france’s convalescence was very slow. his superb physique had fought death victoriously, as, so far, it had saved him from the consequences of dissipation, but only youth could have given him a swift recovery. it was september before he was able to move to bosquith. after the stifling london summer, julia needed a change as much as he did. the duke, as soon as his heir was able to sit up, had taken a run over to kissengen, but julia had spent the greater part of every day in the sick-room, reading the sporting papers and light novels to her husband, or amusing him as best she could. france would barely let her out of his sight. his shrewd cunning brain recovered its strength while his body was still helpless, and he conceived that now was his opportunity to make this inexperienced child believe in a romantic devotion, and to win her love in return. he permitted her to take a daily walk or drive with one of the nurses, making much of his sacrifice, and was so touchingly happy to see her after these brief separations that julia almost wept, and gave him her hand to hold, while she made the most of every trifle her observing eyes had taken note of during her respite.
he no longer repelled her; not only did his helplessness appeal to her deep womanly instincts, but she was become so accustomed to his touch that she was quite indifferent to it: she bathed his head with cologne several times a day, kissed him obediently when she came and went, and even gave him her shoulder as a pillow when he fretfully declared that his head could rest on nothing else. it was a young and excessively thin shoulder, and, as a matter of fact, france would have preferred feathers, but the profoundly calculating mind, even when the body is weak, disdains trifles.
as soon as he was pronounced well enough to travel, the wary duke returned and accompanied his charges to bosquith. this great estate, some fifteen thousand acres, which included moors and grouse, as well as many farms with turnip fields, was the duke’s favorite property, not only because of the shootings, but because the air of the north sea was the best tonic he knew. it was for this reason that he had chosen bosquith for the last stage of his nephew’s convalescence, rather than one of his country houses nearer to london. but he had hesitated, nevertheless. bosquith adjoined the yorkshire estate of bridgit herbert’s paternal grandfather, and he knew of his new relative’s affection for a young woman of whom he had never approved since he had seen her riding astride over the moors with her brothers, pretending to be an american indian. he had seen her occasionally since her marriage, and, no mean student of physiognomy, had labelled her dangerous, one of those women that set their nonsensical opinions above man’s and call themselves advanced. he had no intention that the intimacy should continue, nor that julia should see aught of nigel herbert, whose devotion she had artlessly revealed. as for ishbel, who visited bridgit every year, he would not have her in the house, as he could not admit her and shut the door in her husband’s face. somebody must take a stand, and the duke, although he might not be able to impose himself on his generation, was not only intensely loyal to his class but alive to its dangers. no snob, julia’s lack of title and fortune did not annoy him in the least. “no one can be more than gentleman or lady,” he was wont to say magnanimously, “and i have known more than one titled bounder of historic descent. but when it comes to the james william joneses, well, thank heaven! at least they don’t belong to us, and we are not bound to countenance them for the sake of their fathers; we cannot drag them up, and they will end by pulling us down; in other words they will vulgarize the british aristocracy until the masses lose their pride in us; and then where will we be? democracy, socialism, threaten us as it is. our middle and lower classes at home, and our too independent colonies afar, must be made to retain their loyalty, at all costs.”
julia thought these sentiments sound, but made up her mind privately that she would never drop ishbel or bridgit, although she had been given to understand that the duke deeply regretted the proximity of bosquith to the happy hunting grounds of mrs. herbert, and would not permit her to visit them. her rapidly awakening intellect was seeking for partnership in her still fluid character, and although books could not develop the last, inheritances from a line of men, and at least one woman, who had always thought and acted for themselves, however mistakenly, were stirring. she had been too managed and surrounded to find herself as yet, but she had begun to suspect that the ego has a life of its own and certain inalienable rights.
the journey north sent france to bed again for three days, and for a fortnight he was wheeled about the park; then he began to hobble feebly, first on the arm of his nurse or wife, then with the aid of a stick. julia accepted him as one of the facts of existence, regarded him proprietorally, took an immense interest in his progress toward recovery, and forgot him when she could in the library or in long walks over the moors. the castle was romantically situated on a cliff overhanging the north sea, and in appearance, as in surroundings, was all that julia could ask. it was very brown, two-thirds of it was in ruins, and the other third included a feudal hall, two towers, and walls four feet thick. the windows, however, had been enlarged, hot-water pipes had been put in, and no modern house was more sanitary. the duke, despite a pardonable pride in his ancestry, and an unmitigated conservatism in politics, was strictly up to date where his health and comfort were concerned. born an invalid, he had lived longer than many of his burly ancestors, owing to a thin temperament and an early and avid interest in hygiene.
he had a second reason for bringing harold to bosquith. the neighboring borough was much under his influence, and he proposed that his relative should stand for it at the next general election. at the last it had succumbed to the personal manipulation of gladstone, who had taken a lively pleasure in routing the duke; but it was conservative by habit, and not a measure of either gladstone’s government or that of his successor had met with its approval. it was in just the frame of mind to be nursed by a genial and tactful duke. france fell in with these plans, and, when able to meet the local leaders, laid aside his almost unbearable haughtiness of manner, and assumed a bluff sailorlike heartiness which impressed them deeply.
julia quickly revived in the bracing air of sea and moor, and as france rose late and retired early, besides sleeping a good deal during the day, and as she had acquired a certain skill in dodging the duke,—who, moreover, took his local duties very seriously,—she felt happy and free once more. the library was well furnished, the moors were purple, her bedroom was in an ancient tower, and the sea boomed under her window. she wrote long letters to her grimly triumphant mother, and, now and again, to bridgit and ishbel. the former, accompanied by her husband and nigel, rode over to see her, but she was obliged to receive them in the chilling presence of her husband and the duke, and when the brief visit came to an end, was put on her honor not to leave the estate.
“as soon as harold is quite recovered,” said the duke, “we will both drive over with you, for i am far from counselling you to be rude to any one. only, while your husband is ill, it would be highly indecorous for you to be associating with young people; and for the matter of that, the more mature minds with which you associate during the next few years, the better—for us all, my dear, for us all.”
but julia, at this period, was quite independent of people. her newly awakened intellect was clamoring for books and more books. politics, the planets, the “brilliant future,” friends, were alike forgotten. nothing mattered but the lore that scholars and worldlings had gathered, that ravening maw in her mind. perhaps this early ingenuous stage of the mind’s development is its happiest; it is uncritical, having no standards of life and personal research for comparison, it swamps the real ego, while mightily tickling the false, it obliterates mere life, no matter how unsatisfactory, and above all it is saturated with the essence of novelty, the subtlest spring of all passion. julia, barely educated, found in histories, biographies, memoirs, travels, even in works of science beyond her full comprehension, a wonderland of which she had never dreamed, much as she had longed for books on nevis. that had been merely a case of inherited brain cells calling for furniture; embarked upon her adventure, these cells were crammed so rapidly that her ancestors slept in peace, and julia felt herself an isolated and completely happy intellect.
nevertheless, she was young.
one night, shortly after her husband, now able to grace the evening board, had gone to his room, and the duke was closeted with the conservative agent, she went to her own room, opened the window, and hung out over the sea. the moon, whose malicious alertness captain dundas had deplored, was at the full and flooded a scene as beautiful in its way as the tropics. the great expanse of water was almost still, and a broad path of silver seemed firm enough to walk on straight away to the continent of europe and its untasted delights. just round the corner was the rose garden, which covered the filled-in moat on the south side of the castle and several hundred yards beyond. the roses were not very good ones, being somewhat rusted by the salt-sea spray, but, like the pleasaunce on another side of the castle, were a part of the more modern traditions of bosquith; and the duke, although entirely indifferent to nature when she ceased to be useful and amused herself with being merely beautiful, was a stickler for tradition; the roses were never neglected without, although never brought within; pollen inflamed his mucous membranes.
the blossoms had gone with the summer, but julia was fancying herself inhaling their perfumes when she became aware that the figure of a man had detached itself from the tangle. she watched him idly, supposing him to be one of the grooms, and wondering if his sweetheart would follow. but the man was alone, and in a moment he bent down, picked up a handful of loose stones, and leaned back as if to fling them upward from the narrow ledge. simultaneously julia and nigel herbert recognized each other.
“what—what—do you want?” gasped julia, in a loud whisper.
“you,” said nigel, grimly. “come down here.”
“impossible!” thrilling wildly, however.
“if you don’t, i’ll break in. i’ve prowled round here for three nights, and know the place by heart. the leads?—”
“for heaven’s sake, go away!”
“will you come down? i’m spraining the back of my neck, and may slip off this narrow shelf any minute. do you want to see my mangled remains at the foot of the cliff?”
“no. no. but?—”
“come down. i must have a talk with you—have this thing out or go mad. it’s little to ask!”
julia glanced behind her at the circular room hung with arras (to keep out draughts and conceal the hot-water pipes), and furnished with a big gothic bed and hard upright chairs—and thrilled again. she was not the least in love with nigel, but she suddenly realized that she was nearly nineteen and romance had never entered her life. after all, was love a necessary factor? might not the romantic adventure be something to remember always, particularly when assisting a most unromantic husband achieve a political career, and entertaining some of the dullest men in london? she hesitated but an instant, then leaned out again.
“i’ll try,” she whispered.
“if you fail, i’ll come to-morrow night.”
“very well, go into the rose garden—under the oak.”
she put on a dark cape and opened her door cautiously. the long corridor was lighted by a small lamp: gas and electricity, not being hygienic essentials, were not among the bosquith improvements. all the bedrooms opened upon this corridor, but julia knew that her husband slept, his capacity for instant and prolonged slumber being one of his assets. she crept past the duke’s door. he was an early bird, but was in the library still, no doubt, and the library was far away. he would be sure to mount by the small stair beside it; the grand staircase led to the unused drawing-rooms, and into the immense hall, which, at this season with no guests in the castle, and a library answering every requirement of the family, was economically inexpedient. when a hereditary duke has several entailed estates to keep up besides a town house, and a paltry income of forty thousand pounds a year, he is put to shifts of which the envious world knows nothing.
down the grand staircase, therefore, stole julia. it creaked even under her small feet; behind the wainscot she heard gnawing sounds of hideous import; and the darkness below was unrelieved by a single silver gleam. but julia possessed a valiant soul; moreover, was determined to have her adventure. she felt her way past the massive pieces of furniture toward a small door in the tower room beneath her own; she dared not attempt to unchain and open the great front doors studded with nails. she had used this humble means of exit before, and although the room was full of rubbish, she found the big rusty key without difficulty, opened the door, then with another fearful glance about her stole toward the middle of the rose garden. the old bushes were very high and ragged, but had it not been for an oak tree in their midst, concealment for a man nearly six feet high would have been impossible. julia made her way straight toward the tree, and uttered a loud “shhh—” when nigel impetuously left its shelter.
“and even this is not safe,” she whispered, as they met. “we are too near the castle, and the duke always takes a little walk before he goes to bed. follow me and don’t speak or make any noise.”
she led the way out of the rose garden and across the park to a grove of ancient oaks. a brook wandered among the trees. the moonlight poured in. the dark frowning mass of the castle was plain to be seen. the sea murmured. a nightingale sang. no spot on earth could have been more romantic. julia shivered with delight, and thanked the winking stars.
but nigel was insensible to the romance of his surroundings. unlike the woman, he wanted the main factor; the setting could take care of itself. and he was in a distracted and desperate frame of mind. as julia turned to him she experienced her first misgiving; his face was set and very white.
“this is where i often read and dream,” she said conversationally. “it is my favorite spot.”
“is it? it’s awfully good of you to come out. i can’t tell you how much i appreciate it. i might have written, i suppose; but i can only write fiction. couldn’t put down a word of what i wanted to say to you—of what i felt—” he broke off and added passionately, “julia! don’t you care for me—the least bit?”
“no.” julia, not having the faintest idea how to handle such a situation, took refuge in the bare truth, at all times more natural to her than to most women. “i don’t love you, but i think it rather nice to meet you like this for once.”
nigel groaned. like all born artists, he understood something of women by instinct, and felt more hopeless in the face of this uncompromising honesty and artlessness than when alone with his imagination.
“but you don’t love your husband?”
“oh, no. not the way you mean, at least. i’ve read a lot about love these last months, and it must be wonderful. i’ve grown quite fond of poor harold, but i never could love him in that way. i wish i could,” she added, with a sudden sense of loyalty to the absent and sleeping husband.
“julia, you must try to understand! you never can even tolerate that man. you mustn’t live with him. we were plotting to save you from him when he fell ill, and then we ho—we thought he’d die. but he’s, he’s—oh, please don’t look at me as if i were a cad. i know you are a brick, and i’ve held out until he was on his legs again—and i nearly off my head. i won’t say a word against him. let it go at this—you never can love him. that i can swear to and you know it. but you could love some one, and it must, it must be me! it shall be! julia, if you could only guess what love means, then you might have some idea, at least, of how i love you. but even your instincts don’t seem to have awakened. and i haven’t the chance to teach you! you must give it to me! you must!”
“do you want me to elope with you?” asked julia, curiously. this was a highly interesting development, and after the manner of her sex, when indifferent, she grew cooler and more analytical as her lover’s flame mounted.
“no—no—not yet. i only wanted a chance to-night to tell you how i love you—to make you understand that much, if possible. oh, god! it must be communicable! when you are alone and think it over—i hope—i hope—meanwhile, i want you to promise to make opportunities to meet me. i can’t go to the castle. but you can meet me. on the moor. here at night. i have waited long enough. france no longer needs you. he is nearly well, and will get everything he wants?—”
“he wants me more than anything else,” said julia, shrewdly. “he’s as much in love with me as you are?—”
“he shan’t have you!” shouted nigel, and julia stared, fascinated, at a face convulsed with passion. it was the first time she had seen this tremendous force unleashed, for france had done his courting under the eagle eye of his future mother-in-law, and nigel, during their acquaintance in london, had not progressed outwardly beyond sentiment. julia, even while deciding that sentiment became his fresh frank face better, and shrinking distastefully from a passion so close to her, was conscious of disappointment in her own unresponsiveness. nineteen! what an ideal age for love! and what lover could fill all requirements more satisfactorily than nigel? but she felt as cold as the moon. to her deep mortification she was obliged to stifle a yawn; it was long past her bedtime. she answered with such haste that her voice had an encouraging quiver in it.
“oh, don’t let’s talk about him. it’s so jolly to see you again. tell me about your book. have you finished it?”
“i didn’t come here to talk about my book.” nigel’s voice was rough. he came so close to her that she shrank once more, and turned away her eyes. “oh, i’m not going to touch you. i couldn’t unless you wanted me to, unless you loved me— that is what i want: the chance to make you love me. will you give it to me?”
“i—i don’t see how it is possible.” she longed to run, but her female instincts were budding under this tropical storm, and one prompted that if she ran, terrible things might happen. the most honest of women is dishonest in moments of danger pertaining to her sex. julia felt danger in the air. she also rejected nigel’s protestations. she buckled on her feminine armor and turned to him sweetly.
“i must think it over,” she said. “i never even dreamed that you were in love with me. i should never dare come out again at night. but perhaps on the moor, some morning?—”
“i should prefer that. one of the keepers or servants might see us in the park, and i don’t wish our love to be vulgarized?—”
“oh! i hadn’t thought of that! how horrid! i’ll go back this minute. you stay here until i’ve had time to get inside. i’ll write to-morrow. if you follow me, i shall never believe that you love me?—”
even while she spoke she was flitting through the grove with every appearance of an alarm she did not feel at all. nigel ran after her.
“i’ll not follow if you will swear to meet me to-morrow morning—on the cliffs three miles north from here.”
“yes. yes. i swear it.” and she fled into the broad moonlight beyond the trees, while nigel flung himself on the turf and gnashed his teeth.
julia, when she reached the upper corridor, almost ran into the duke, but he was near-sighted, used to mice, and she cowered behind an armored knight unsuspected. when she finally closed her own door behind her, she found that all inclination to sleep had fled and that she was more excited than while the immediate centre of a love storm. she sat by the window for hours, thinking hard, and feeling several years older. quite honest once more, now that she was safe behind a locked door, she examined her new problem on every side. it was quite possible, she confessed, that if she had loved nigel, even a bit, she might have consented to his program, for youth has its rights; she had not been consulted in her marriage, she was more or less a prisoner, with no prospect of even youthful companionship, and the idea of being a duchess did not interest her at all. of the meaning of sin she had but the vaguest idea.
but of loyalty and honor she had a very distinct idea. instinct and reason told her that she never would love nigel; otherwise, with every provocation, she must have loved him long since. therefore would it be unfair to play with him. she would far rather be married to him than to france, for he was young and clever and charming, but even were she free now, she would not marry him. therefore was it her duty to dismiss and cure him as quickly as possible, not ruin his youth by keeping him dangling, after what she knew to be the habit of many women. also, for the first time, she felt really drawn to her husband, so unconscious of her naughty adventure. after all, she was his, he adored her, and he deserved every reparation in her power. who could tell?—she might love him. love appeared to be in the nature of a mighty river at spring flood; no doubt it ingulfed everything in its way. she had leaped to one side to-night, but her husband—yes, it was conceivable that she might stand still and await the flood without making faces.
she felt extremely satisfied and virtuous as she lit her candle and wrote a kind but uncompromising letter to nigel, taking back her promise to meet him on the morrow, and warning him that if he wrote to her she should give his letters to her husband. it was not in her to do anything of the sort, but she had the gift of a fine straightforward forcible style, and her letter so enraged nigel that he left england as quickly as steam could take him, cursing her and all women.
so ended their first chapter.