the horses, resting frequently and lathered by the work, had climbed the steep grade of the old road to moraga valley, and on the divide of the contra costa hills the way descended sharply through the green and sunny stillness of redwood canyon.

“say, ain't it swell?” billy queried, with a wave of his hand indicating the circled tree-groups, the trickle of unseen water, and the summer hum of bees.

“i love it,” saxon affirmed. “it makes me want to live in the country, and i never have.”

“me, too, saxon. i've never lived in the country in my life—an' all my folks was country folks.”

“no cities then. everybody lived in the country.”

“i guess you're right,” he nodded. “they just had to live in the country.”

there was no brake on the light carriage, and billy became absorbed in managing his team down the steep, winding road. saxon leaned back, eyes closed, with a feeling of ineffable rest. time and again he shot glances at her closed eyes.

“what's the matter?” he asked finally, in mild alarm. “you ain't sick?”

“it's so beautiful i'm afraid to look,” she answered. “it's so brave it hurts.”

“brave?—now that's funny.”

“isn't it? but it just makes me feel that way. it's brave. now the houses and streets and things in the city aren't brave. but this is. i don't know why. it just is.”

“by golly, i think you're right,” he exclaimed. “it strikes me that way, now you speak of it. they ain't no games or tricks here, no cheatin' an' no lyin'. them trees just stand up natural an' strong an' clean like young boys their first time in the ring before they've learned its rottenness an' how to double-cross an' lay down to the bettin' odds an' the fight-fans. yep; it is brave. say, saxon, you see things, don't you?” his pause was almost wistful, and he looked at her and studied her with a caressing softness that ran through her in resurgent thrills. “d'ye know, i'd just like you to see me fight some time—a real fight, with something doin' every moment. i'd be proud to death to do it for you. an' i'd sure fight some with you lookin' on an' understandin'. that'd be a fight what is, take it from me. an' that's funny, too. i never wanted to fight before a woman in my life. they squeal and screech an' don't understand. but you'd understand. it's dead open an' shut you would.”

a little later, swinging along the flat of the valley, through the little clearings of the farmers and the ripe grain-stretches golden in the sunshine, billy turned to saxon again.

“say, you've ben in love with fellows, lots of times. tell me about it. what's it like?”

she shook her head slowly.

“i only thought i was in love—and not many times, either—”

“many times!” he cried.

“not really ever,” she assured him, secretly exultant at his unconscious jealousy. “i never was really in love. if i had been i'd be married now. you see, i couldn't see anything else to it but to marry a man if i loved him.”

“but suppose he didn't love you?”

“oh, i don't know,” she smiled, half with facetiousness and half with certainty and pride. “i think i could make him love me.”

“i guess you sure could,” billy proclaimed enthusiastically.

“the trouble is,” she went on, “the men that loved me i never cared for that way.—oh, look!”

a cottontail rabbit had scuttled across the road, and a tiny dust cloud lingered like smoke, marking the way of his flight. at the next turn a dozen quail exploded into the air from under the noses of the horses. billy and saxon exclaimed in mutual delight.

“gee,” he muttered, “i almost wisht i'd ben born a farmer. folks wasn't made to live in cities.”

“not our kind, at least,” she agreed. followed a pause and a long sigh. “it's all so beautiful. it would be a dream just to live all your life in it. i'd like to be an indian squaw sometimes.”

several times billy checked himself on the verge of speech.

“about those fellows you thought you was in love with,” he said finally. “you ain't told me, yet.”

“you want to know?” she asked. “they didn't amount to anything.”

“of course i want to know. go ahead. fire away.”

“well, first there was al stanley—”

“what did he do for a livin'?” billy demanded, almost as with authority.

“he was a gambler.”

billy's face abruptly stiffened, and she could see his eyes cloudy with doubt in the quick glance he flung at her.

“oh, it was all right,” she laughed. “i was only eight years old. you see, i'm beginning at the beginning. it was after my mother died and when i was adopted by cady. he kept a hotel and saloon. it was down in los angeles. just a small hotel. workingmen, just common laborers, mostly, and some railroad men, stopped at it, and i guess al stanley got his share of their wages. he was so handsome and so quiet and soft-spoken. and he had the nicest eyes and the softest, cleanest hands. i can see them now. he played with me sometimes, in the afternoon, and gave me candy and little presents. he used to sleep most of the day. i didn't know why, then. i thought he was a fairy prince in disguise. and then he got killed, right in the bar-room, but first he killed the man that killed him. so that was the end of that love affair.

“next was after the asylum, when i was thirteen and living with my brother—i've lived with him ever since. he was a boy that drove a bakery wagon. almost every morning, on the way to school, i used to pass him. he would come driving down wood street and turn in on twelfth. maybe it was because he drove a horse that attracted me. anyway, i must have loved him for a couple of months. then he lost his job, or something, for another boy drove the wagon. and we'd never even spoken to each other.

“then there was a bookkeeper when i was sixteen. i seem to run to bookkeepers. it was a bookkeeper at the laundry that charley long beat up. this other one was when i was working in hickmeyer's cannery. he had soft hands, too. but i quickly got all i wanted of him. he was... well, anyway, he had ideas like your boss. and i never really did love him, truly and honest, billy. i felt from the first that he wasn't just right. and when i was working in the paper-box factory i thought i loved a clerk in kahn's emporium—you know, on eleventh and washington. he was all right. that was the trouble with him. he was too much all right. he didn't have any life in him, any go. he wanted to marry me, though. but somehow i couldn't see it. that shows i didn't love him. he was narrow-chested and skinny, and his hands were always cold and fishy. but my! he could dress—just like he came out of a bandbox. he said he was going to drown himself, and all kinds of things, but i broke with him just the same.

“and after that... well, there isn't any after that. i must have got particular, i guess, but i didn't see anybody i could love. it seemed more like a game with the men i met, or a fight. and we never fought fair on either side. seemed as if we always had cards up our sleeves. we weren't honest or outspoken, but instead it seemed as if we were trying to take advantage of each other. charley long was honest, though. and so was that bank cashier. and even they made me have the fight feeling harder than ever. all of them always made me feel i had to take care of myself. they wouldn't. that was sure.”

she stopped and looked with interest at the clean profile of his face as he watched and guided the horses. he looked at her inquiringly, and her eyes laughed lazily into his as she stretched her arms.

“that's all,” she concluded. “i've told you everything, which i've never done before to any one. and it's your turn now.”

“not much of a turn, saxon. i've never cared for girls—that is, not enough to want to marry 'em. i always liked men better—fellows like billy murphy. besides, i guess i was too interested in trainin' an' fightin' to bother with women much. why, saxon, honest, while i ain't ben altogether good—you understand what i mean—just the same i ain't never talked love to a girl in my life. they was no call to.”

“the girls have loved you just the same,” she teased, while in her heart was a curious elation at his virginal confession.

he devoted himself to the horses.

“lots of them,” she urged.

still he did not reply.

“now, haven't they?”

“well, it wasn't my fault,” he said slowly. “if they wanted to look sideways at me it was up to them. and it was up to me to sidestep if i wanted to, wasn't it? you've no idea, saxon, how a prizefighter is run after. why, sometimes it's seemed to me that girls an' women ain't got an ounce of natural shame in their make-up. oh, i was never afraid of them, believe muh, but i didn't hanker after 'em. a man's a fool that'd let them kind get his goat. “

“maybe you haven't got love in you,” she challenged.

“maybe i haven't,” was his discouraging reply. “anyway, i don't see myself lovin' a girl that runs after me. it's all right for charley-boys, but a man that is a man don't like bein' chased by women.”

“my mother always said that love was the greatest thing in the world,” saxon argued. “she wrote poems about it, too. some of them were published in the san jose mercury.”

“what do you think about it?”

“oh, i don't know,” she baffled, meeting his eyes with another lazy smile. “all i know is it's pretty good to be alive a day like this.”

“on a trip like this—you bet it is,” he added promptly.

at one o'clock billy turned off the road and drove into an open space among the trees.

“here's where we eat,” he announced. “i thought it'd be better to have a lunch by ourselves than stop at one of these roadside dinner counters. an' now, just to make everything safe an' comfortable, i'm goin' to unharness the horses. we got lots of time. you can get the lunch basket out an' spread it on the lap-robe.”

as saxon unpacked the basket she was appalled at his extravagance. she spread an amazing array of ham and chicken sandwiches, crab salad, hard-boiled eggs, pickled pigs' feet, ripe olives and dill pickles, swiss cheese, salted almonds, oranges and bananas, and several pint bottles of beer. it was the quantity as well as the variety that bothered her. it had the appearance of a reckless attempt to buy out a whole delicatessen shop.

“you oughtn't to blow yourself that way,” she reproved him as he sat down beside her. “why it's enough for half a dozen bricklayers.”

“it's all right, isn't it?”

“yes,” she acknowledged. “but that's the trouble. it's too much so.”

“then it's all right,” he concluded. “i always believe in havin' plenty. have some beer to wash the dust away before we begin? watch out for the glasses. i gotta return them.”

later, the meal finished, he lay on his back, smoking a cigarette, and questioned her about her earlier history. she had been telling him of her life in her brother's house, where she paid four dollars and a half a week board. at fifteen she had graduated from grammar school and gone to work in the jute mills for four dollars a week, three of which she had paid to sarah.

“how about that saloonkeeper?” billy asked. “how come it he adopted you?”

she shrugged her shoulders. “i don't know, except that all my relatives were hard up. it seemed they just couldn't get on. they managed to scratch a lean living for themselves, and that was all. cady—he was the saloonkeeper—had been a soldier in my father's company, and he always swore by captain kit, which was their nickname for him. my father had kept the surgeons from amputating his leg in the war, and he never forgot it. he was making money in the hotel and saloon, and i found out afterward he helped out a lot to pay the doctors and to bury my mother alongside of father. i was to go to uncle will—that was my mother's wish; but there had been fighting up in the ventura mountains where his ranch was, and men had been killed. it was about fences and cattlemen or something, and anyway he was in jail a long time, and when he got his freedom the lawyers had got his ranch. he was an old man, then, and broken, and his wife took sick, and he got a job as night watchman for forty dollars a month. so he couldn't do anything for me, and cady adopted me.

“cady was a good man, if he did run a saloon. his wife was a big, handsome-looking woman. i don't think she was all right... and i've heard so since. but she was good to me. i don't care what they say about her, or what she was. she was awful good to me. after he died, she went altogether bad, and so i went into the orphan asylum. it wasn't any too good there, and i had three years of it. and then tom had married and settled down to steady work, and he took me out to live with him. and—well, i've been working pretty steady ever since.”

she gazed sadly away across the fields until her eyes came to rest on a fence bright-splashed with poppies at its base. billy, who from his supine position had been looking up at her, studying and pleasuring in the pointed oval of her woman's face, reached his hand out slowly as he murmured:

“you poor little kid.”

his hand closed sympathetically on her bare forearm, and as she looked down to greet his eyes she saw in them surprise and delight.

“say, ain't your skin cool though,” he said. “now me, i'm always warm. feel my hand.”

it was warmly moist, and she noted microscopic beads of sweat on his forehead and clean-shaven upper lip.

“my, but you are sweaty.”

she bent to him and with her handkerchief dabbed his lip and forehead dry, then dried his palms.

“i breathe through my skin, i guess,” he explained. “the wise guys in the trainin' camps and gyms say it's a good sign for health. but somehow i'm sweatin' more than usual now. funny, ain't it?”

she had been forced to unclasp his hand from her arm in order to dry it, and when she finished, it returned to its old position.

“but, say, ain't your skin cool,” he repeated with renewed wonder. “soft as velvet, too, an' smooth as silk. it feels great.”

gently explorative, he slid his hand from wrist to elbow and came to rest half way back. tired and languid from the morning in the sun, she found herself thrilling to his touch and half-dreamily deciding that here was a man she could love, hands and all.

“now i've taken the cool all out of that spot.” he did not look up to her, and she could see the roguish smile that curled on his lips. “so i guess i'll try another.”

he shifted his hand along her arm with soft sensuousness, and she, looking down at his lips, remembered the long tingling they had given hers the first time they had met.

“go on and talk,” he urged, after a delicious five minutes of silence. “i like to watch your lips talking. it's funny, but every move they make looks like a tickly kiss.”

greatly she wanted to stay where she was. instead, she said:

“if i talk, you won't like what i say.”

“go on,” he insisted. “you can't say anything i won't like.”

“well, there's some poppies over there by the fence i want to pick. and then it's time for us to be going.”

“i lose,” he laughed. “but you made twenty-five tickle kisses just the same. i counted 'em. i'll tell you what: you sing 'when the harvest days are over,' and let me have your other cool arm while you're doin' it, and then we'll go.”

she sang looking down into his eyes, which were centered, not on hers, but on her lips. when she finished, she slipped his hands from her arms and got up. he was about to start for the horses, when she held her jacket out to him. despite the independence natural to a girl who earned her own living, she had an innate love of the little services and finenesses; and, also, she remembered from her childhood the talk by the pioneer women of the courtesy and attendance of the caballeros of the spanish-california days.

sunset greeted them when, after a wide circle to the east and south, they cleared the divide of the contra costa hills and began dropping down the long grade that led past redwood peak to fruitvale. beneath them stretched the flatlands to the bay, checkerboarded into fields and broken by the towns of elmhurst, san leandro, and haywards. the smoke of oakland filled the western sky with haze and murk, while beyond, across the bay, they could see the first winking lights of san francisco.

darkness was on them, and billy had become curiously silent. for half an hour he had given no recognition of her existence save once, when the chill evening wind caused him to tuck the robe tightly about her and himself. half a dozen times saxon found herself on the verge of the remark, “what's on your mind?” but each time let it remain unuttered. she sat very close to him. the warmth of their bodies intermingled, and she was aware of a great restfulness and content.

“say, saxon,” he began abruptly. “it's no use my holdin' it in any longer. it's ben in my mouth all day, ever since lunch. what's the matter with you an' me gettin' married?”

she knew, very quietly and very gladly, that he meant it. instinctively she was impelled to hold off, to make him woo her, to make herself more desirably valuable ere she yielded. further, her woman's sensitiveness and pride were offended. she had never dreamed of so forthright and bald a proposal from the man to whom she would give herself. the simplicity and directness of billy's proposal constituted almost a hurt. on the other hand she wanted him so much—how much she had not realized until now, when he had so unexpectedly made himself accessible.

“well you gotta say something, saxon. hand it to me, good or bad; but anyway hand it to me. an' just take into consideration that i love you. why, i love you like the very devil, saxon. i must, because i'm askin' you to marry me, an' i never asked any girl that before.”

another silence fell, and saxon found herself dwelling on the warmth, tingling now, under the lap-robe. when she realized whither her thoughts led, she blushed guiltily in the darkness.

“how old are you, billy?” she questioned, with a suddenness and irrelevance as disconcerting as his first words had been.

“twenty-two,” he answered.

“i am twenty-four.”

“as if i didn't know. when you left the orphan asylum and how old you were, how long you worked in the jute mills, the cannery, the paper-box factory, the laundry—maybe you think i can't do addition. i knew how old you was, even to your birthday.”

“that doesn't change the fact that i'm two years older.”

“what of it? if it counted for anything, i wouldn't be lovin' you, would i? your mother was dead right. love's the big stuff. it's what counts. don't you see? i just love you, an' i gotta have you. it's natural, i guess; and i've always found with horses, dogs, and other folks, that what's natural is right. there's no gettin' away from it, saxon; i gotta have you, an' i'm just hopin' hard you gotta have me. maybe my hands ain't soft like bookkeepers' an' clerks, but they can work for you, an' fight like sam hill for you, and, saxon, they can love you.”

the old sex antagonism which she had always experienced with men seemed to have vanished. she had no sense of being on the defensive. this was no game. it was what she had been looking for and dreaming about. before billy she was defenseless, and there was an all-satisfaction in the knowledge. she could deny him nothing. not even if he proved to be like the others. and out of the greatness of the thought rose a greater thought—he would not so prove himself.

she did not speak. instead, in a glow of spirit and flesh, she reached out to his left hand and gently tried to remove it from the rein. he did not understand; but when she persisted he shifted the rein to his right and let her have her will with the other hand. her head bent over it, and she kissed the teamster callouses.

for the moment he was stunned.

“you mean it?” he stammered.

for reply, she kissed the hand again and murmured:

“i love your hands, billy. to me they are the most beautiful hands in the world, and it would take hours of talking to tell you all they mean to me.”

“whoa!” he called to the horses.

he pulled them in to a standstill, soothed them with his voice, and made the reins fast around the whip. then he turned to her with arms around her and lips to lips.

“oh, billy, i'll make you a good wife,” she sobbed, when the kiss was broken.

he kissed her wet eyes and found her lips again.

“now you know what i was thinkin' and why i was sweatin' when we was eatin' lunch. just seemed i couldn't hold in much longer from tellin' you. why, you know, you looked good to me from the first moment i spotted you.”

“and i think i loved you from that first day, too, billy. and i was so proud of you all that day, you were so kind and gentle, and so strong, and the way the men all respected you and the girls all wanted you, and the way you fought those three irishmen when i was behind the picnic table. i couldn't love or marry a man i wasn't proud of, and i'm so proud of you, so proud.”

“not half as much as i am right now of myself,” he answered, “for having won you. it's too good to be true. maybe the alarm clock'll go off and wake me up in a couple of minutes. well, anyway, if it does, i'm goin' to make the best of them two minutes first. watch out i don't eat you, i'm that hungry for you.”

he smothered her in an embrace, holding her so tightly to him that it

almost hurt. after what was to her an age-long period of bliss, his arms

relaxed and he seemed to make an effort to draw himself together.

“an' the clock ain't gone off yet,” he whispered against her

cheek. “and it's a dark night, an' there's fruitvale right ahead, an' if

there ain't king and prince standin' still in the middle of the road. i

never thought the time'd come when i wouldn't want to take the ribbons

on a fine pair of horses. but this is that time. i just can't let go

of you, and i've gotta some time to-night. it hurts worse'n poison, but

here goes.”

he restored her to herself, tucked the disarranged robe about her, and chirruped to the impatient team.

half an hour later he called “whoa!”

“i know i'm awake now, but i don't know but maybe i dreamed all the rest, and i just want to make sure.”

and again he made the reins fast and took her in his arms.

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