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Henrietta Temple : A Love Story

Part 4 Chapter 15
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which leaves affairs in general in a scarcely more satisfactory position than the former one.

ferdinand felt much calmer in his mind after this conversation with his cousin. her affectionate attention to him now, instead of filling him as it did before with remorse, was really a source of consolation, if that be not too strong a phrase to describe the state of one so thoroughly wretched as captain armine; for his terrible illness and impending death had not in the slightest degree allayed or affected his profound passion for henrietta temple. her image unceasingly engaged his thoughts; he still clung to the wild idea that she might yet be his. but his health improved so slowly, that there was faint hope of his speedily taking any steps to induce such a result. all his enquiries after her, and glastonbury, at his suggestion, had not been idle, were quite fruitless. he made no doubt that she had quitted england. what might not happen, far away from him, and believing herself betrayed and deserted? often when he brooded over these terrible contingencies, he regretted his recovery.

yet his family, thanks to the considerate conduct of his admirable cousin, were still contented and happy. his slow convalescence was now their only source of anxiety. they regretted the unfavourable season of the year; they looked forward with hope to the genial influence of the coming spring. that was to cure all their cares; and yet they might well suspect, when they watched his ever pensive, and often suffering countenance, that there were deeper causes than physical debility and bodily pain to account for that moody and woe-begone expression. alas! how changed from that ferdinand armine, so full of hope, and courage, and youth, and beauty, that had burst on their enraptured vision on his return from malta. where was that gaiety now that made all eyes sparkle, that vivacious spirit that kindled energy in every bosom? how miserable to see him crawling about with a wretched stick, with his thin, pale face, and tottering limbs, and scarcely any other pursuit than to creep about the pleasaunce, where, when the day was fair, his servant would place a camp-stool opposite the cedar tree where he had first beheld henrietta temple; and there he would sit, until the unkind winter breeze would make him shiver, gazing on vacancy; yet peopled to his mind’s eye with beautiful and fearful apparitions.

and it is love, it is the most delightful of human passions, that can bring about such misery! why will its true course never run smooth? is there a spell over our heart, that its finest emotions should lead only to despair? when ferdinand armine, in his reveries, dwelt upon the past; when he recalled the hour that he had first seen her, her first glance, the first sound of her voice, his visit to ducie, all the passionate scenes to which it led, those sweet wanderings through its enchanted bowers, those bright mornings, so full of expectation that was never baulked, those soft eyes, so redolent of tenderness that could never cease; when from the bright, and glowing, and gentle scenes his memory conjured up, and all the transport and the thrill that surrounded them like an atmosphere of love, he turned to his shattered and broken-hearted self, the rigid heaven above, and what seemed to his perhaps unwise and ungrateful spirit, the mechanical sympathy and common-place affection of his companions, it was as if he had wakened from some too vivid and too glorious dream, or as if he had fallen from some brighter and more favoured planet upon our cold, dull earth.

and yet it would seem the roof of armine place protected a family that might yield to few in the beauty and engaging qualities of its inmates, their happy accomplishments, their kind and cordial hearts. and all were devoted to him. it was on him alone the noble spirit of his father dwelt still with pride and joy: it was to soothe and gratify him that his charming mother exerted all her graceful care and all her engaging gifts. it was for him, and his sake, the generous heart of his cousin had submitted to mortification without a murmur, or indulged her unhappiness only in solitude; and it was for him that glastonbury exercised a devotion that might alone induce a man to think with complacency both of his species and himself. but the heart, the heart, the jealous and despotic heart! it rejects all substitutes, it spurns all compromise, and it will have its purpose or it will break.

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