cold reserve which have banished from me all those whose regard i would have done much to win. many young loving hearts have shrunk from me, perceiving no sympathy in their warm imaginations and glowing feelings; and i dared not undeceive them, for i felt no confidence in myself, and feared again to avow sentiments i had buried so deeply in my own heart. others again shunned me, because terrified at a semblance of austerity, which they could not know was exercised only towards myself; and frequently have i wept in secret at the loneliness which seemed to characterise my path on earth. even you, my annie, gentle and forbearing as you were, till i could not but love you, have often checked your animated words beneath the cold, withering influence of my glance or smile.”
“do not call it cold and withering, my dear, kind friend,” replied annie, warmly. “i learned to love you long before i dared hope to win your regard; but could i doubt you in my hour of anguish? though even then i did you wrong; for i thought i was alone in my misery—and you had suffered doubly more.”
“you needed not such awful chastisement, my love; i brought it on myself. but you are right; fearful as is the death of a beloved one, it is happiness compared to the death of love, to the blasting of our belief in the good and true; the disrobing an idol, till we ask what it is we have loved. my dearest annie, bless god that this you have been spared.”
annie was silent several minutes, and then raising her head, she abruptly and strangely asked, “aye, this; but there are other trials. oh, lady emily, what must be the agony of that heart, who, sacrificing for the sake of the living the memories of the supposed dead, finds too late, that circumstances, not death, have come between her and the object of her first affections; that they love each other still, yet must be strangers, parted more completely than by death. what must be her duty then?”
“you ask me a difficult question, my dear child. if the heart clings to such a thought, better never wed.”
a bright gleam, as of relief, flitted over annie’s features; but, changing the subject as abruptly as she had entered upon it, she asked, with hesitation, “and that poetic talent to which you have alluded, do you never exercise it now?”
“never,” replied lady emily, taking her companion’s arm, and entering the house. “on my first recovery i dared not, for my sinful abuse of the power had been too recent; though i do believe, that as my taste had completely changed in the poets which i read, so too would my writings have done. but year after year passed; gradually i destroyed every memorial of my passed life, and found peace and happiness in the employment which you have seen and aided, until at length even the inclination to write passed away; and i forgot, even as you must, dear girl,” she added, with a smile, “that i had been a poet, and one of no mean grade.”
the silent pressure of annie’s hand was sufficient guarantee for lady emily that her confidence had not been misplaced; and she was happier, for she no longer feared that, misunderstanding, annie would at length shrink from her.
we will not linger with our travellers while en route. they visited all of interest in naples and rome, and resolved on passing the winter at florence. many weeks had passed in their delightful tour; annie’s health was decidedly renovated; but there were still times when her spirits seemed to sink beneath a weight of depression for which neither of her relatives could account. each month that passed diminished the time specified by annie as the term of mourning, and yet lord st. clair vainly tried to rejoice; he saw that, instead of decreasing, the memory of reginald became stronger—that the extraordinary impression made by the superscription of the letter would remain—and ardently he wished that annie had followed her impulse, and opened it ere it was sent on. he never spoke of love, he never recalled her promise, and annie so blessed him for his forbearance that, could she but have realized the universal belief in the death of reginald, she would at once have given him her hand, glad to exchange the torturing doubts which engrossed her for the tranquil calm which must, she thought, attend devotion to one who so nobly proved the love he bore herself.
the many interesting works of ancient art in florence, so riveted the attention and occupied the time of our english travellers, that the one subject engrossing the whole attention of the florentines was for some little time unheeded. the town was full of the unrivalled success of a young sculptor, who had burst into fame, no one knew how or where. he had been studying the last two years, amidst the superb specimens of art, in the galleries of florence, but so silently, so unassumingly, that he was only known as famous. his copies of canova and other celebrated sculptors had been pronounced perfect by able judges; but it was not till he had completed an original group that he at all seemed to sue for notice, and when that did appear, the easily-excited italians received it with such universal admiration, that the unknown artist was sought for on all sides, courted, flattered, and, better far, appreciated by those whose opinions were of value. italy is indeed the country where talent may rise to eminence, fostered and cherished by the encouragement for which it so thirsts. in this case, however, the interest excited originally by genius was heightened by the reserved manners of the young sculptor, who rather shrunk from than courted notice, except from the italians themselves. it was rarely an english soirée could obtain the favour of his presence. his appearance and name declared him spanish, a supposition which, as he never contradicted it, gained universal belief. that he spoke english, french, and italian as fluently as spanish, and was intimately acquainted with their literature, only proved that his mental capabilities were not confined merely to his art. how he found time to execute all the orders for busts, ornamental groups, etc., which he received, was a mystery to the idler, and a wonder even to the brethren of his craft, greatly heightened when his first original group appeared. it was not alone the execution, but the daring boldness of his subject which had occasioned such universal notice. boldly leaving the beaten path of classic subjects, his group, though consisting only of three figures, embodied a striking incident in the earliest stage of the french revolution. a young and beautiful girl had flung herself before an aged parent, clasping his neck with one hand, and by the attitude of the other, combined with the expression of the face, was evidently imploring life for him, even by the sacrifice of her own. on the touching and, to the italian eye, somewhat peculiar beauty of the face, the matchless grace of the attitude, and exquisitely modelled limbs, the sculptor appeared to have lingered till he had out-done himself. the countenance of the father breathed but admiring love for the heroic being whom his arm encircled, as if every thought centred in her, to the total exclusion of all terror for himself. before them, in a crouching attitude, as in the act of filling a goblet with the loathsome fluid which deluged the streets, was a half-naked form, whose ruffian features and muscular limbs contrasted well with the graceful beauty and nobleness of form in the other figures. the head was upraised, a withering sneer upon the lips, a combination of triumph and barbarity on the whole countenance, which so explained the tale it recorded, that, as an animated italian told lord st. clair, the heart of the gazers throbbed, and the cheek paled, as if life itself were before them. it stood in an apartment of the palazzo vecchio, where he entreated his english friends to go and see it. “i will not only see this wonderful group, but make acquaintance with its artist,” he replied; “for, after hearing all this, know him i will.”
“that you will find some difficulty in doing,” was the rejoinder. “he shrinks from all you english; besides, he is, i believe, now at bologna, and his return is uncertain.”
“never mind, trust me for making acquaintance with this lion, shy though he be.”
“there is but one fault in his female figure,” observed a gentleman who had joined the group, and was greeted with much warmth by lord st. clair, “a fault which we english ought to consider a virtue, but yet is in contradiction to signor castellan’s apparent reserve towards our countrymen. the beauty of the female is too english for a french incident and purely french characters. it is very lovely, i grant, but the loveliness is our own.”
the observation naturally produced a warm discussion, which ended as most discussions do, in each party retaining his own opinion, and lord st. clair taking his newly-found old friend home with him, introduced him to lady emily and annie.
“and are you settled down at last, kenrich, tired of wanderings and adventures? though last time i heard of you, you were actually enjoying the wars and cabals of madrid.”
“i am not very sober yet, st. clair; but i was fool enough to join the carlists three or four years ago, and their barbarity to my own countrymen so sickened me of war, that i threw up my commission, and have never drawn sword since.”
“what barbarity?” asked lord st. clair, catching almost by instinct more than look the expression of annie’s face.
“why, you must have heard—the english papers were full of it—that fine fellow captain de vere was amongst them. he and eight or ten others were taken prisoners, and were all murdered—for it was nothing else.”
“but are you sure he was amongst them? we all knew and loved de vere, and long hoped he might have escaped, and only been reported amongst the killed.”
“escaped, my dear fellow! how was that possible? besides, he was so terribly wounded, that he could not have survived, even had they not so cruelly dealt with him. i could not save him, but i saw him decently interred, and from that moment loathed military service, and left spain.”
“it was full time, i think,” quietly rejoined lady emily. “annie, will you try if you can match this shade for me among the chenilles in my room? i cannot finish this leaf without it, and your eyes are better than mine.”
annie took the chenille designated from the frame, over which her cousin was bending so intently in seeming, that she did not even look up as she addressed her, and quietly left the room. the moment she did so, edward kenrich burst into lavish praises of her beauty, declaring that was the exact style of castellan’s figure, and therefore he was right, and it must be too english for perfect art, so running on in his usual wild strain, that lord st. clair had great difficulty in bringing him back to the point from which he had started, and gathering from him every particular of the death of reginald de vere.
annie did not reappear, and lady emily’s great desire to finish her leaf seemed to have subsided with her absence, for she made no effort to recall her. just before dinner, however, lord st. clair, noticing the flutter of her white dress between the orange trees, which almost concealed the balcony leading from the drawing-room, hastily rejoined her. she looked up in his face without a word, but he answered her thoughts, tenderly and gently repeating all the information he had gained. there could be no doubt, and for one brief minute the poor girl’s head sunk on his arm, with a sudden burst of tears.
“i know it is all folly, henry. i had no right to hope; forgive me, i do but distress you; and yet that writing—that strange writing, whom could it have been from?”
“not from reginald, dearest, or it would have been to you, not to me. has that never struck you, annie?”
it had not till that moment, and it convinced her. she remained alone that evening, in deep meditation and earnest prayer; and the result was a firm conviction that nothing but a new and solemn duty would restore her to the calm of mind for which she yearned—that devotion to another well worthy of it must draw her from herself. a sleepless night confirmed this resolution, and the very next day the promise passed her lips to be the wife of lord st. clair, within a week of their return to england. a few days afterwards they went to the celebrated church of santa croce, during vesper service. the magnificent interior, heightened in its effect by the light and shadow flung by huge waxen tapers, the superb monuments, the white-stoled monks and dark dresses of the officiating priests, the kneeling and standing groups, silent and motionless as the marble monuments around—the deep-toned organ, and swelling voices of the choristers, completely enchained the imagination of our travellers. it was strange, excited almost to pain as she was, that annie at length found her whole attention unconsciously fixed on a single figure, who was leaning against the tomb of michael angelo. his face was turned from her, but there was something in his bearing and his attitude which riveted her as by a spell, and the longing to look on his face became strangely and indefinably intense. the soft light of a taper burning over the tomb brought out in good relief the stranger’s uncovered head, whose small and classic shape was shaded by clustering hair of glossy black.
“there he is! there is our sculptor, renaud castellan!” whispered one of the italians who had accompanied them, directing lord st. clair’s attention to the very figure on whom annie’s gaze was so strangely fixed; but even as he spoke, the young man moved his position, and disappeared in one of the aisles, leaving annie’s desire to see his face ungratified, and only permitting lord st. clair to catch the outline of his figure.
“was not mrs. de vere’s maiden name castellan?” st. clair asked of annie, as they walked together from the church to the house of their italian friend, who had claimed them for a petit souper, and some music. the answer was in the affirmative, and lord st. clair remarked it would be strange if this young spaniard proved to be of the same family. “i must seek him out.”
“see his group first,” was the rejoinder of one of the party; while to annie the words seemed to disperse the miserable doubts again thronging round her—being of the same family might account for a casual resemblance.
it was with some little difficulty annie was prevailed upon to sing; but when once seated at her harp, timidity gave place to her real love of the art, and the simple purity, the touching pathos of her style charmed all who heard. the entrance of a guest had not interrupted her, nor disturbed the listeners. lord st. clair was amused at the look of admiring perplexity with which he regarded annie, not himself perceiving that, where the italian stood, the light fell upon her countenance, so as to give it a different appearance and expression to that which was generally perceivable.
approaching her, as soon as the buzz of admiration had somewhat subsided, he engaged her in animated conversation; nor was lord st. clair’s curiosity lessened by hearing him inquire “if the signorina were not acquainted with the young sculptor, of whom all florence raved?” much surprised, she answered in the negative.
“but surely you have been introduced to him, have you not?”
“no,” replied annie, smiling at his earnestness. “i never even heard of him till i came here; and he has been at bologna, till this evening, ever since.”
“then he has seen you, signora, either in his sleeping or waking dreams,” was the rejoinder, in so animated a tone that it arrested the attention of the whole party; “for never did marble and life so resemble each other as the beauty of your face and of his creation. surely you must all see it,” he continued, turning to his friends with the sparkling vivacity peculiar to his countrymen when excited. “why, it is not feature alone, but the character, the grace, the similarity is perfect!”
“i told you so, but you would not believe me,” bluntly answered kenrich. “i told you it was an english face and english character; but you all denied it. i am glad my lovely countrywoman has opened your eyes.”
“why this is better and better, annie; do not blush so prettily about it,” whispered lord st. clair, as, attention once aroused, the similarity was universally acknowledged. “if the resemblance be chance, it is something to marvel at; if intentional, why i shall be jealous of the sculptor.”
“you need not, henry,” was the reply, in a tone so sad that it pained him.
“well, well, we will go and see it at least, love, and judge of its merit with our own eyes.”
the next day accordingly they went, and (the most convincing proof of the perfection of the work) were not disappointed. neither its beauty nor its eloquence had been exaggerated, and the resemblance to annie was so extraordinary that the eyes of all the spectators within the room were attracted towards her; but the expression of the countenance of the father in the group riveted her attention far more than the female figure. it was with a heavy sigh she turned from it, and was pale and silent during their way home; but st. clair was so engrossed by the beauty of the work, the strange resemblance, and his resolution to leave no stone unturned to gain the acquaintance of the young artist, that it passed unnoticed even by him.
“why, what ails you, annie? are you not well, dear?” kindly inquired lady emily, some hours later. wondering why her young companion did not join her as usual, she had sought her in her own room, and found her with her face buried in her hands, and her whole attitude denoting suffering. “henry has gone to seek out this signor castellan, to find out, if he can, in what this strange similarity originated, and who and what he is.”
“shall i tell you?” answered annie, in a tone so strange that it startled almost as much as the whiteness of her face. “reginald castellan de vere! was not his mother’s name castellan? and has he not often and often boasted his descent from spanish heroes, and from this feeling fought for spain in preference to any other country? did he not always love the art of sculpture? can it be chance that has marked the father and daughter of that group with the characteristics of the revered friend and favourite companion of his youth? no, no, no! oh! lady emily, you bade me once thank god that i had never been deceived; teach me how to bear this.”
“bear what, my poor child?” replied her companion, soothingly, as annie threw herself on her neck in fearful agitation. “if this be indeed as you say, what can there be but happiness for you? it is for another we must feel.”
“happiness for me! and he has never even so far thought of me as to tell me the report of his death was false, and he still lived—never recalled himself to one whom, when he departed, he so loved—loved! how know i that? he never said it; why should i believe him different to others?”
“my dearest annie, this is not like yourself. why, if he have ceased to love you, should the work of his hand—a work which must have employed his mind and heart long days and nights—bear the impress of your face and form?”
“memory, association, mere casualty—the days of his boyhood may be dear to his mind; but how can affection, even a brothers, have inspired that group, when—when he has allowed me so long to believe him dead?”
“it is all a mystery, my dear child; but i feel convinced it will be solved, if we can really prove his identity. may he not have written, and the letter miscarried?” annie wildly raised her head. “may he not have been deceived? perhaps—for we can never trace rumours—but may he not have heard that of you which, to a mind like his, would cause him to shrink from recalling himself? he left you such a child, how might he build on having so won your regard that you would remain single for his sake? dearest annie, if this indeed be not all imagination, and reginald really lives, trust me you will be happy yet.”
how will a few judicious words change the whole current of thoughts and feeling! before lady emily ceased to speak, annie was weeping such blessed tears. the proud, cold mood which, had her companion spoken as her own experience of man’s nature must have dictated, might have been retained, and made her miserable for life, dissolved before returning trust and hope. she dared not define what it was she hoped; but it was not till she heard lord st. clair’s voice, and she tried to spring forwards to meet him and know the truth, that a sudden revulsion of feeling so completely overpowered her that she sunk back upon the couch. how dared she rejoice, even if reginald lived? what could he be to her who was the promised bride of another?
“emily!” exclaimed lord st. clair, in utter astonishment, as, on his entering the drawing-room, his cold and dignified sister hastily met him, and taking both his hands, tried to speak, but failed: and leaning her head against him, he felt that she was in tears. “what is the matter, love? something very dreadful for you to weep.”
she controlled herself with a strong effort, and entered at once into the recital of the scene between her and annie. “could it possibly be as she supposed?”
“it may be,” was the reply, in a calm firm tone; “there is nothing impossible in it. i went to his lodgings, but, as i supposed, he was either out or too much engaged to be seen; but i am to meet him to-night at the contessa corsini’s, and this strange mystery will be unravelled.”
“and you, dear henry—” she could say no more, so holy seemed his feelings.
“and i, my dear sister, will act as that man should whose aim is not the gratification of his own desires, but the happiness of one far dearer than himself. i do not tell you i shall not feel, and deeply; but does the warrior shrink from the battle before him because he may be wounded? you may love me more, my emily, if you will,” he continued, fondly passing his arm round her, and kissing her cheek, “for affection is always balm; but i will have no tears—they are only for the unworthy. where is annie? poor child, she must be overwrought, from many causes; let me see her, she will be calmer then.”
he was right. what passed between them it needs not to relate. our readers can little enter into the high character of lord st. clair, if they cannot satisfy themselves as to the manner, as well the nature and extent, of the sacrifice he made. he was not one to wring the gentle heart he so unselfishly resigned, by the betrayal of personal suffering; he coveted the continuance, nay, the increase of her regard, and nobly he earned it.
it was a brilliant scene on which, a few hours later, he entered, introduced by the same italian, signor lanzi, who had been the first to trace the resemblance between annie and the female figure of the group. but neither loveliness nor talent, both of which thronged the halls, had at that moment attraction for lord st. clair; his glance had singled out a tall, slight form, leaning against a marble pillar, and half shaded by the drapery of a curtain. his head was bent down; he seemed in the act of listening and replying to the smiling jests of the countess, who was sitting near him; the cheek and brow were very pale, and the mouth, when still, somewhat stern in expression; but it was a fine face, bearing the stamp of genius too visibly ever to be passed unremarked.
“you may smile, and look incredulous, signor,” were the words that first met the ears of the english nobleman, from the young countess, in italy’s sweetest tone; “but since you deserted us for bologna, a living likeness has appeared of your beautiful améle.”
“mademoiselle de sombreuil herself, perhaps,” he replied, half smiling. “fancy would indeed have served me well, had such a chance occurred.”
“you are quite wrong. i doubt whether mademoiselle de sombreuil would herself resemble your fancy statue, as much as la bella inglese does.”
“la bella inglese! who may she be?” inquired the young sculptor, somewhat agitated.
“a lovely girl, who only appeared in florence as you left it. lanzi informed me the resemblance was so perfect, he imagined she must know you; but she had never even heard of you till she came here.”
“and what may be her name.”
“as you seem so interested, i regret that i cannot tell you. it is so truly english that it will bear no italian accent, therefore i cannot remember it; but find lanzi, i expect him here to-night, and he will tell you all about her.”
the arrival of new guests, and the attention of the countess called for from himself, the sculptor hastily turned, as in the act of seeking the individual she had named. he had not advanced many yards when he started violently, and with a sudden impulse retreated into a small withdrawing room, near which he had stood.
“why shun me, signor castellan?” inquired a frank kind voice in english; and lord st. clair’s hand was extended, and, after a moment’s visible hesitation, accepted and almost convulsively pressed. “why this long, mysterious concealment, my young friend? were there none, think you, to rejoice that you were still amongst the living?”
“was not your lordship aware of my existence, insignificant as it is, more than a twelvemonth since? my own hand and signature were surely sufficient guarantee,” he answered, in a cold proud tone.
“then you did write, and annie was not deceived! little did i know the precious intelligence contained in the packet, lost on its way to me in russia, and the want of which, in a political view, caused me such annoyance. but why wait so long, my dear fellow, to give us tidings so many would have rejoiced to hear?”
“so many! there were more, then, to mourn me dead, than to love me living? but forgive me,” he continued, less bitterly; “your family would have been my friends, and therefore was it i wrote to tell you that i lived.”
“but was there not one, reginald, who deserved an earlier notice at your hands? why leave her so long to mourn you as dead, and then to learn such joyful tidings from others than yourself? the ties of early youth, of fond associations, i should have thought sufficient of themselves alone to prevent such wrong.”
reginald’s very lip grew white as he replied, “was not her husband the fittest person to give lady st. clair such tidings?”
“her husband, reginald? you speak enigmas.”
“how!” gasped the young man, as he laid his cold and trembling hand on his companion’s arm. “is not annie grey your wife?”
“no!” replied lord st. clair, the peculiar expression clouding his noble countenance for the moment passing unnoticed; “her heart was with the dead!”
reginald de vere struggled with bursting emotion, but his trembling limbs refused to support him; and sinking powerlessly on a sofa, he covered his face with his hands, and wept such tears as only spring from manhood’s unutterable joy.
it still wanted an hour to midnight, and lady emily was in vain endeavouring to prevail on annie to retire to rest.
“you are feverish and worn out already, annie. how will you be able to support the excitement of to-morrow without rest to-night?”
“it would be no rest if i lie down; i cannot sleep. only let me know he lives!” and she twined her arms round lady emily’s neck, and looked so appealingly, so mournfully, no heart could have urged more.
there was a pause of several minutes, and then annie started up.
“it is henry’s step!” she exclaimed and would have sprung forward, but her feet felt rooted to the ground; another moment lord st. clair was at her side.
“promise me to bear the shock of joy better than you did the shock of grief, or i can tell you nothing,” he said, gently; but there was no need for another word. faint as she was, every object in the room seeming to swim before her eyes, every word to be indistinct, yet one figure was visible, one voice calling her his own, own annie—beseeching her to forgive and bless him! reached her heart, and loosed its icy chains, till she could breathe again. she felt not that strength had entirely deserted her, for she was clasped to the heart of reginald de vere, and the deadly faintness passed in the gushing tears that fell upon his bosom.
mysterious as was reginald de vere’s silence, its causes may be summed up in a few words. to his own generous deed, recorded in the early part of our tale, he owed the preservation of his life. when bleeding and exhausted he was led a prisoner to the carlist camp, he was instantly recognised by the poor woman whose child he had saved, and whom he had sent on to her husband. the tale of his kindness, his generosity, his bravery had been repeated again and again by the happy wife, and created amongst the common soldiery a complete sensation in his favour; so that very many were found eager and willing to aid juan pacheco in his resolution to return the good conferred, and save his wife’s benefactor at the hazard of his own life. he had already been disgusted with his life in the camp; the beauty of his young wife had exposed him and her to insults which, as he had no power to retaliate, urged him to seize the first opportunity to desert. one by one the prisoners had been led to execution, and one by one had fallen. reginald, unable to support himself from wounds and exhaustion, though quite conscious he was placed there to die, was loosely bound to a post, as a better mark to the soldiers who fronted him. they fired—the girthings which bound him gave way, and a dead faint succeeded; but they had fired with harmless weapons, and when reginald awoke from what he fancied death, he found himself in a covered cart, carefully watched and tended by the young mother and her boy, whom he recognised at once; his captain’s uniform placed on the body of a young spaniard who had fallen in battle, and whose features were not unlike those of de vere, no doubt causing edward kenrich’s belief in his being really reginald, and his having been in consequence honourably interred. juan pacheco’s knowledge of the wilds and intricate windings of his native country enabled him ably to elude the pursuit to which, as a deserter, he was liable; but de vere suffered so dreadfully from alternate fever and exhaustion, during the journey, that many times his kind preservers feared their care would be in vain, and death would release him ere earthly rest and shelter were obtained. but at length the goal was gained—a small cottage belonging to a monastery of saint iago, situated in so retired a pass of the pyrenees that none but mountaineers knew of its existence. under the skilful medical aid of one of the fathers reginald slowly regained health; but it was not till nearly a year after his supposed death that he regained the elasticity and entire use of his limbs, such as he had previously enjoyed. the severity of monastic discipline did not characterise the monks of saint iago. they were but few in number; old and respectable men, who had turned from the distracting turmoils of their unhappy country, and sought peace in study and deeds of kindness. in one of these aged men reginald discovered an uncle of his mother—one who had always mourned her departure to another land, and union with a heretic, but who had loved her to the end, and was willing to receive with affection any of her children. the fearful sufferings and deep melancholy of the young englishman had attracted him, even before the picture of his mother, which reginald constantly wore discovered the relationship between them. for nearly two years de vere remained in this solitude; the fear of drawing down ruin and misery on his preservers prevented his writing to his commanding officer, to state his escape—padre felipo alleging the state of the country was such, that his letter might not only be seized and himself retaken, but pacheco exposed to the danger of execution as a deserter and abettor of his escape. after the first year he made many attempts to communicate with his friends in england—annie grey amongst the number—but he never heard in return; therefore concluded, and with justice, that his letters had never reached a post.
but the two years of solitude, instead of being a mental blank, was the hinge of circumstances on which his whole after-career turned. to amuse his confinement and please the children, he resumed the favourite amusement of his boyhood, carving in wood and stone, and with such success as to astonish himself. he found an admirer and instructor where he little expected it, in one of the monks; and under his guidance, and emboldened by encouragement, made such rapid progress, that his whole soul became wrapt in the desire to visit italy, and study there. his pantings for fame were now defined—a flash of light seemed to have irradiated his whole being, and to burst the chains of destiny, which still cramped energy and life. it was the consciousness of genius, the proud conviction that he might indeed win the object of his love; win, and be worthy of her, and give her a name proud as those of the men of genius whose lives they had read and venerated together.
the days when all the fortunes of the monks were devoted to their abbeys or to a patron saint were over, and padre felipo rejoiced at possessing the means effectually to aid his young relative. he settled on him a sum more than sufficient to gratify all his desires, and reginald hesitated no longer to concentrate all his energies on this one pursuit. he went to italy, adopting the name of his benefactor, which was also that of his mother; and the wish not to be known in england, until he had perfected himself in his art, caused him to retain it, even when no danger was attached to the acknowledgment of his existence.
but once in italy, the yearning to hear of his family and friends became intense, while a strange feeling of dread withheld him from again addressing annie. it was two years and a half since they had parted, two since he had been reported dead. what might not have occurred in that interval? he had left her free, and so child-like, so simple in character, that how could he, how dared he indulge the hope that she had so returned his love, as to remain single for his sake? he had never spoken of love to her; his affection was so pure and true, that it had withheld him from linking, by a too impetuous avowal, her fate with one so gloomy as his own. his genius seemed now to promise a fairer destiny, but his heart, still darkened by the fearful creed of fatalism, believed that his very promise would be dashed with gloom, and from the ascendency of this unhappy feeling, failing in courage to address annie herself, he wrote to one of his sisters, beseeching a speedy reply, with information of his father, and all she could learn of miss grey. the reply was many weeks before it came, pleading the usual excuse for unjustifiable silence—stress of occupation and dislike to letter-writing. basil de vere was in america, and miss grey on the eve of marriage with lord st. clair; the whole london world was full of it, on account of the disparity of years between the parties, and because lord st. clair had never seemed a marrying man; but that it was a settled affair there was not the smallest doubt. she wrote as if it could concern reginald but little; but the pang was such as to confirm his fearful creed of an inexorable fate, and plunge him into a despondency, that genius itself seemed unable to remove. at first he worked at his art mechanically, but gradually his mind became aroused, and he tried to forget the heart’s anguish in such persevering labour, that though to mere observers its effects were marvellous in so speedy a perfection, it was, in fact, but the natural consequence of unceasing mental and manucipal work. he constantly reproached himself for the agony he felt; what right had he to suppose he had had any hold upon her? why could he not rejoice in her happy prospects, and write to tell her so? but weeks merged into months ere he could do this, and then he could not address herself, but wrote to lord st. clair, revealing his escape, his concealment, and finally the promised success of his art, with a calm, affectionate message to annie. the letter cost him a bitter struggle, and with feverish restlessness he awaited the reply; but when none came, bitter thoughts possessed him. he believed himself entirely forgotten and uncared for by his friends; and every energy cramped (save for his art) by his spiritless belief, he determined to remain so, and shun alike england and her sons. it was his fate, he inwardly declared, and he must bend to it; and thus, as is ever the case with these dark dreamers, he created for himself the lonely doom he imagined his destiny marked out. the death of his aged relative, in the monastery of st. iago, placed a moderate fortune at his disposal, and enabled him still more successfully and earnestly to pursue his art. for a time the excitement attendant on the creation of his group roused him from himself, but the reaction was plunging him still deeper into the dark abyss of misanthropy and gloom when his discovery, through his own beautiful work, the sudden and almost overwhelming happiness bursting through the darkness of his spirit, in the consciousness that annie was free, that she had ever loved him, completely changed the current of his thoughts, and permitted him a realization of joy, before which the dark creed of destiny fled for ever.
it is in a cheerful sitting-room of a picturesque dwelling on the banks of keswick lake that our readers may once more look on annie grey, ere they bid her farewell—annie grey indeed she was not; but there was little change visible, save that her fair cheek bore the rose, and her beautiful form the roundness of more perfect health, than when we last beheld her. the large french windows opened on a small but beautiful garden, where the taste of england and italy was so combined, as to render its flowers and statues the admiration of every beholder. the opposite window opened on a conservatory of beautiful exotics, and exquisite specimens of painting and sculpture adorned the room itself. an uncovered harp filled one corner, on which the evening sun, shining full from the stained glass of the western window, flung tints as bright and changing as those of the kaleidoscope. a hortus siccus, opened on a group half arranged, was on a table, at which lady emily st. clair was seated, and annie was standing at her side, with a volume of poems in her hand.
“you idle girl! you would have found what i wanted in five minutes a few years ago. what are you thinking about? ah, reginald, you are just in time, or annie’s restlessness would have invaded your sanctum, depend upon it.”
“and had i not cause? a whole hour, nearly two, after your promised time; and your cheek pale, and your brow burning! dearest, do not let your art be dearer than your wife!”
“what! jealous of all my marble figures, love? for shame!” replied her husband, playfully, twining his arm round her, and kissing her cheek; “but i will plead guilty to fatigue to-night, and you shall cure me by my favourite song.”
annie flew to her harp, and de vere, flinging himself on an easy chair, drank in the sounds with an intensity of delight which he never believed that song could have had the power to produce. “yes!” he exclaimed, as her sweet voice ceased, “what are palaces and their pleasures compared to an hour like this? there is, indeed, ‘no place like home;’ what, oh! what would the artist and the student be without it?”
“why, how is this, signor rinaldo? what extraordinary spell has been flung over you, so to change your opinion of a song that once you would not even hear?” laughingly exclaimed lord st. clair, springing from the balcony into the room. “good evening, mrs. de vere; i have some inclination to arrest you for using unlawful witchcraft on this gentleman, even as i once thought of seizing him for allowing you to die of grief for his loss, when he was all the time in life!”
“guilty, guilty; we both plead guilty,” replied reginald, in the same tone; “but my guilt is of far deeper dye; my annie’s witchery has but thrown such a halo over my home, that all which speaks of its charm is as sweet to my ear as to my heart. i am changed, st. clair, and not merely in loving a song i once despised,” he added, with much feeling, “but in being enabled to trace a hand of love, where once i beheld but remorseless fate; and my wife has done this, so gently, so silently, that i guessed not her influence until i found myself joining her own lowly prayers, and believing in the same sustaining faith.”
“and has she explained its mystery?” inquired lady emily, with earnest interest.
“no, dear friend; nor do i need it now. the belief that a god of infinite love and compassion ordains all things, yet leaves us the perfect exercise of our free will, and in that freedom, and the acts thence ensuing, works out his divine decrees, constraining no man, yet bringing our most adverse wills to work out his heavenly rule—this is a belief that must be felt, it cannot be explained, and thrice-blessed are they on whom its unspeakable comfort is bestowed!”