when on tuesday afternoon “mr. hardy” visited at the holland house he found only the single ladies at home. colonel ogilvie had gone out in the morning to see after several matters of business, both in connection with air and relating to the forthcoming visit to europe. he had said he would probably not be back till dinner time. mrs. ogilvie had gone out after lunch for a drive and would pay some visits before returning home. joy pleaded headache as an excuse for remaining at home. indeed her excuse was quite real; no one can pass so melancholy a part of a night as she had done without suffering the next morning. as the day wore on, however, the headache insensibly departed; something else had taken its place. joy would not admit to herself what that something was; but that afternoon she took unusual pains with her toilet. judy noticed it with her usual acute observation, understood it with her understanding sympathy; with her wonted discretion she remained silent. she felt, and rightly, that the time had not yet come when she could either be serious with joy or jest with her on the subject nearest to her heart. one thing she did which can never be out of place, especially when it is true: she showed pleasure in her niece’s looks, taking care, however to put her own reason for it on a non-offensive basis.

“joy,” she said “that terrible experience of sunday has not told on you a bit. you are looking simply lovely.” ordinarily joy would have known it, and would not have shrunk from admitting it to herself, or possibly even to her aunt; but to-day she was full of self doubting. her very flush of happy excitement when her aunt spoke would have betrayed her secret to a much less sympathetic or experienced person than judy.

it is love more than any other cause or emotion or feeling which creates self-distrust with the young. and sometimes with the old, for the matter of that.

when she found that aunt judy did not “chaff” her or ask her questions, which she rather feared would happen, joy beamed. indeed it looked to judy’s loving eyes as if she visibly blossomed. judy spoke of her dress, remarking how well the dark full-coloured green silk became her slender figure; but she was careful not to overdo her praise, or to suggest any special cause for so elaborate a toilet.

but judy was of a distinctly practical nature. she took care to send a message to the hall that if any visitors should come, though both colonel and mrs. ogilvie were out, miss ogilvie and miss hayes were at home.

athlyne found both ladies busily idle. joy was reading a novel; which by the way she put down hurriedly without as judy noticed, marking the place. judy was knitting; that sort of heavy uninteresting knitting which is manifestly for the poor! she was used to say that such was the proper sort of occupation for an old maid. she, too, put down the cause of her occupation, but deliberately; thereby giving time for the guest to salute her niece without the need of interruption. it did not matter, then, if joy’s hand did remain an instant longer in his than formality demanded, nor if—when released—it was white in patches as when extra force is applied to delicate flesh. for a few minutes judy joined in the conversation with her usual brilliancy. but to-day she was distinctly restless, sitting down and jumping up again; moving out of the room quietly and coming back noisily—the proper way as she said on an after occasion for all old maids to move. whenever she came back she would join in the conversation in a sort of butterfly fashion till she flitted away again.

in one of these trios when mr. hardy happened to remark that he would like to know what the movements of the ogilvies would be, and what address they gave for letters when they were away, joy answered:

“daddy always has our letters sent to brown shipleys in pall mall. but we shall be moving about a good deal i expect. mother has to take baths at ischia again, and one of us will stay with her; but daddy wants to go about a bit and see something of england. he is set on seeing the border counties this summer.”

“then how am i to know where you are?” he asked impulsively. with a bright smile joy nodded over to miss hayes:

“you had better ask aunt judy. she might keep you advised. she’s the letter-writer of the family!”

when in her turn joy had moved away on some little domestic duty he turned to judy and said:

“won’t you let me know the moves on the board, miss hayes. it would be very kind of you.” he looked so earnest over it that she felt her heart flutter. she said at once:

“of course i shall, if you will let me have an address to write to.” he had evidently thought over this part of the matter, for he took from his pocketbook a card on which he had written below his printed name: care jonathan goldsworth, solicitor. 47b lincoln’s inn fields, london, w. c. “that will always find me. i may be away or travelling; but my letters are sent on every day.”

judy thanked him, and seeing that joy was out of earshot added on her own account:

“it is only right that you, who did so much for my dear niece—and so for us all—should know at least where she is.”

“thank you very, very much!” said athlyne impulsively. he had all an irishman’s instinctive knowledge of woman’s character and felt that judy was to be trusted, that she was heart-wholly devoted to her niece. on her part judy knew that he could be trusted to the full, especially where joy was concerned. and from that moment she began to take an interest in the love affair; an interest quite personal to herself and independent of her love for the girl. she felt that she was a participant in all schemes which were to be; and that, she came to the conclusion, was about all the real romance that an old maid could share in. “thank god there’s that left at any rate!” was her prayer of gratitude.

athlyne felt a powerful impulse to make a confidante of her. this was the first chance he had of disclosing the reality of things, and he was just about to begin when joy returned. once again did that self-distrust, incidental to his state of mind, cramp him. he fancied that it might be premature. not knowing how deeply joy cared for him already, he was unwilling to take any chance which might militate against his ultimate success. there was also another hampering feeling coincident with the self-distrust: he thought it might be possible that a confidence made to judy might be embarrassing to her with her own folk. already his devotion was deep enough and pure enough to prevent his doing intentionally anything which might cause her pain. could aunt judy have looked into his heart, as she could and would have done had he been a woman, she would have been satisfied of the genuineness of his affection; and so she would have had no doubts at all as to the end of joy’s love affair.

joy’s return, however, brought somehow a sense of restraint. she had herself originated or initiated a mechanism of correspondence and she feared that mr. hardy might notice that she had done so. in her present state of feeling towards the man, the very idea of such a thing was fraught with humiliation. it is extraordinary how much people take to heart the belief on the part of others of that they have intended. truth, truly, is a bright weapon; even the flash of it has its own terrors!

judy did not comprehend exactly what the trouble was. she could see that there was restraint on both sides, and was wondering whether it had been possible that he had been speaking too impulsively—“going too quick” was the way she put it to herself—and that joy had resented or feared it. not the fact but the rapidity. well judy knew that in her youth a woman most holds back when the wildest desire of her heart is to rush forward; that the instinct of woman being to draw man on, she will spend the last ounce of her strength in pushing him back. judy had once said:

“a woman wants a man to be master, and specially to be her master. she wants to feel that when it comes to a struggle she hasn’t got a chance with him, either to fight or to run away. that’s why we like to make a man follow when in truth we are dying to run after him—and to catch him up!” some of her circle to whom the heterodox saying had been repeated professed to be very indignant as well as horrified. this was chiefly noticeable in such of the most elderly of the good ladies as had a lurid past or a large family, or both.

if, however, judy had any doubts as to the cause she had none whatever of the fact. there was no mistaking the droop of joy’s eyes, or the sudden lifting and quick dropping of the lids which makes the densest man’s heart flutter; no mistaking his eager look; the glowing eyes ranging over face and form when the windows of her soul were closed, and entranced in their light when they were open. judy herself knew the power of those gray, deep eyes. even when her niece had been a baby there seemed something hypnotic about them. they could disarm anger, or change the iron of theory into the water of fact. often and often after some such episode when she had thought the matter over she had said to herself:

“lord! if she’s like that as a baby with me, what will she be with a man when she’s a woman!” judy who was a self-observer knew instinctively that in joy was an inherent influence over men. there was some very subtle, delicate force which seemed to emanate from her; some force at once compelling and tranquillizing, for the explanation of which mere will-power was insufficient. the power was now in active exercise; but it was turned inwards. joy was in love! judy knew it as well as if she had herself acknowledged it; indeed better, for the acknowledgment of such a secret, except to the man himself, is given with reserve. and so she made up her mind to further the affair; but to prevent joy betraying herself unduly during such furtherance. by “unduly” judy really meant “unwisely” as to ultimate and most complete efficacy.

she had an idea that joy herself would approve, at present, of such discretion. it seemed a direct confirmation of such idea when presently the girl said to her in a faint whisper:

“don’t go away again aunt judy!”

when, however, in the course of conversation as the three sat chatting together happily, mr. hardy mentioned that his ship sailed in the early morning and she saw the colour leave the girl’s cheeks for a moment, just as a white squall sweeps a sunlit sea, judy’s heart softened. she understood that retreating wave of colour. nature has its own analogies to its own anomalies; there is a white blackbird, why not a white blush! so when the time drew near for the departure of the visitor judy slipped away for a minute. when she had gone the two sat still. athlyne’s eyes were on joy, eager, burning. her eyes were down, the black lashes curling against her cheeks. in a voice rather husky he said in a low tone:

“won’t you think of me sometimes till we meet again?” her answer was given in what she wished to be a matter-of-fact tone, but the slight quaver in it told another story:

“of course i shall! how can i help it? you saved my life!” there was an entrancing demureness in the downcast eyes. but it was not enough for the man. he wanted to see the eyes, to gaze in them, to lose himself in them once again. there is for each individual nature some distinctive way of expressing itself. sometimes it is the mouth which tells the story; sometimes it is by simple existence such as the lines of the nose or forehead, by the shape and movement of the hands; sometimes by a characteristic habit. joy’s nature spoke through the eyes; perhaps it is, that intention is best given by the eyes. anyhow the lover wanted to see them.

in a low voice—not a whisper—that thrilled with intensity he said:

“joy, look at me!” he spoke her name, though it was for the first time, quite unconsciously. as she heard it joy’s heart beat so that she feared he would notice it, and all the self-protective instincts of womanhood rose at the thought. for an instant her face glowed; then it grew pale again. she did not hesitate, however. she raised her eyes and looked him full in the face. her cheeks were flaming now, but she did not heed it. in the face of nature what, after all, is convention. as athlyne lost himself in those wonderful eyes he had a wild almost over-mastering desire to take her in his arms and kiss her straight on the beautiful mouth. he was bending towards her for the purpose, she was swaying towards him, he believed; but for long afterwards he could not be sure of the matter.

but suddenly he saw a change in the girl’s face, a look of something like terror which seemed in an instant to turn her to stone. it was but a momentary change, however. the spasm passed, and, just as though it was to his eyes as if he had waked from a dream, she was her easeful self again. at the same moment the outer door of the piece opened and mrs. ogilvie’s voice was heard as she entered:

“judy, i am so glad! i am told he has not gone yet. i should have been so sorry if i had not seen him!” when she entered the room, three seconds later, she found the two young people talking quietly according to the demure common-place of convention.

mrs. ogilvie was very hearty in her manner; a little more hearty than usual, for she had a sort of feeling as if something extra in the way of civility was due to him after the way her husband had spoken of him. this was illustrative of two things. first the woman’s unconscious acceptance of an unfavourable criticism of an absent person, as if it had been made to and not merely of him; second the way the sternness of a man’s judgment is viewed by the females of his family. she insisted that mr. hardy should stay for tea and asked joy to ring and order it.

joy had been at once relieved and disappointed by the sudden entry of her mother. the maidenhood in her was glad of the postponement of the necessity for her surrender; the womanhood in her was disappointed by it. she was both maid and woman; let the female reader say, and the male reader guess, which feeling most predominated. she was glad that he was staying a little longer; for so she might at least feast her eyes on him again; but it was at best a chastened gladness, for well she knew that that thrilling moment would not come again—during that interview. and he was going away next morning!

athlyne, too, was ill at ease. he, too, knew there would be no more opportunity now to follow up his declaration. the chagrin of his disappointment almost made him cross, such being the nature of man. here, however, both his breeding and the kindliness of his nature stood to him; the shadow quickly passed. later on in the evening, when he was thinking the matter over, he came to the conclusion that the interposition, though he did not attribute it to any divine origin, was after all perhaps best. it could not, or might not, suit him to declare himself so quickly. he felt that under the circumstances of his false name it would be necessary, or at any rate wise, to take colonel ogilvie into his confidence before declaring himself to his daughter.

it is thus that we poor mortals deceive ourselves. he had been just about to declare himself in the most passionate and overt way a man can; by taking the girl in his arms and kissing her, without even a passing thought of her father. but now, from some other cause, quite outside the girl and not even within her knowledge, he found his duty. one might with this knowledge easily differentiate the values of “necessary” and “wise” in his mind regarding his confession to her father.

joy found a very distinct, though shy, pleasure in handing him tea and cake. judy as usual presided at the tea-table. she did not interfere unduly with her niece’s ministrations, but she took care that she had plenty of opportunities. “joy dear won’t you see if mr. hardy will take more tea?”—“has mr. hardy enough sugar?” and so forth. she had noticed those sudden liftings of the girl’s eyes, and knew what they meant to a woman—and to a man. athlyne did not as a rule make tea a “square” meal, but this time he got in that direction. he refused nothing she offered. he would have accepted death at her hands now, if it would have pleased her; and it was only the girl’s discretion which saved the situation.

in due time he made his adieux and took his leave. with joy there was no more than a handshake. it was perhaps part of a second longer than customary, but the force with which the squeeze was given lingered long in her memory. perhaps it was the pain inflicted in the operation which made her often during the evening, when she was alone, caress the possibly wounded hand! that night she went to sleep with her right hand pressed to her heart.

judy had a wild impulse to tell joy to go to the door with the departing guest, but in the presence of her mother she did not dare to suggest it. had she been alone she would probably have done so.

athlyne walked away with his mind in a whirl. in his heart was ever surging up through all other thoughts that one sublime recognition which comes to every man at least once in his life: that which sir geraint voiced:

“here, by god’s rood is the one maid for me!” to this all other thoughts gave way. it obsessed him. when he came to forty second street he did not turn towards the hotel but kept straight on up fifth avenue till he reached central park. he felt the need of movement. he wanted to be alone in the open. at central park his steps took him seemingly of their own accord towards the riverside drive. when he came to a place amongst trees seeming to hang over the river he sat on a seat and gave way to his thoughts. there was no one near him. below him was the quiet river with its passing life; beyond, the jersey shore so distant that details of life were not apparent. he took off his hat, more in reverence than for ease, as he thought of the beautiful girl who had so strangely come into life. over and over again he said to himself in endless repetition:

“joy! joy! joy! joy!” he sat till the light began to fail and for long after the sudden darkness of the american night had swooped down. then he went home.

in the hotel he found a visitor waiting for him. mr. breckenridge had come to say good-bye. he did so with so much heartiness that athlyne could not bear to be aught but hearty himself. though he longed to be alone he insisted on the young fellow coming up to his own rooms.

the boy was not quite at ease so athlyne said to him:

“there is something on your mind. what is it?”

“well, look here, sir,” he answered gravely. “you have treated me like a comrade, and i want to treat you like one!”

“go on, old chap. i’m listening.” not without some nervousness the other proceeded:

“i saw in the journal last evening that you had dined on sunday evening in the holland with colonel ogilvie.”

“those damned reporters!” interrupted athlyne, but at once told him with a wave of his hand to proceed:

“that hung in my mind from something you said to me the other evening. that confidence which i shall always value.” athlyne nodded. he went on:

“i know something of that family. i’m from kentucky myself; and i was there for a while—that time of the nigger disturbance you know—and i was quartered not far from airlville. i have met colonel ogilvie; but it was on duty and amongst a good many others so he would not remember me. i never met any of his family; but i need not tell you that i fell in love with miss ogilvie. no fellow could help that; one glimpse of her is enough—— however—— i heard a lot down there about the old man, and as i was keen about the girl i took it all in and remembered it. i want to tell you this, because he is a very peculiar man. he is a splendid old chap. as brave as a lion, and as masterful as teddy roosevelt himself. but all the same he has his ideas which are hardly up to date. he is as stern as fate in matters of—of—well, social matters. they told me a story of him which when i recalled it has troubled me since i saw you. it was about a man whose identity he mistook and who for a jest allowed the error to go, and kept it up. he was a northern of course, for a southern would have understood, and our boys are sometimes very keen on a joke. but it was no joke when the old man tumbled to it. he called it an unforgivable outrage and insisted on fighting over it. i tell you it nearly cost the joker his life. he was drilled right through, and only escaped death by a miracle. i tell you all this, sir, because of your confidence in me. if i might make a suggestion—you won’t think it beastly presumptuous of me will you?” athlyne held out his hand; the other after shaking it, went on: “i would venture to suggest that—of course if you have not done so already—you should take him into your confidence before leaving here. it might be awkward if the old man were to find out for himself. he would think it a want of trust, and he might never forgive it. i am sure you would like to meet him and his again—you know you can’t save the life of a girl like that every day——” he stopped there, confused and blushing.

athlyne was touched by the young man’s kindly frankness and sincerity. he thanked him heartily but in a regretful way added:

“unfortunately i didn’t tell him. it was all so quick, and there was no opportunity when we did meet; and now i may not have the chance for some time. it would not do to write; i must see him and explain. and i go away early to-morrow. but be sure of this: the very first chance i get i shall tell him. i do wish for the friendship of him and his; and i should be main sorry if any foolishness hindered it. i shall have to do it carefully, i can see from what you tell me that he may construe my accepting his hospitality in my assumed name as an offence.” he went to the door with his friend, but before parting he said:

“by the way i should like you to do something for me if you don’t mind. i have asked the horse exchange people to get me another mount of the same strain as my black, a mare this time. i have given them full instructions, and if you will, i shall tell them that they must have your approval. i want some one who knows a good horse; and as i have given them carte blanche as to price it is right i should have some one to refer to. they are to send it to england for me.”

when breckenridge was gone he set about his preparations for his early start. strange to say he never thought of dinner at all that day; the omission may have been due to his hearty tea! as he worked he thought gravely over what his young friend had told him. he could see good cause for concern. colonel ogilvie’s attitude towards misrepresentation only echoed his own feeling. he came to the conclusion that there lay before him much thought; and possibly much action.

but all the same this branch of the subject did not monopolise his thoughts that night. as he lay awake he kept repeating to himself again, and again, and again:

“joy! joy! joy! joy!” he fell asleep with the words on his lips. the thought continued in his heart.