it was a splendid spring morning. there had been a shower overnight, and the whole mountain world was aglitter. the dancing, rustling leaves of the cottonwoods gleamed, the sparse grass of the parade ground was shining like tiny bayonets, the flag threw out its bright stripes to the breeze, and when the sun rays struck the visor of some forage cap, they glinted off as though it had been a mirror. all the post chickens were cackling and singing their droning monotonous song of contentment, the tiny ones cheeped and twittered, and in among the vines of the porch felipa's mocking-bird whistled exultantly.

the sound shrilled sweetly through the house, through all the empty rooms, and through the thick silence of that one which was not empty, but where a flag was spread over a rough box of boards, and ellton sat by the window with a little black prayer-book in his hand. he was going over the service for the burial of the dead, because there was no chaplain, and it fell to him to read it. now and then one of the officers came in alone or with his wife and stood about aimlessly, then went away again. but for the rest, the house was quite forsaken.

felipa was not there. at the earliest, she could not return for a couple of days, and by then landor's body[pg 283] would be laid in the dreary little graveyard, with its wooden headboards and crosses, and its neglected graves among the coyote and snake holes. the life of the service would be going on just as usual, after the little passing excitement was at an end. for it was an excitement. no one in the garrison would have had it end like this, but since what will be will be, and the right theory of life is to make the most of what offers and to hasten—as the philosopher has said—to laugh at all things for fear we may have cause to weep, there was a certain expectation, decently kept down, in the air.

it rose to a subdued pitch as there came the gradual rattling of wheels and the slow tramp of many feet. a buckboard, from which the seats had been removed, came up the line, and behind it marched the troops and companies, landor's own troop in advance. they halted in front of his quarters, and four officers came down the steps with the long box between them. the mocking-bird's trill died away to a questioning twitter.

the box was laid in the buckboard, and covered with the flag once more. then the mules started, with a rattle of traces and of the wheels, and the tramp of feet began again. the drums thrummed regularly and slowly, the heart beats of the service, and the fifes took up the dead march in a weird, shrill banshee wail. they went down the line, the commandant with the surgeon and the officers first, and after them the buckboard, with its bright-draped burden. then landor's horse, covered with black cloths, the empty[pg 284] saddle upon its back. it nosed at the pockets of the man who led it. it had been taught to find sugar in pockets. and then the troops, the cavalry with the yellow plumes of their helmets drooping, and the infantry with the spikes glinting, marching with eyes cast down and muskets reversed. a gap, then the soldiers' urchins from the laundress row, in for anything that might be doing.

the roll of the drums and the whistle of the fifes died away in the distance. there was a long silence, followed by three volleys of musketry, the salute over the open grave. and then taps was pealed in notes of brass up to the blue sky, a long farewell, a challenge aforetime to the trumpet of the last day. they turned and came marching back. the drums and fifes played "yankee doodle" in sarcastic relief. the men walked briskly with their guns at carry arms, the black-draped horse curved its neck and pranced until the empty stirrups danced. the incident was over—closed. the post picked up its life and went on. two afternoons later the ambulance which had been sent for felipa came into the post. she stepped out from it in front of the elltons' quarters so majestic and awe-inspiring in her black garments that mrs. ellton was fairly subdued. she felt real grief. it showed in her white face and the nervous quiver of her lips. "i am going out to the graveyard," she told mrs. ellton almost at once. mrs. ellton prepared to accompany her, but she insisted that she was going alone, and did so, to the universal consternation.

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in the late afternoon the lonely dark figure crossed the open and dropped down on the new grave, not in an agony of tears, but as if there was some comfort to be gotten out of contact with the mere soil. the old feeling of loneliness, which had always tinged her character with a covert defiance, was overwhelming her. she belonged to no one now. she had no people. she was an outcast from two races, feared of each because of the other's blood. the most forsaken man or woman may claim at least the kinship of his kind, but she had no kind. she crouched on the mound and looked at the sunset as she had looked that evening years before, but her eyes were not fearless now. as a trapped animal of the plains might watch a prairie fire licking nearer and nearer, making its slow way up to him in spurts of flame and in dull, thick clouds of smoke that must stifle him before long, so she watched the dreary future rolling in about her. but gradually the look changed to one farther away, and alight with hope. she had realized that there was, after all, some one to whom she belonged, some one to whom she could go and, for the first time in her life, be loved and allowed to love.

it had not occurred to her for some hours after mrs. campbell had told her of landor's death that she was free now to give herself to cairness. she had gasped, indeed, when she did remember it, and had put the thought away, angrily and self-reproachfully. but it returned now, and she felt that she might cling to it. she had been grateful, and she had been faithful, too.[pg 286] she remembered only that landor had been kind to her, and forgot that for the last two years she had borne with much harsh coldness, and with a sort of contempt which she felt in her unanalyzing mind to have been entirely unmerited. gradually she raised herself until she sat quite erect by the side of the mound, the old exultation of her half-wild girlhood shining in her face as she planned the future, which only a few minutes before had seemed so hopeless.

and when the retreat gun boomed in the distance, she stood up, shaking the earth and grasses from her gown, and started to carry out her plans. a storm was blowing up again. clouds were massing in the sky, and night was rising rather than the sun setting. there was a cold, greenish light above the snow peak, and darkness crept up from the earth and down from the gray clouds that banked upon the northern horizon and spread fast across the heavens. a bleak, whining wind rustled the leaves of the big trees down by the creek, and caught up the dust of the roadway in little eddies and whirls, as felipa, with a new purpose in her step, swung along it back to the post.

she would not be induced to go near her own house that night. when ellton suggested it, she turned white and horrified. it had not occurred to him before that a woman so fearless of everything in the known world might be in abject terror of the unknown.

"it's her nature," he told his wife. "underneath she is an apache, and they burn the wigwams and all the traps of their dead; sometimes even the whole [pg 287]village he lived in." mrs. ellton said that poor captain landor had had a good deal to endure.

the two children whom felipa had taken in charge two years before had been left in the care of the sergeant of landor's troop and his wife, and they manifested no particular pleasure at seeing her again. they were half afraid of her, so severely black and tall and quiet. they had been playing with the soldier's children, and were anxious to be away again. the young of the human race are short of memory, and their gratefulness does not endure for long. there is no caress so sweet, so hard to win, as the touch of a child's soft hand, and none that has behind it less of nearly all that we prize in affection. it is sincere while it lasts, and no longer, and it must be bought either with a price or with a wealth of love. you may lavish the best that is within you to obtain a kiss from baby lips, and if they rest warm and moist upon your cheek for a moment, the next they are more eager for a sweetmeat than for all your adoration.

"yes," whispered the little girl, squirming in felipa's arms, "i am dlad you's come. let me doe."

"kiss me," said felipa.

the child brushed at her cheek and struggled away. "come, billy," she called to the brother who had saved her life; and that small, freckle-faced hero, whose nose was badly skinned from a fall, flung his arms around his benefactress's neck perfunctorily and escaped, rejoicing.

the elltons' pretty child was like its mother, [pg 288]gentler and more caressing. it lay placidly in her arms and patted her lips when she tried to talk, with the tips of its rosy fingers. she caught them between her teeth and mumbled them, and the child chuckled gleefully. but by and by it was taken away to bed, and then felipa was alone with its father and mother. through the tiresome evening she felt oppressed and angrily nervous. the elltons had always affected her so.

she asked for the full particulars of her husband's death, and when ellton had told her, sat looking straight before her at the wall. "it was very like jack," she said finally, in a low voice, "his whole life was like that." and then she turned squarely to the lieutenant. "where is mr. cairness? where did they take him?" she was surprised at herself that she had not thought of that before.

he told her that he had gone on to arizona, to tombstone, he believed. "by the way," he added, "did you hear that brewster has married a rich jewish widow down in tucson?"

"yes, i heard it," she said indifferently. "was mr. cairness really much hurt?"

"very much," said ellton; "it was a sharp cut on the forehead—went through the bone, and he was unconscious, off and on, for two or three days. he seemed to take it hard. he went off yesterday, and he wasn't fit to travel either, but he would do it for some reason. i think he was worse cut up about landor than anything, though he wasn't able to go to the funeral. i like[pg 289] cairness. he's an all-round decent fellow; but after all, his life was bought too dear."

felipa did not answer.

he did not try to discuss her plans for the future with her that night; but two days afterward, when she had disposed of all her household goods and had packed the few things that remained, they sat upon two boxes in the bare hallway, resting; and he broached it.

"i am going to ask the quartermaster to store my things for the present, and of course the first sergeant's wife will look out for the children," she said.

but that was not exactly what he wanted to know, and he insisted. "but what is going to become of you? are you going back to the campbells?" he had asked her to stay with his wife and himself as long as she would, but she had refused.

"no," she said, "i told the campbells i would not go to them."

and he could get nothing definite from her beyond that. it annoyed him, of course; felipa had a gift for repulsing kindness and friendship. it was because she would not lie and could not evade. therefore, she preserved a silence that was, to say the least of it, exasperating to the well-intentioned.

early in the morning of the day she was to leave she went to the graveyard alone again. she was beginning to realize more than she had at first that landor was quite gone. she missed him, in a way. he had been a strong influence in her life, and there was a lack of the pressure now. but despite the form of religion to[pg 290] which she clung, she had no hope of meeting him in any future life, and no real wish to do so.

she stood by the mound for a little while thinking of him, of how well he had lived and died, true to his standard of duty, absolutely true, but lacking after all that spirit of love without which our actions profit so little and die with our death. she had a clearer realization of it than ever before. it came to her that charles cairness's life, wandering, aimless, disjointed as it was, and her own, though it fell far below even her own not impossibly high ideals, were to more purpose, had in them more of the vital force of creation, were less wasted, than his had been. to have known no enthusiasms—which are but love, in one form or another—is to have failed to give that impulse to the course of events which every man born into the world should hold himself bound to give, as the human debt to the eternal.

felipa felt something of this, and it lessened the vague burden of self-reproach she had been carrying. she was almost cheerful when she got back to the post. through the last breakfast, which the elltons took for granted must be a sad one, and conscientiously did their best to make so, she had some difficulty in keeping down to their depression.

it was not until they all, from the commandant down to the recruits of landor's troop, came to say good-by that she felt the straining and cutting of the strong tie of the service, which never quite breaks though it be stretched over rough and long years and almost [pg 291]forgotten. the post blacksmith to whom she had been kind during an illness, the forlorn sickly little laundress whose baby she had eased in dying, the baker to whose motherless child she had been good—all came crowding up the steps. they were sincerely sorry to have her go. she had been generous and possessed of that charity which is more than faith or hope. it was the good-bys of landor's men that were the hardest for her. he had been proud of his troop, and it had been devoted to him. she broke down utterly and cried when it came to them, and tears were as hard for her as for a man. but with the officers and their women, it rose up between her and them that they would so shortly despise and condemn her, that they would not touch her hands could they but know her thoughts.

ellton was going with her to the railroad. they were to travel with a mounted escort, as she had come, on account of the uncertain state of the country. and they must cross, as she had done in coming also, the road over the malpais, where landor had fallen. as the hoofs of the mules and the tires of the wheels began to slip and screech on the smooth-worn lava, and the ambulance rattled and creaked up the incline, ellton leaned forward and pointed silently to a hollow in the gray rock a few yards away. it was where landor had pitched forward over the body of the mounted chief of scouts. felipa nodded gravely, but she did not speak, nor yet weep. ellton, already thrown back upon himself by her persistent silence with regard to her [pg 292]intentions, recoiled even more. he thought her hard beyond all his previous experience of women.

"i will write to you where you are to send my mail," she told him, when the train was about to pull out. he bowed stiffly, and raising his hat was gone. she looked after him as he went across the cinder bed to the ambulance which was to take him back, and wondered what would have been the look upon his nice, open face, if she had told him her plans, after all. but she was the only one who knew them.

and cairness himself was startled and utterly unprepared when the reverend taylor opened the door of the room where he lay and let her pass in. the little parson uttered no word, but there was a look on his face which said that now the questions he had put with no result were answered. it was for this that cairness had given the best of his life.

cairness lay white and still, looking up at her. he was very weak and dazed, and for the instant he could only remember, absurdly enough, the andromaque he had seen a french actress play once in his very early youth when he had been taken with all the children of the lycée, where he was then at school, to the theatre on a thursday afternoon. the andromaque had been tall and dark and superb, and all in black, like that woman in the doorway there.

and then his thoughts shot back to the present with quick pain. she should not have come here, not so soon. he had taken a long, hard trip that had nearly ended in his death, to avoid this very thing, this [pg 293]meeting, which, just because it made him so terribly happy, seemed a treachery, a sacrilege. had she less delicacy of feeling than himself? or had she more love? it was that, he saw it in her beautiful eyes which were growing wide and frightened at his silence. he took his hand from under the sheets and stretched it out to her. she went to him and dropped on her knees beside the bed, and threw her arms about him. he moved his weak head closer to her shoulder, and pressing her fingers to his face gave a choking sob. he was happy, so very happy. and nothing mattered but just this.