in the meantime athlyne, living either in his castle of ceann-da-shail—which he had long looked on as his home—as a centre, was flying about in his new motor, learning each day fresh mysteries of driving. the speeds of the motor are so much above those of other vehicles that a driver, howsoever experienced he may be in other ways, seems here to be dealing with a new force. the perspective changes so fast as the machine eats up the space that the mind requires to be practised afresh in judging distances and curves. it had been a bitter regret to him that he had to keep out of london just when joy had come to it. his mind was always running on what a delight it would be to be with her when all the interesting things came before her; to note the sudden flushes of delight, to see the quick lifting of the beautiful eyes, to look into their mysterious, bewildering depths. at first when such ideas took him whilst driving, he nearly ran into danger. unconsciously his hands would turn the wheel for speed, and in his eagerness he would make such swerves and jumps that undesirable things almost happened. however, after a few such experiences his nerves learned their own business. it is part of the equipment of a chauffeur to be able to abstract and control his driving senses from all other considerations; and such dual action of the mind requires habit and experience for its realisation. the constant watchfulness and anxiety had at least this beneficent use: that for a part of the day at all events his mind was kept from brooding over his personal trouble.

the arrival of colonel ogilvie’s letter, sent on to him from london, made in a way a new trouble for him; for whilst he was delighted to get so friendly an overture it was he saw but another difficulty ahead of him. he must either reply in his false name, which was now hateful to him; or he must leave the letter, for the present, unanswered. this latter alternative would be dangerous with a man so sensitive and so punctilious; but, all told, it was the lesser evil. he had had opportunity to make up his mind on the subject before the letter came, for aunt judy had said in her last letter that colonel ogilvie had spoken about writing to him before they should arrive in london. still it was a sore trial to him to be so discourteous, with the added chagrin that it might—probably would—stand in his way with the one man in the world whom he wished to propitiate.

as he did not know anything about the history of colonel ogilvie’s family he went to the peerage books and made lists of the bearers of that name in its different spellings; and then as he decided to go to many of the places named, he made runs into perthshire and forfar. he came to the conclusion that he must have misunderstood colonel ogilvie in alluding to the “border counties.” he laid up, however, a good deal of local information which might be pleasing to his prospective father-in-law.

one morning he had a letter which quite fluttered him. it was from aunt judy telling him that colonel ogilvie had announced his intention of starting on the then coming thursday for the north, and that he had given as the direction of his letters till further notice the “inn of greeting,” ambleside. the unqualified pleasure which he received from this news was neutralised by the postscript:

“by the way—this of course in your private ear, now and hereafter—colonel ogilvie is vastly disappointed that you have not been to see him in london, and that you have not even replied to his letter. surely there must be some mistake about this. i sincerely hope so, for he looks on any breach of courtesy, or any defect in it, as an unpardonable sin. i know from the fact of his mentioning it to his womenkind that he has taken it to heart. do, do my dear friend, who have done so much for us and whose friendship we wish to hold, repair this without delay. he is an old man and may possibly expect more from a younger man than from one of his own standing. i am sure that if there has been any omission there is on your part a good reason for it. but do not lose any time. if you wish to please us all—and i am sure you do—you would do well to go up to ambleside—if you have not seen him already—and call on him there. and do like a dear man drop me a line at once to say you have received this and telling me what you intend to do.”

he sat for a while quite still, putting his thoughts in order. it was now monday so that colonel ogilvie would have been already some days at ambleside. he took it for granted that joy was with him, but he could not help a qualm of doubt about even that. aunt judy had not mentioned her in the matter. the only possible allusion was in the underlining of the word “all.” otherwise the letter was too direct and too serious for any cryptic meaning.

he came to the conclusion that his best plan would be to go at once to some place on windermere, and from there go quietly to ambleside and find out for himself how things lay. the best place for him to stay at would, for his purposes, be bowness. there he would leave his car with the chauffeur and drive in a carriage to ambleside. when there he would contrive to meet if possible joy alone. he would surely be able to form from her attitude some opinion of her disposition towards him. if he were satisfied as to this he would at once go to her father, tell him the whole story, and place himself in his hands.

but then he thought that if he were so near, his name might become known to colonel ogilvie; that infernal alias seemed to be always standing in his way! he was so obsessed by the subject that at times he quite overlooked the fact that neither the colonel nor any of his family knew anything whatever of the matter. it took him an hour’s hard thought before this idea presented itself to him. it took a weight off his mind. if by any chance colonel ogilvie should hear that an individual called lord athlyne was in the neighbourhood it would mean nothing to him. nothing except the proximity of one more of that “bloated aristocracy,” which one class of americans run down—and another run after.

he was then up in ross. as he did not wish to “rush” matters he decided to start next day. when that time came he had fully made up his plan of action. as the ogilvies were at ambleside he would go to bowness. as there was a service of public coaches he could go between the places mentioned—without even the isolation of a carriage for his sole use. he would go quietly to the inn of greeting and learn what he could about their movements. the rest must depend on circumstances. but there must be no hurry; the matter was too serious now and the issue too important to take any risk. but when he should have seen joy and knew, or believed, or understood … then he would lose not a moment in seeing her father. but he might not get a chance of seeing him alone and under circumstances favourable to his purpose. he must be ready. all at once an idea struck him …

all these weeks athlyne had now and again had a vague feeling of uneasiness which he could not understand: a sort of feeling that he would some time wake and wonder what he had been fretting and fuming about. why could he not have written to colonel ogilvie at any time? even before he had left new york, or whilst he had been on board ship, or whilst the american family had been in italy, or even when the colonel had been in london? why not now? after all, there was nothing in any way wrong; nothing to be ashamed of. he was of good social position; at least as good as joy’s father was. he was himself rich and wanted no fortune with his wife. he had won certain honours—a man to whose name had been suffixed v.c. and d.s.o. must be considered personally adequate for ordinary purposes. and so on. vanity and self-interest, in addition to the working of the higher qualities, supplied many good reasons.

and yet! … he was always being brought up against one of two things: colonel ogilvie’s peculiar views and character, or his own position towards him with regard to the alias. he could always find in either of these something which might cause pain or trouble to joy. moreover there was another matter which was a powerful factor in his conclusions, although it was one which he did not analyse or even realise. it was one that worked unconsciously; a disposition rather than an activity; a tendency rather than a thought. lord athlyne was scotch and irish; a celt of celts on his mother’s side. he had all that underlying desire of the unknown which creates sentiment, and which is so pronounced a part of the celtic character. this it is whence comes that clinging to the place of birth which has made the peasantry of the green isle for seven hundred years fight all opposing forces, from hunger to bayonets, to hold possession of their own. this it is which animated a race, century after century, to suffer and endure from their conquerors of a more prosaic race all sorts of pain and want, and for reasons not understandable by others. those who have lived amongst those celts of the outlying fringes, amongst whom racial tendencies remain unaltered by changing circumstances, and by whom traditions are preserved not by historical purpose but by the exercise of faith, know that there is a something which has a name but no external bounds or limitations, no quick principle, no settled purpose. something which to an alien can only be described by negatives; if any idea can at all be arrived at by such—any idea however rudimentary, phantasmal or vague—it can only be acquired at all by a process of exclusions. the name is “the gloom”; the rest is a birthright. those who can understand it need no telling or explaining; others can no more understand it than those born without eyes can see. it is a quality opposed to no other; it can exist with any. it can co-exist with fighting, with song, with commerce. it makes no change in other powers or qualities of the children of adam. those who possess it can be good or bad, clever or silly, heroic or mean. it can add force to imagination, understand nature, give quiet delight or spiritual pain. and the bulk of those who have it do not think of it or even know it: or if they do, hardly ever speak of it.

athlyne had his full share of it. being young and strong and of a class in life which seldom lacks amusement he had not been given to self-analysis. but all the same, though he did not think of it, the force was there. in his present emotional crisis it brought the lover in him up to the celtic ideal. an ideal so strangely saturated with love that his whole being, his aims and ambitions, his hopes and fears, his pleasures and pains yielded place to it and for the time became merged in it. to him the whole world seemed to revolve round joy as a pivotal point. nothing could be of any use or interest which did not have touch of her or lead to her. so, he wanted to know beyond the mere measure of intellectual belief if joy loved him or was on the way to doing so. when he was satisfied as to this he would be free to act; but not before.

on the journey he had allowed the chauffeur to drive, as he wanted to think over the whole matter without fear of interruption. he had sat in the tonneau and made from time to time notes in his pocket-book. he had now made up his mind that he would write a letter to colonel ogilvie telling him the whole circumstances. this he would keep in his pocket so that at the first moment when he was satisfied as to joy’s views he could post it, in case he could not have the opportunity of a personal explanation. after dinner the second night of the journey and then in his bedroom he sat up writing the letter and then copying it out on his own note paper of which he had for the purpose brought a supply with him. when it was completed it left nothing that he could think of open to doubt. when he had got this off his mind sleep came to him.

next day he took the wheel himself; and that day when there was fitting opportunity the car hummed along merrily at top speed. before sunset they arrived at bowness. there he left the car in charge of the chauffeur, on whom he again impressed the necessity for absolute silence. the man was naturally discreet, and he saw that he was in a good situation. athlyne was satisfied on leaving him that his orders would be thoroughly carried out.

in the forenoon of the next day he took the steamer which plies along the lake, and in due course landed at ambleside. his heart beat quickly now and his eyes searched keenly all around him as he moved. he would not miss a chance of seeing joy.