christine went into the oratory of st. philip at brompton on a sunday morning in the following january, dipped her finger into one of the italian basins at the entrance, and signed herself with the holy water. she was dressed in black; she had the face of a pretty martyr; her brow was crumpled by the world's sorrow; she looked and actually was at the moment intensely religious. she had months earlier chosen the brompton oratory for her devotions, partly because of the name of philip, which had been murmured in accents of affection by her dying mother, and partly because it lay on a direct, comprehensible bus-route from piccadilly. you got into the motor-bus opposite the end of the burlington arcade, and in about six minutes it dropped you in front of the oratory; and you could not possibly lose yourself in the topographical intricacies of the unknown city. christine never took a taxi except when on business.

the interior was gloomy with the winter forenoon; the broad renaissance arches showed themselves only faintly above; on every side there were little archipelagos of light made by groups of candles in front of great pale images. the church was comparatively empty, and most of the people present were kneeling in the chapels; for christine had purposely come, as she always did, at the slack hour between the seventh and last of the early morning low masses and the high mass at eleven.

she went up the right aisle and stopped before the miraculous infant jesus of prague, a charming and naive little figure about eighteen inches high in a stiff embroidered cloak and a huge symbol upon his curly head. she had put herself under the protection of the miraculous infant jesus of prague. she liked him; he was a change from the virgin; and he stood in the darkest corner of the whole interior, behind the black statue of st. peter with protruding toe, and within the deep shadow made by the organ-loft overhead. also he had a motto in french: "plus vous m'honorerez plus je vous favoriserai."

christine hesitated, and then left the miraculous infant jesus of prague without even a transient genuflexion. she was afraid to devote herself to him that morning.

of course she had been brought up strictly in the roman catholic faith. and in her own esteem she was still an honest catholic. for years she had not confessed and therefore had not communicated. for years she had had a desire to cast herself down at a confessional-box, but she had not done so because of one of the questions in the petit paroissien which she used: "avez-vous péché, par pensée, parole, ou action, contre la pureté ou la modestie?" and because also of the preliminary injunction: "maintenant essayez de vous rappeler vos péchés, et combien de fois vous les avez commis." she could not bring herself to do that. once she had confessed a great deal to a priest at sens, but he had treated her too lightly; his lightness with her had indeed been shameful. since then she had never confessed. further, she knew herself to be in a state of mortal sin by reason of her frequent wilful neglect of the holy offices; and occasionally, at the most inconvenient moments, the conviction that if she died she was damned would triumph over her complacency. but on the whole she had hopes for the future; though she had sinned, her sin was mysteriously not like other people's sin of exactly the same kind.

and finally there was the virgin mary, the sweet and dependable goddess. she had been neglecting the very clement virgin mary in favour of the miraculous infant jesus of prague. a whim, a thoughtless caprice, which she had paid for! the virgin mary had withdrawn her defending shield. at least that was the interpretation which christine was bound to put upon the terrible incident of the previous night in the promenade. she had quite innocently been involved in a drunken row in the lounge. two military officers, one of whom, unnoticed by christine, was intoxicated, and two women—madame larivaudière and christine! the belgian had been growing more and more jealous of christine.... the row had flamed up in the tenth of a second like an explosion. the two officers—then the two women. the bright silvery sound of glass shattered on marble! high voices, deep voices! half the promenade had rushed vulgarly into the lounge, panting with a gross appetite to witness a vulgar scene. and as the belgian was jealous of the french girl, so were the english girls horribly jealous of all the foreign girls, and scornful too. nothing but the overwhelming desire of the management to maintain the perfect respectability of its promenade had prevented a rough-and-tumble between the officers. as for madame larivaudière, she had been ejected and told never to return. christine had fled to the cloakroom, where she had remained for half an hour, and thence had vanished away, solitary, by the side entrance. it was precisely such an episode as christine's mother would have deprecated in horror, and as christine herself intensely loathed. and she could never assuage the moral wound of it by confiding the affair to gilbert. she was mad about gilbert; she thrilled to be his slave; she had what seemed an immeasurable confidence in him; and yet never, never could she mention another individual man to him, much less tell him of the public shame that had fallen upon her in the exercise of her profession. why had fate been thus hard on her? the answer was surely to be found in the displeasure of the virgin. and so she did not dare to stay with the miraculous infant jesus of prague, nor even to murmur the prayer beginning: "adorable jésus, divin modèle de la perfection ..."

she glanced round the great church, considering what were to her the major and minor gods and goddesses on their ornate thrones: st. antony, st. joseph, st. sebastian, st. philip, the sacred heart, st. cecilia, st. peter, st. wilfrid, st. mary magdelene (ah! not at that altar could she be seen!), st. patrick, st. veronica, st. francis, st. john baptist, st. teresa, our lady, our lady of good counsel. no! there was only one goddess possible for her—our lady of vii dolours. she crossed the wide nave to the severe black and white marble chapel of the vii dolours. the aspect of the shrine suited her. on one side she read the english words: "of your charity pray for the soul of flora duchess of norfolk who put up this altar to the mother of sorrows that they who mourn may be comforted." and the very words were romantic to her, and she thought of flora duchess of norfolk as a figure inexpressibly more romantic than the illustrious female figures of french history. the virgin of the vii dolours was enigmatically gazing at her, waiting no doubt to be placated. the virgin was painted, gigantic, in oil on canvas, but on her breast stood out a heart made in three dimensions of real silver and pierced by the swords of the seven dolours, three to the left and four to the right; and in front was a tiny gold figure of jesus crucified on a gold cross.

christine cast herself down and prayed to the painted image and the hammered heart. she prayed to the goddess whom the middle ages had perfected and who in the minds of the simple and the savage has survived the renaissance and still triumphantly flourishes; the queen of heaven, the tyrant of heaven, the woman in heaven; who was so venerated that even her sweat is exhibited as a relic; who was softer than christ as christ was softer than the father; who in becoming a goddess had increased her humanity; who put living roses for a sign into the mouths of fornicators when they died, if only they had been faithful to her; who told the amorous sacristan to kiss her face and not her feet; who questioned lovers about their mistresses: "is she as pretty as i?"; who fell like a pestilence on the nuptial chambers of young men who, professing love for her, had taken another bride; who enjoyed being amused; who admitted a weakness for artists, tumblers, soldiers and the common herd; who had visibly led both opponents on every battlefield for centuries; who impersonated absent disreputable nuns and did their work for them until they returned, repentant, to be forgiven by her; who acted always on her instinct and never on her reason; who cared nothing for legal principles; who openly used her feminine influence with the trinity; who filled heaven with riff-raff; and who had never on any pretext driven a soul out of heaven. christine made peace with this jealous and divine creature. she felt unmistakably that she was forgiven for her infidelity due to the infant in the darkness beyond the opposite aisle. the face of the lady of vii dolours miraculously smiled at her; the silver heart miraculously shed its tarnish and glittered beneficent lightnings. doubtless she knew somewhere in her mind that no physical change had occurred in the picture or the heart; but her mind was a complex, and like nearly all minds could disbelieve and believe simultaneously.

just as high mass was beginning she rose and in grave solace left the oratory; she would not endanger her new peace with the virgin mary by any devotion to other gods. she was solemn but happy. the conductor who took her penny in the motor-bus never suspected that on the pane before her, where some agency had caused to be printed in colour the words "seek ye the lord" she saw, in addition to the amazing oddness of the anglo-saxon race, a dangerous incitement to unfaith. she kept her thoughts passionately on the virgin; and by the time the bus had reached hyde park corner she was utterly sure that the horrible adventure of the promenade was purged of its evil potentialities.

in the house in cork street she took out her latch-key, placidly opened the door, and entered, smiling at the solitude. marthe, who also had a soul in need of succour, would, in the ordinary course, have gone forth to a smaller church and a late mass. but on this particular morning fat marthe, in déshabille, came running to her from the little kitchen.

"oh! madame!... there is someone! he is drunk."

her voice was outraged. she pointed fearfully to the bedroom. christine, courageous, walked straight in. an officer in khaki was lying on the bed; his muddy, spurred boots had soiled the white lace coverlet. he was asleep and snoring. she looked at him, and, recognising her acquaintance of the previous night, wondered what the very clement virgin could be about.